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The Battle — JJK

⟿ Note: Hiii!! I know it’s been forever since I’ve posted on this account, and I am very sorry! I’m in uni now and my writing has improved (in my opinion) drastically, so I’m very excited to return bc I love posting here. To kick off the new era, I’m sharing a small fic I’ve worked on recently. I really hope you like it.

⟿ Synopsis: Your relationship with Jungkook has been strained for far too long and you’ve decided to do something about it.

⟿ Genre: Just angst, sorry </3 but possible part two!!

⟿ Pairing: Idol!Jungkook x Reader

⟿ Word count: 1,387

“Jungkook.” You called out to your boyfriend the second you heard the door to his apartment open. You were supposed to hang out together, you’d been waiting for him for over 40 minutes.

“Yes, babe?” From his sing-song voice, you could tell he was tipsy.

“We need to talk.” You were aiming for a serious, sobering tone, but it appeared nothing could dull his vibe when he got it going,

“‘Course, love. Not now though, I’m busy. Just getting changed and heading out with the boys.”

“But you said we’d have tonight together.”

“I know baby, but we always celebrate big wins together. You know you’re welcome to join us.” Jungkook knew very well that you were still really nervous around his bandmates. You specifically asked for some time alone.

“But we need to talk and it can’t wait.” Your voice was unwavering, but you could feel the resolve you’d spent so long building up begin to slip away.

It was hard to fight with Jungkook. It was harder when he didn’t fight with you.

“What? Are you okay?” His voice resonated throughout the apartment from your bedroom to where you were sitting in the living room.

“No, Jungkook. I’m not.” There was a moment of silence.

“What’s wrong, are you sick?” His head peaked out from the room, harbouring slight concern on his otherwise bright face.

“No, it’s about us.” You averted eye contact, unable to watch the happiness drain from his face.

“That can wait.” He went back into the room, and you could feel your frustration return.

“I’ve been waiting, but you’re always busy and I can’t wait anymore.”

“Can I not have one night? One night where you’re not on my ass about everything?”

“That’s not fair.”

“Y/N, we fight every week.”

“And I want to talk about it.” He came out of the room, fully dressed in his favourite jeans and a tight black turtleneck sweater. A month ago, this would’ve been the part where you joked about him looking like that one picture of The Rock. Now it just made you wonder how many people would throw themselves at him, and just how many he’d reject before he’d finally realise you might not be worth the trouble.

“No, see you say you want to talk and then it turns into you making me feel like shit for living my life.” Jungkook continued arguing with you while pacing around the apartment looking for his keys, his wallet, his sunglasses.

“That’s not my intention.” You stood up from your seat on the couch, but he continued to avoid looking at you.

“Your intention doesn’t matter, your actions do. And right now, I’d really love it if you didn’t start a fight.”

“Fine, if that’s what you really want.”

“Great. I’ll see you later.”

You sighed. “You won’t.”

“Stop with the dramatics, Y/N.”

“No dramatics, I’m done. We’re done.” You weren’t sure how you managed to get the words out, considering the fact that they felt like shards of glass dragging across your tongue.

“Seriously?” He looked at you, one hand on the door knob, the other by his side.

You thought about taking it back for way too long, and when you said nothing, he shook his head, letting out a sardonic chuckle.

“Alright, Y/N. We’re done.” And with those parting words, he was out the door.

You sat back down on his couch. Tears were flooding your eyes, and you could feel the pressure on your chest, affirming the end you saw coming but tried so hard to avoid.

You could have continued begging for a morsel of his time to work things out, but as he said, he viewed any and all criticism as an infringement on his right to party and celebrate his success.

You were the same age, but you lived vastly different lives and you had no idea how to reconcile the gap between the Jungkook who loved you, and the Jungkook who was in the public eye. There was only one you. You didn’t have a second life, and that was what made it so hard to relate to him.

He didn’t even want to try.

You wiped away your tears, grabbing your coat and bag from the armchair. You had one arm through the sleeves when the door opened again.

For the split second that you heard the keypad beep and the door’s hinges creak, you allowed yourself to be filled with hope. He came back, and in that moment you let yourself believe that it was for you. That he’d tell you he can’t live without you, and whatever there was going on between you two, he’d be willing to fix it.

But you and him hadn’t felt partners in so long, and the problems you used to tackle together, as an inseparable unit, began to feel like termites eating through the foundation of your trust.

“Oh, you’re still here.” His voice didn’t sound remorseful. It didn’t sound like the voice of a man who was prepared to lay the ugliest parts of your relationship bare so that you could work through them. He sounded indifferent.

“Yeah sorry, I was just leaving.” You quickly shrugged the coat on properly, grabbing your bag and hastily rushing toward the door, but Jungkook was blocking the doorway, and he didn’t move away when you approached. “Um, Jungkook, you’re kind of in the way.” You tried your absolute hardest to keep your voice level and your tears at bay, but the longer he stood there the harder it was.

“I am, aren’t I?” His tone was so hard to read, you had no idea how to respond. “I’m always in your way, Y/N. And a better man would let you go, but I can’t.”

Before you could grasp onto his words, he grasped onto you. Jungkook wrapped you into a tight hug.

“Don’t do this, Jungkook. Please.”

“I don’t know what to do, Y/N. I feel so guilty, all the time. I don’t know how it fix it, so I go out, and I get wasted and I convince myself you’re happier without me.” He sounded so vulnerable, so bare, and for a moment you saw your pain reflected in his.

How could you fix it? There was only so much turbulence a relationship could take, and the strain on your own mental health was beginning to feel like less of a side-effect and more like a direct bi-product.

Sometimes, the best way to get rid of termites is to burn it all down and pray you have the strength to rebuild.

You weren’t sure of much, but you were sure that you weren’t strong enough to rebuild.

“I’m not happier without you, Jungkook. But lately I haven’t been feeling happier with you either. I love you, you know that, but I can’t keep pretending like it doesn’t hurt me when you pretend I don’t exist. And I know the only other option is to go public, but I don’t think I could cope with that kind of attention.”

“I could say I’m in a relationship and we could keep your identity secret. I’ve seen other idols do that.”

“Idols much less famous than you, Jungkook. Its unfair of me to expect you to carry the burden of the negative attention you’d inevitably get.”

“What are you saying?”

“Sometimes love isn’t enough. And I can’t watch as we tear ourselves apart trying to make each other feel better.”

“Y/N, I don’t know how to do this without you.”

“Me neither, but I think we have a much better chance of figuring out how to live apart than together, don’t you?”

“I— I could take a break from the group until we figure this out.”

“You’d resent me for it.”

“You can’t give up on us just like that?”

“You gave up a long time ago, Jungkook.” There was no hostility in your voice, so Jungkook knew you weren’t trying to hurt him with that remark. In fact, the sincerity of what you’d said, and the tears that began to flood your eyes and his, told him you might just be right.

So, without another word, Jungkook moved out of the doorway and watched as you gave him a tight-lipped smile before walking away.

[oureuphoria]

helllooooo how are u? just wanted to let uno i love your writing sm <3

i’m okay!! studying for some very important exams :(((

thank you so much, it means a lot to hear that you enjoyed my writing!! Have a lovely day! 💕

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hey i love your writings

i love u <3

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I really love your writing style and specially I LOVED ‘Not Like You’ and I truly mean that. I freaking Love it and then I was looking for the other part (totally forgot to read that it was one shot lol). I was wondering if there’s gonna be a second part? ❤️

hiiii no part two sorry >:ccc but thank you for enjoying it! I'm really glad you had a good time.

Have a lovely day, and I'm so sorry I am so late!

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helloooo you said you are working on something what is it about

hiiii i'm working on a few things at the moment, one was like best friends brother, the other was car mechanic jk x yn, i think i was also working on a hunger games au at some point either way i cannot stick to a story for the LIFE OF ME its bad 😭😭😭😭😭

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im prolly the only person who thinks this but i didn't really like worst of u jk sorry 😭😭 he just seemed like an a hole idk maybe im too petty

LMAOOOO it’s fine i wrote worst of u a while ago and tbh i think he’s kind of an a-hole too 😭😭😭😭😭 and don’t apologise for having an opinion!!

Have a great day!

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Hii since not like you won’t be getting a part 2, would you mind telling us what happens after the end pls :(

ahhh essentially what i had in mind was that Y/Ns parents didn’t actually die (imsorry) remember how jk’s bro was a graphic designer? he thought it would be a funny prank (it wasn’t) to design hyper-realistic death certificates and after she found them, she would hear a knock on the door and open it and it would be Jk’s bro being like “haha, got u” but she’s very mad naturally and then jk comes into support her bc jin told him and finds his brother that he hasn’t seen in years being tackled by his gf so it’s like all awkward and stuff and the 2nd part was gonna be about jk mending the relationship with his family but i just never got to writing it 😭😭😭😭

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hiiii <3 i just read not like you and it was amazingggg. i can’t believe i read 28k words in one sitting lmao, it never feels like it but i think it took me an hour ? lolol. will there be a part 2 ik it says one shot but it kinda left at a cliff hanger and not a conclusive ending, which it doesn’t have to ! just curious :p <3 MWAH

i’m so sorry it took me so long to get to this. i’m not planning on releasing a part 2, but i’m very glad you enjoyed!!! thank u so much for reading 💕💕💕💕 and dw sometimes i read 30k+ fics in one sitting and then end up contemplating everything

[oureuphoria]

who would be interested in a bts bridgerton AU series?

also which member should have which role? i.e. prince, baron, duke, etc…

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working on smth 🫣🫣

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hello i hope its not rude but will there be another part for not like you ? i love your writings by the way💖 (worst of you has a special place in my heart)

it’s not rude at all!!! tysmmm for reading and im glad you enjoyed :D

i was planning on doing a 2nd part to not like you but unfortunately the entire file deleted and i kinda lost motivation 😭😭😭 i might come back to it later though, sorry i don’t have a solid answer.

have a lovely day anon!

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hello 🖐 worst of you is one of the best series I've read

thank youuu <33 i wrote it so long ago it actually makes me cringe when i read it 😭😭😭 so this means a lot to me.

Have a lovely day anon!

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hello how are you

this is very sweet!! i’m good how are you anon? i’m working on so many things at once (all unfinished bc i have a small attention span) but i hope you’ve all been well!!!

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it’s apple’s dramatic tyrant era

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Just wanted to let you know I love your writings. The dialogue is always so witty and fun. The characters are so human and relatable. I thoroughly enjoyed your entire master list.

thank you so much 💗💗💗 this actually means so much to me!! i’m glad you enjoyed reading even if some of them are super old and cringey LMAO

Have a great day anon!!

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I DELETED ALL OF NOT LIKE YOU INCLUDING EVERYTHING I HAD FOR PART 2 i’m crying and throwing up right now

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hiii iI just wanted to ask if there would be a sequel to not like u, or if your planning one. I'm in love with that fic

there is ~something~ in the works but I’m not sure if I’ll be uploading it yet so nothing is confirmed i’m sorry :// thanks so much for reading tho!! i’m really glad you enjoyed