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do i love you? or am i just so deeply afraid of being alone that i obsess over who i want you to be in my head and ignore all signs of reality.

to someone that is starving, anything is appealing. to someone who is starving, that last thing they had to eat was the best in the world.

until i stop starving myself of what love truly is, you will be all i can think of. so if i ever want love, i will have to stop starving. even if that means i will never taste you again.

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i hate that i still want you after everything. it would hurt so much less if i could forget about you and be done. but every night when i go to sleep youre the last thing i think of. and every morning when i wake up youre the first thought i have. sometimes ill lay there for a while and day dream. i like to pretend that we're married, and im pregnant, and we have a toddler sleeping down the hall. and your alarm just went off for work but it woke me up too. and you hug me, and i kiss you, and i ask you to stay in bed just a little longer. and you do for a while, and then we get up and make breakfast, and our kid is there. and youre there. and everything is perfect. and then i realize ive been laying in my bed, staring at the ceiling for an hour. and you're not in my life anymore. then i remember that you dont want to be in my life anymore. so i get up and i go make breakfast by myself. and nothing is perfect, but i cant live my whole life waiting for someone who does not want me.i wont do it any longer.

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felt this

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I’m the girls

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fighting the inexplicable urge to disappear into nothing and become everything

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i don't think i'm real