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hey guess what

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You can tell when someone’s frame of reference for “normal people” is more “people at the church sponsored ice cream social” and less “people on the bus”

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them: you don’t watch game of thrones?? really? how come?

me: 

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Interview Snippet #3: Stage Name

Interviewer: so how did you come up with the stage name lollipop? Was it something interesting? Something spicy?

Lorne laughs somewhat ruefully and shakes her head.

Lorne: it's not really that exciting. I had a breast reduction after high school. Aaaand my scar style is called lollipop.

Interviewer: oh! That's actually really neat! Do the scars look like lollipops?

The interviewer looks genuinely interested. Lorne stands with her back to the camera.

Lorne: want to see?

Interviewer: uh... yes?

Lorne raises her top, flashing the interviewer. Her back is still to the camera so viewers can only see part of her back tattoo. The interviewer looks flustered. He laughs nervously. Offstage, Lorne's manager can be seen rubbing his temples.

Interviewer: haha. Just whipped them right out! Oh hey, the scars do look like lollipops!

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Ten more pages to type. Rewriting as I go makes this take forever. I want to brainblast it directly into my computer.

Me, editing my own writing: KISS HER YOU FOOL

Also Me: *tensiooooooon*

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Before Lorne could close the distance between their mouths, Orion raised a hand to her face, halting her advance. His thumb pushed gently on her parted lips, while his spread fingers cupped her jaw to reach just under her ear.

“That’s enough.” The words were only a murmur, but once again held the unyielding baritone he’d employed during her earlier panic attack.

Lorne’s eyes grew half-lidded and glassy, like fog had replaced the earlier storm. She leaned into his grasp, facing growing red and warm.

This… honestly was not better at all.

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me as a writer

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Me, editing my own writing: KISS HER YOU FOOL

Also Me: *tensiooooooon*

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Before Lorne could close the distance between their mouths, Orion raised a hand to her face, halting her advance. His thumb pushed gently on her parted lips, while his spread fingers cupped her jaw to reach just under her ear.

“That’s enough.” The words were only a murmur, but once again held the unyielding baritone he’d employed during her earlier panic attack.

Lorne’s eyes grew half-lidded and glassy, like fog had replaced the earlier storm. She leaned into his grasp, facing growing red and warm.

This… honestly was not better at all.

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Did I really manage to spend 5+ hours today handwriting fanfiction for Infamous? Yea.

Am I going to clean it up for posting? Yea.

It is going to be my first post in over a year? And it's filth? And I'm doing it anyway? Yeah.

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Mobility assistance

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Coming from a state champion baker:

If y’all use a decent box mix and use melted butter instead of vegetable oil, an extra egg, and milk instead of water, no one can tell the difference. I sure as hell can’t. 

Also, if you add a little almond extract to vanilla cake, or a little coffee to chocolate cake, it sends it through the roof. 

This concludes me attempting to be helpful. 

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i watched one (1) video on how to draw hands that changed my life forever. like. i can suddenly draw hands again

these were all drawn without reference btw. i can just. Understand Hands now (for the most part, im sure theres definitely inaccuracies). im a little baffled

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Hi hey hello. I'm still not really "here", I'm just posting the first things I've tried to draw in nearly a year.

Wips obviously, and HEAVILY cropped, but such is life.

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honestly, why is the only language we have for sexual trauma that of rape and assault? there are so many kinds of sexual trauma that are done a genuine disservice by trying to grapple with them using the language of rape.

there's "i consented to this for self-destructive reasons," there's "i didn't know what i was consenting to because i didn't have enough experience to tell that i would be upset by this thing," there's "i initiated something that i now regret," there's dozens, even hundreds, of sexual situations that are traumatic and that need community support and care and some real trauma work to heal from, that just aren't accurately described by the language we have to discuss rape.

and like, trying to shoehorn them in under the umbrella of rape and assault often does a disservice to the victims trying to heal--trying to cast a sexual partner as a malicious perpetrator retroactively is often really psychologically damaging to someone who is experiencing a complex trauma around an experience they consented to, especially when the trauma victim themselves initiated the experience.

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Learn to articulate how you're feeling without accusing anyone of having bad intentions. You can say "I'm afraid of being alone" without saying "you're just going to leave me like everyone else." You can say "I need some reassurance" without saying "you probably don't love me anymore." You can say "I'm afraid I've hurt your feelings and I'd like to talk it through" without saying "you don't even like me anymore." You can say "I want to spend more time with you" without saying "you've gotten tired of me." You can say "I feel misunderstood" without saying "you always judge me." Try not to let your emotions get the best of you. Have a conversation focused on finding solutions instead of escalating the conflict.