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hello everyone. um. so i have been doing research and keeping track of symptoms, dates, times and memories.

im starting to think that im not actually fictionkin and it something else. half of these posts i dont remember unless i look back.

but at the same time i don't want to jump to "oh yeah im sure im a system" because im not sure. maybe its something else completely like delusions or maybe i am actually fictionkin. but i am starting to think that it might be a possibility.

anyways love yall, drink water, take meds if you need them and stay safe.

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great job! =)

Gore stuff incoming !

Here, I finished my doodle of Endogeny. It was supposed to take like 5 minutes, it actually took like 4 hours...

I'm proud of it, but ar the same time I'm not. I don't know how I was able to pull that off...

So please tell me what you think of it, because I'm not sure I'll draw it again

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i user picrew to make what i lookee like before the fall, faglly. as well as that girl i was talking about before. imma just say tina.. so here we are.

i remember trying to be more feminine before the fall so i was seen as Netrual.. i dont know what my logic was.

then tina. she was chubby, and offten wore fake wings that i gave her. she was what i thought an angel would be like as a person. always had flowers in her hair. i think her and her parents were natives, she just had this bond with nature. tina was the village's favorite but that didn't stop us from bring friends.

i remember us talking about climbing mount ebott, restoring the old house one the side of its hills and living out days off the land. we planned everything. id be the hunter and gatherer well she was the gardener and make the things from the animal pelts.

we would get high grades despite skipping classes to 🍃 under the bleachers, talk about the "legend" of monsters under mount ebott, aliens. you name it, we talked about it. i miss her. i think her and azzy would have gotten along great.

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hey.. i know this doesn't revolve being otherkin or fictionkin but i need to let it out. i just found out 10 to 15 minutes ago my only grandma left died. i struggle with showing and regulating my emotions. i feel bad i only cried out of sight of my mom, the daughter of that grandma. i wish i could show more so she doesn't feel alone.

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yesterday before the argument i had went shopping. I've cut out a red heart as ive kinda wanted something from home and i dont have the means to make something that looks like my locket.

on another note i am still wondering if im a papyrus kin or if he is just a coping link. because on one hand that golden flower memory, the constantly trying to mask my issues with a false happiness and what not, calling people human(normal to small children i babysit, but also to what little friends i have.), not understanding some jokes and taking something litterly. and recently any actual food i want is pasta.

on the other hand my room, i am the exact opposite of being loud (i have ro be told to speak up-), my almost unhealthy obsession with him(something im putting towards a coping link.), im extremely Introverted.... idont struggle with junior jumble. wait, actually i might. i haven't done one in a while. ok so that one is a maybe.

i am just not sure about what papyrus is so im just going to wait and see.

another note, the other day i got a memory from a character i wasn't even kinsidering. nightmare moon from mlp... so yeah. yet another character to figure out what is going on. for now thats all.

love y'all, take care and goodnight or day!.

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hey. just got into a fight with my mom here. i feel drained but i need to finish pickibg up my garbage then take a shower. but now my mom has me questioning everything, the Nero divergentecy i have been diagnosed with, my mental illnesses, everything.. yet somehow my belief in this hasnt wavered.

sorry for that dump. thank you, love y'all. take care.

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I just want to apologize to any flowey, asriel, toriel and asgore reading this, especially if your from my au. im sorry i wasnt the best kid, thank you for being my family.

to asriel and flowey directly, ive had a lot of time to realise my plan would have just more harm. you were in the right to stop me. it would have just sparked another war. thank you.

to gaster, you were the second closest friend i have from the underground. your achievements in science were amazing. also thank you for answering any and all stupid questions i might have had.

to papyrus, you puzzles are alot of fun. i miss them, and watching you cook. some of you food was actually pretty good. although i think anything tastes good after being dead so long 😅.

to sans, im sorry for being a noisey little shit- however that tornado is fucking fun to ride.

to alphys, you are enough. you may have made mistakes but everyone does, i mean look at me or my birth parents. yes those monsters may have fused together but you've done great care in trying to make them happy. (p.s: although the sword you made with undyne was huge some details were actually correct!)

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id say chocolate, the feeling of fur reminds me of many monsters and the sight of spaghetti reminds me of papyrus.

Hello hello hello everyone!

Monika here (of DDLC) and I was wanting to ask a question if that's okay!

What is a sense that brings you back to your kin life? Like- a smell, taste, physical sensation, sight or sound that always floods you with memories or even just a kin shift!

For me, well, hmm. The sound of pen on paper and the smell of cupcakes. I start to feel like I'm back in the literature club, enjoying cupcakes with my friends and writing my heart onto the page!

- #💫🌨️🌸

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probably buttercups, coco or cinnamon if im honest. or wet goat fur-

Hey what would your kintype/theriotype smell like? Mine would probably smell like basil

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thank you, as a chara dreemurr (possibly from two different timelines) although mental shifts have helped with my emotions and what not, their not always safe or healthy for me.

It's always "It's important to let yourself have mental shifts" or "Not letting yourself have shifts is like wearing a binder for too long" but its never "I understand why you force yourself not to shift" or "I understand that shifting isn't always healthy or safe for the person going through them" I hear you friend. Stay safe

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hey its me. you know that meme "are you tired of being nice? dont you just wanna go ape shit?". you do? ok because that is my mood right now. im homesick, i miss my family, friends. hell i miss frisk! i just wanna go home. on top of that ive started babysitting and thats just made things ten times worse. my god.

i just want time to myself, relax and figure out who i am and how to cope. but (」ﾟﾛﾟ)｣ᴺᴼᴼᴼ~ i can't have a single moment of peace.

sorry the majority of this isnt fictionkin. i needed to get it off my chest.

anyways, does anyone know how i can make a mood board?. thanks, love ya.

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hey its me.. stupid question. is it possible to kin the same character but from a different timeline or au.. i saw a pixle comic of chara, frisk and kris in an undertale setting together and all alive. its on Tumblr. i dont know why it just feels familiar when i havent seen it before. maybe i should just wait awhile and see..

anyways. topic of strange feelings. although this is more of a memory? idk. but anyways, i remember just seeing golden flowers at spots papyrus frequencies in the underground. including his bed which is odd because almost all memories ive had of the underground were from when me and asriel were alive. papyrus and sans werent alive back then. and im sure i wasnt a poltergeist after death so yeah.

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this is roughly what i remember myself looking like.. my locket was upside down like a monster soul well asriel's was up right like a human soul..

at least what i looked like after the fall.

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im starting to thinking something happen to my soul when i died with asreil.. i dont know what... but i feel like something attached its to it or my soul was spread around. im not sure. i just know it didn't disappear.

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hey.. its me. wanna know something that isnt fun? feeling like your fucking dying dispite not physically sick because yout in a kinshift. i swear do god that my throat qnd stomach felt so awful i thought i was dying. i actually had to run to the bathroom because i felt as if i was going to puke. but i know im not sick, so why?. i would take feeling sad anyday over that.

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hey its me.. every time ive thought about frisk today i get felt... hurt and angry.. i guess i still haven't forgave them yet.. i dont know why.. they were nice to me, yeah killing my mom was a bit much but they didnt blame me for what they were doing... i just.. it hurts to think about them.. and how they might have called MY mom their own after kill her..

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i rememder a few times begging for dad to train me with fire magic because i know wouldn't do it.. he finally gave in, teaching me just how to make a small flame in my hand and that was it. under the one condition I would not hurt myself with it. i was able to teach myself how to use it in many ways, sticking to the promise that i made.

i also remember when frisk fell down to do a pacifist route after a failed genocide(they felt bad killing sans. also i was screaming at them to not kill my dad.)... they stayed with mom for around a week, before heading into snowdin area. i barely talked to them for that week unless it was to translate the frogits.... but because it was snowdin and i loved papyrus' puzzles i started talking to them again.