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Left - A letter I would never send to Kim Seokjin Pt.2

Pairing: Jin x Reader , Genre: Angst

Part 1, Part 3

Play: Empty Road - Taeyang

Part 2 is up! Hope you like it! Part 3/ final is in progress, will upload as soon as it’s finished.

Red light. I hit my brake immediately.

Here I am in the middle of night, rushing to the hospital. No, i’m not hurt and am perfectly fine.

But he isn’t.

The thought of him made me speed up at the immediate sight of the green light. I can’t even begin to imagine how he is. I can’t imagine the pain he felt, piercing through his heart.

I have a mixed feelings of everything. I mean i’m sad that he’s sad, but i’m kind of happy his lover is in an accident.

I guess that’s why he’ll never love me. I’m such a horrible person, while she’s practically an angel sent from heaven.

I immediately entered the hospital and rush to the third floor. I ran and ran recklessly, looking for that one face, the face of the man that I love dearly up until now, eventhough he is married. I felt my lungs suffocating, unable to keep up with fast movements of my body. I turn to my right to be met with a familiar brown orbs.

“Seokjin….” I whispered while covering my mouth gasping.

His face was gloomy. The light in his eyes was gone, it was replaced by hatred. His appearance was disheveled, and his brownish suit crumpled. His hands were trembling, holding a bouquet of beautiful flowers, but now all withered. He then returned his gaze to the floor. A single tear escaped his eyes, and i swear my heart broke into a million pieces.

“Seokjin…” I said as i slowly slip myself to the chair next to him. He lifted his gaze to meet mine for awhile before returning them to the floor.

“It’s my fault Y/N. If I would just pick her up, If i would just cross the street, she wouldn’t end up like this”

At this point, I couldn’t control the tears falling from my eyes. I gently pat his back in attempts to soothe him.

“No Seokjin. No it’s not your fault i swear-“

“Mr. Kim”

I retreated my hand from his back. Seokjin immediately stand up to face the doctor.

“She’s gonna be fine right?”

“For now her conditions are quite stable, but we have to see how she will response to the medication. You may visit her-“

He didn’t even wait for the doctor to finish his sentence before barging straight to her room. I stood up and walked towards the door. I choose not to enter, respecting their privacy. Instead, I watch them through the small window.

There he was, stroking her hair with one hand, while holding her hand in his other vacant one. She was awake and smiled sweetly at him. Soon, they were inching forward, connecting their lips to each other.

I flinched. I couldn’t even look.

I was now staring at the floor. Tears flowing heavily. My shoulder shakes uncontrollably. I covered my mouth to conceal the sobs coming out.

I brave myself to look up once more. They were smiling, so happy to be in each other’s presence. I place my hands silently on the window, as if trying to reach him.

Im sorry Seokjin, I can’t. I tried but I still can’t.

and with that I left.

[oxyjinwrites]

A letter I would never send to Kim Seokjin Pt.1 (letter fic)

Pairing: Jin x Reader , Genre: Angst

Hi! So this is going to be a series with 3 parts (hopefully). Here’s part 1, hope you like it. Will try to post part 2 very soon :)

Part 2, Part 3

Play: I don’t want - Jungkey, So Jung

Dear Kim Seokjin,

Hey

I received your invitation in the mail today.

So it’s her you’re marrying? I knew it, you guys were practically made for each other.

Congratulations is all i can say, from the bottom of my heart.

I’m happy that you’ve decided to take a big step in your life. You’re now all grown up and ready to be the head of a family. I bet the boys are excited for you, as much as I am. I wish you all the best in the future.

Marrying someone means committing your whole life to a certain someone. I hope you take care of her well. How fun it must be to have someone to wake up to everyday, someone to cook for, someone to grow old with.

I am happy and excited for you once again.

It was such an honour to be invited to be a part of your special day. Unfortunately, I am sorry that i’m unable to attend your wedding. I know it is a selfish decision, but please understand my side of story. Please let me be selfish for once.

I don’t want to ruin your big day, because i know that as soon as the priest says “speak now or forever hold your peace” i would immediately stand up and object. I don’t want to ruin your big day, because i know that while you two were exchanging your vows, my heart would break into a million pieces. Tears would threaten to spill out, and i would be this idiot who cries while everyone is smiling.

Im sorry that i couldn’t handle the pain, my heart just couldn’t take it anymore. I’m totally broken at the thought that it’s not me who will be walking down the aisle in a beautiful white dress. It’s not me who will be the mother of your beautiful children. It’s not me who you will wake up to. It’s not me who you’ll love “till death do us part”. It’s not me who you’re marrying.

I’ve never moved on Seokjin, i never do. Even since the day we broke up. But I do realise that i need to let you go.

So I’m sorry once again. I hope you can forgive me. I wish you happiness.

[oxyjinwrites]

Seokjin’s Future Lover (letter fic)

Pair: Seokjin x Reader

Play: Golden Love- Midnight Youth

To Kim Seokjin’s future lover,

First of all, keep in mind that you have his whole heart in your hands. He’s the type to give his all to his lover. He trust them with everything he owns, even his sanity.

Seokjin hates early morning. He loathed the feeling of waking up early for schedules. He hates the idea of leaving you alone- all warm and snuggly against his chest. He hates the taste of an instant meal, when he is capable of cooking a hearty breakfast.

If you happen to wake up before he leaves, give him a morning kiss. No matter its a peck, chaste or passionate kiss. He doesn’t care. As long as he gets to taste your lips against his pink plump ones. Give him words of encouragement for his day. He is going to remember it all day. Trust me.

Text him about your day. Where you go, what you eat, what you wear, who you meet, what you do. He loves it, as he can imagine being next to you. Tell him you miss him. He absolutely loves the feeling of being loved, its gets him bubbly and energetic, especially during dance practice. Compliment him on his vocals and dancing skills. He gets insecure a lot. Remind him that it’s okay to have a slump moment. Remind him that although other people seem to learn and catch on faster than him, it doesn’t mean he can’t. When he’s sad, send him lots of heart emojis. He’ll smile like an idiot.

He loves food. He loves coming home to food, especially a homemade meal. A steaming plate of Kimchi fried rice and a bowl of warm seaweed soup is the key to this man’s heart. He loves it more than life itself. He’ll probably reward you with hugs and kisses afterwards. He loves it when you trust his cooking skills, like asking for advice or even letting him judge your food. He’ll give you honest and blunt answers, but he will be more than willing to help you out. He doesn’t say this often, but he loves it when he can cook together with his lover. You can expect a lot of backhugs during your time in the kitchen.

Make him a cup of sweet tea after dinner. He likes it when someone is there to listen to his rambling, or whatever is going on inside his head. When he’s having a bad day, make sure to cuddle him. He feel a sense of calmness, if you stroke his soft short hair. Whisper him sweet nothings while kissing the crown of his head. Wait until he calmed down before asking him anything.

You’ll have fights with him, and trust me it’s not easy. He’ll probably raise his voice when trying to proof his point, so don’t assume that he is angry. He may seem like he doesn’t listen to what you have to say, but trust me, he values your opinion as his partner. He just got caught up in the moment to easily. He wouldn’t even dare to hurt you, so don’t you ever have to worry about physical abuse. Don’t be afraid to break down in front of him, because as soon as he sees a single drop of your tears, he’ll throw the argument out of the window and just hold you tight. He’ll say a million sorry, no matter who was right or wrong. He’ll probably call it a day, and drag you to the bed. Solving the problem would occur on the day afterwards.

Hold his hand when you’re out and about with him. He loves the feeling of being yours. He likes it when you ask for his company to go shopping. He loves it when you get excited about a certain attire or bag or shoe. He loves to spoil you so much, so occasionally let him pay for your things. He loves to make you happy.

Let him buy you flowers. He is a very traditional guy, who believes that at every date a guy should buy his girl her favourite flowers.

These are the things that I could think off at the moment, but I’m sure that you’ll be able to make him happy. Please do make him happy.

One last thing.

Please do not ask him about me. Please burn any pictures or things that belongs to me. Please delete my text and phone number from his phone. Please avoid me, if we happen to meet in the streets. Please make him hate me. I beg you.

It took him months to recover. It took him months to recover from the pain that i had cause. It took him months to forget the day that i stab his heart multiple times. It took him months to return the light in his eyes. It took him months to move on and live his life.

So don’t ever let him crumble even for a split second, over an irrelevant being, like me.

It may take me some time to move on, and i might watch you guys from afar. Just ignore and let me be. Let me kill myself with the sight of you both. At least I’ll get the karma that I deserve.

Lastly, cherish your times with him. Love him with every single molecule in your body. Hold on to him. Don’t make the same mistakes that i did by letting him go.

Both of you stay happy. I wish you all the best.

Sincerely yours.

[oxyjinwrites]

#24 “Just Because”

Pairing: Jungkook x Y/N 

23:04

You glance at the clock, a sigh escaping your chapped lips. 23:04

“Just a little bit more and I’m done” you thought. Your body react, causing you to feel energize to wrap up today’s work. You have a meeting scheduled tomorrow morning. Being the perfectionist that you are , you were stuck in the office at late hours, double checking your final design for any errors.

“Hey Y/N, are you done?” the familiar voice of your colleague, Jeon Jungkook, could be heard clearly throughout the vast office space.

“Almost, just go home if you’re done for the day” you said, not even bothering to look up from your laptop screen.

“There’s only the two of us left…” He paused.

You looked up, scan the room to find it empty. You let out a small hmm.  He was right.

“Being the gentleman that I am, I wouldn’t dare to leave you alone. Besides you haven’t had anything for dinner, why don’t we catch something to eat on the way back?”

You stayed silent and resumed your work, but your thoughts were running elsewhere.

Jungkook was a close colleague of yours. You had a lot of projects with him, and found that he made a great teammate. This isn’t the first time that you both had a meal together. In fact, you’ve done that a couple of times, especially in between meetings and other work-related activities. So, when Jeon Jungkook decided to ask you out on a meal that is completely non-office related, you can’t help but feel reluctant and surprised.

Hearing your stomach grumble against the thought of food, you couldn’t afford to pass the opportunity of eating.

“Sure, give me 5 minutes” you said while saving your work, and start to pack up.

Jungkook recommended a small ramen shop just a few blocks away from the office. You excitedly agreed on it, disregarding the choice of food- you were too hungry to even think.

The smell of ramen broth causes you to walk faster, dreading to stuff some food down your empty stomach. You followed him inside, as he led you towards a vacant table.

“Two spicy ramen please” Jungkook said to the waitress.

Shortly afterwards, the food arrived, and the both of you ate silently. The sounds of slurps filling the void between you two. In less than 15 minutes, you were both done with your food. There were a few conversations here and there, mostly about work, but it soon turn into something more personal. You got a chance to learn more about him, like his endless love for pizza, also his obsession of buying portable speakers, and how his office table was basically an overwatch figurine shrine. You chuckled at the thought of his childlike personality, which is totally in contrast with how he presented himself at work - mature, good looking and smart young man.

After a few more conversations and jokes, Jungkook excused himself to go to the washroom. While waiting for him, you decided to check your phone, replying messages that you are unable to attend during work hours. After a few minutes he returned, and you noticed that it was pass midnight. You needed to go home right away, as the meeting starts early in the morning.

“Let’s go, it’s getting late. Anyways, i’ll pay for the meal today.” You said, afterwards letting out a small yawn. It was weird and uncomfortable to let Jungkook pay. Jungkook stayed silent, and quickly made his way to the entrance.

You approach the cashier and mentioned your table number.

“Miss, I’m sorry, but your meal has been paid by a lovely gentleman.”

“What? Who?” You asked, totally confused with the situation.

“That guy over there” the cashier said while pointing towards the entrance of the restaurant. You followed the direction of her finger, and was met by Jungkook who was smirking, and then laughing his head off.

“How? When…?”

Just as you walk towards him, you realised. The washroom excuse……

You chuckled to yourself.

“Yah Jeon Jungkook! What was that? Why pay for the meal?” You shout at him, and swatted his arm.

“Just…” he said inbetween laughs, as he tried really hard to avoid your hand.

“Just what?!”

“Just Because.. Aish come on i’ll walk you home” he said, his face looking embarrassed as he quickly exited the restaurant.

And that was the start of your dates with Jeon Jungkook. A bowl of hot spicy ramen.

[oxyjinwrites]

Malibu (MYG)

*Not part of the challenge/other prompts*                                                               Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader                                                                                   Songfic: Malibu- Miley Cyrus

The sand. Beautiful sunsets. Everything was perfect.

Something about the place just gets me emotional.  Lyrics came pouring in my mind, like the ocean waves rolling into the sand. I remember perfectly how the sound of the guitar and seagulls inspired me to write the melody of the song. It took me less than half an hour to come up with this song. Now, i’m sharing it to the world for the first time.

Possibly to him, the man behind this song.

After 2 years of taking a break, I decided to write a new album, and now it’s nominated in numerous categories of the Billboard Music Awards. I was invited to the nominees party and a lot of people congratulated me.  Just the next day, something caught my eye on the news.

“BTS: the first ever kpop group to be nominated for a Billboard Music Award” along with the picture of the seven boys taken at their recent concert. My attention was caught by the short, fair-skin young man in the left corner of the picture. Min Yoongi.

Gosh Min Yoongi, it’s been a long time.

“Hey, you are up in 5 minutes”

I was torn away from my train of thoughts. This was not my first time performing, but i could feel every ounce of my body stiffen. Nervousness starts to reel in, to the point i felt like puking. Is it due to my 2 years absence? Or is it due to performing a song I wrote about Min Yoongi, infront of Min Yoongi? I had no clue.

I cautiously made my way to the stage, afraid that i would ruin the train of my designer dress. My mic-stand and guitar was waiting for me. I adjusted my guitar, and then proceed to scan the audience. I located BTS at the far back, and could see Namjoon and Hoseok waving at me. I smiled back at them. Soon the lights were dimmed, signalling the beginning of my performance. I strummed the first few chords, and a whole ocean of emotions starts to wash over me. Memories instantly came flooding back.

I never sat by the shore under the sun with my feet in the sand

But you brought me here and I’m happy that you did. Cause now i’m as free as birds catching the wind

It was our third year anniversary, and he suggested that we go on a trip together as a couple. I suggested to go to metropolitan cities such as Tokyo, New York, Vancouver. He shook his head telling me no, and that he had plan the destination. 

“We’re going to Malibu. You never had the chance to go to the beach, so why not for our anniversary”

So, off we both go. Excitement and fear filled my heart. Little did i expect that i would be visiting again after several years, let alone enjoying the ambience.

I always thought I would sink, so I never swam

Sometimes i get so scared of what I can’t understand

“You gotta try and take risk once in a while.” he said and drag me to swim in the ocean with him. “It’s not my fault that i’m not a risk taker.” I said while using all my energy to stop him. He sighed then led me to one of the beach chairs. He sat, held on my hands, and look me straight in the eye. “That goes the same for songwriting, you shouldn’t be afraid to try something refreshing and new”. I paused and processed everything, while looking down on the sand that was hugging my feet. “Babe, i know that you’re stuck with no ideas for lyrics, i mean it doesn’t hurt if you try something outside of your comfort zone, who knows it might work out.” He said. In the moment when i brave myself to glance up and look him in the eye, i knew he was right. Goddamnit min yoongi is always freaking right.

“come on, the point of this trip is to relax and have fun” he said and flash me his gummy smile before he ran into the ocean waves. Guess what? So did I.

But here i am, next to you, the sky’s more blue, in Malibu

“See, i told you that you would like it! You never know unless you try” he beamed at me, as we were drying ourselves from the ocean swim. “Fine, whatever you say honey boy” I said and slapped his chest gently. He pulled me into a hug and his warmth immediately took over my body. I wish i can freeze time because i swear, the clouds weren’t visible and all i could see was a wide blue yonder.

I never would’ve believed you, if three years ago you told me, I’d be here writing this song

“Congratulations babe, see i knew you could do it, you just have to see it from another point of view.” Yoongi said, as he pulled me into a tight hug. I took his advice and experiment on different genres. I finally could write my own full album.

“Any song about Min Yoongi?” he asked and smirked. “There are definitely a couple of them” I said, my cheek turns into a rosy shade. “Anything about Malibu tho?” He said then chuckled. I laughed with him. “Not anytime soon, i still prefer tall skyscrapers over beaches.” I said. “Well, someday you will, i can feel it someday you’ll write about Malibu.” He said, “And when that song is released, i’ll be sure to send you an i-told-you-so text” He said while chuckling and ruffling my brown hair.

Should have known from Agust D that Min Yoongi’s side job is fortune telling.

Sometimes i feel like I’m drowning and you’re there to save me”

“I can’t do it anymore Yoongi, the album is not doing well. Maybe i should just stop writing songs, and go back to my old job.” I said, stress washing all over my body. “What?! No! Always remember why you decide to choose songwriting, think about it. Think of why you started this in the first place” He said with a slightly raised voice.

“It’s just that i’ve tried so hard, and try everything i can. It just doesn’t work out. No one wants to listen to my lyrics.” I said as I feel tears welling up my eyes.

“If people don’t like your lyrics, then so be it! Not everyone can appreciate and understand art.” He said pulling me into a hug, while rubbing my back to soothe me. I cried my eyes out on his chest.

“Trust me, one day they will, just don’t ever give up”.

I wanna thank you with all of my heart. It’s a brand new start. A dream come true, in Malibu

It was a usual monday morning in the studio, when my manager called. “Your album is Top 10 on Itunes and No.1 in several countries.” My manager screamed over the phone. I feel my tears welling up. Finally after years of hard work and perseverance. “OH GOSH, thanks for the news! I’ll call the others to tell this good news” I said then immediately hung up. I scrolled over my messages, and stop on my chat with Min Yoongi.

Oh, how badly i wanted to text him.

We ended things a couple years ago, and we haven’t talk to each other ever since. I guess he had some credit towards my success now. The events happening in Malibu kept replaying in my head. I decided not to text him, and proceeded to text my friends.

A sound of clap and cheers once again cut me off from my train of thoughts. I immediately open my eyes, and reality came back to me. I just finish my performance, confetti and balloons falling down from the ceiling. I look around and smiled at the crowd, trying to make every eye contact possible. Just then, i made an eye contact with a familiar brown orbs. Min Yoongi. His messy black hair, his fair white skin, his small heartwarming eyes. A few tears formed in his eyes, as he continuously clapped along with the audience. His gaze wouldn’t leave me. I let out a small sigh, unable to contain the tears i’ve been holding. I wipe my tears, as i smiled back at him.

Thankyou for shaping me, Min Yoongi. I am eternally grateful.

[oxyjinwrites]

#6 “Have a good day at work”

Pairing: Jin x Y/n (Her/She)

Employed as an external accountant has its up and downs. A high salary and beautiful condo is the advantage. Unfortunately in exchange, one must work past normal working hours under constant pressure of getting your license revoked. One single mistake that puts the client in trouble, you’re out of the game, possibly forever. With that condition, external accountants tend to have a high level of stress as well as a sore back and tired eyes from all the paperwork. That’s what she would feel, everyday of her life.

Her alarm echoes through the room. The sound grows bigger and bigger, filling every space of her room. It’s feels like it’s haunting her, and she has no escape whatsoever. Slamming the alarm off, she drag herself out of bed and into the living room. A swift scent of coffee woke her up, her focus now on the person that was currently occupying her kitchen.

“Morning sleepyhead, breakfast is ready”

Jin, Her boyfriend of 5 years, flipping the pancakes and putting it on the plate, then proceed to shoot her one of his million-dollar smile. That gets her everytime. Before she knew it, she proceed to give him a back hug, while hiding her face because she was smiling like an idiot. She loves his built back, how it is strong and warm at the same time. He then spin her around, and now he was hugging her small frame and nuzzling his face on her neck.

“Can i be absent for work today?” She complained.

“Hey, i know it’s tough out there, but it’s a part of being an adult. You have a responsibility to carry and to support your parents. Besides, we’ll get less vacation time if you skip work. Now off you go to get ready” he said, and broke the hug, pecking her forehead.

She sulk, but proceed to obey what he said. After she was done, they proceed to leave their shared apartment.

It was a routine for Jin to drive her to work, as her office is near his. Once settled inside the car, she would directly fall asleep. Jin chuckled, she was always a sleepyhead. She could use the extra nap, as she barely has four hours of sleep, due to the preparation of yearly financial reports.

Once they arrived at her office, Jin would wake her up gently. She’ll wake up, check her makeup, and refresh herself.

“Bye Jin, thanks for the ride babe.” she beamed and kissed his cheek. She proceeded to open the car door, when she felt an arm dragging her back and spinning her around. He pecked her on the lips, then proceeded to plant another kiss on her cheek.

“Have a good day at work baby.”

That’s what keeps her going everyday despite hell being thrown at her. He was her “charger”, and as long as she keeps him near, she’ll still be sane.

[oxyjinwrites]

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The stories are based on prompts/sentences given in the “100 ways to say i love you challenge” (google it to find out). I’ll be posting the phrase and also the number to lessen the confusion. I will use bts members as characters in the short stories. Prompts other than the challenge will be accepted, but i will focus on the challenge first. Feel free to ask/request. This is my first time so sorry for the grammatical mistakes. Please support this blog, thanks!