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as you would expect, most of the Hardest Epicest danganronpa art like just blow your tits off are of depicting Komaeda. of course. but i feel like we don't talk about how the 2nd character who gets the most Hardest Epicest art is Sayaka Maizono.

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also ofc komaeda doesnt know what love is or his version of love is very fucked up (which is why koameda and mikan are such interesting foils for each other but thats another post and i think is specifically WHY she targets him in this way because she can understand it (esp. w/ her memories) ) so when i say "komaeda loved hajime in the program" i mean /his/ fucked up version of love where to him Hajime was like the EPITOME of Hope (lmaooooo) because of his potential.

Komaeda has the ability to sense hope in people, and could see Hajime was bursting with it (this is not due to Izuru, I think Hajime has always been really filled with hope and thats also why the kamakura project chose him). But the interesting thing about Hajime is that he and no one else had any idea what that hope manifested as. Ofc, Komaeda can only see hope in talent, so he always believed that Hajime's talent mustve been something amazing lmaaaoooooooooooooooo) and fell in love with this potential.

I think this got confused within his own actual feelings that he doesnt allow to realise. I think he in a very pure way also loved Hajime because Hajime was kind to him. Because Hajime never gave up on him and kept talking to him and listening to him and never treated him like anyone else did. I think this made him very fond of Hajime as well, which probably made him extra EXTRA sure that Hajime was actually really full of hope because why ELSE would he feel so compelled towards him????

I think this is also why the last FTE goes the way it does. I think he feels so comfortable around Hajime that he forgets himself and lets himself too close to Hajime. This is seen w/ how weird (lol) he is w/ the last two events where he's describing his life. Like he wants to tell and trusts Hajime enough to tell him and WANTS Hajime to understand him but is also fucking terrified of that because of his trauma so sorta runs away. The first time he physically actually runs away from it but the second time he emotionally runs away by lying (if we believe him as lying anyway) about it being from a book he read. I think Hajime understood this too, but just took it as his cue to leave. Hajime didn't care enough to keep pushing.

This all compounds into the confession we get at the end. Where I think when Komaeda speaks, he does mean to say "i'm in love with the hope inside you" (his truth) but in a sort of freudian slip, he reveals his true feelings, possibly even to himself for the first time, where he accidentally almost says "I'm in love with you" but stops himself. I think with the combination of his fucked up philosophy and his trauma, that is not somehting he can allow himself to feel or even truly understand the way anyone else could (which is what mikan said). He can never love because he cant understand a pure love with the way he sees the world. but he is still human. and he still loves Hajime.

I think it would take a very long time outside of the program for this to realise into something they could both understand and reconcile with.

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Hi! I saw an older post of yours (I think it was a year old?) and wanted to mention that some of the gags you mentions aren’t meant to shock or shake the reader

They’re references to the authors and/or their works which a Japanese audience would pick up on (e.g., Naomi and Tanizaki’s relationship references Naomi (the novel by Tanizaki)— I’ve read there’s another novel that might used as a reference as well but I haven’t read that one yet— and Dazai’s suicidal tendencies and etc, including the double suicide part, is a reference to author Dazai’s life and death. Dazai liking crab is also a reference just as the nicknames “slug” and “mackerel” between him and Chuuya. That one scene with Higuchi and her sister? Reference to author Higuchi and her sister. It’s not just limited to gags either— author Atsushi and Akutagawa being compared to one another and the beginning of BSD resembling Rashomon, the relationship between character themselves)

BSD is filled with so many references…but not necessarily ones a Western audience would get (which makes sense)

(I could also go into Mori and how a fair amount of translations did him dirty— what admittedly little dialogue of his I’ve read in Japanese isn’t creepy— but that’s a whole controversial topic I’m not going to get into haha)

This all being said, you have every right to feel however you feel about them! (Genuine)

Hi!!!Thank you for going out of your way to share info on the way bsd references pre-existing literature of the authors that name the characters, it's very nice of yours!!! And thank you for being so polite in your ask, I really appreciate it I actuallyreceived a bunch of very rude asks on the same subject in the past I just ended up ignoring ashgvdkajsydksahvfb.

Thing is- I was already aware of what you mentioned! The official bsd manga English translation by Yen Press that I read offers nice irl author insights once in a while that adds a lot of insight and trivia; the rest I just learned by reading analysis here and there ahah. I probably already knew when I wrote the tags of the post you mentioned (I believe it to be this one). I am aware the gags are references to the original authors' works- but I still find some of them to be plenty distasteful. I suppose it's just a matter of personal preference! To me, one thing is to explore themes of abuse, incest, suicide, pedophilia and the such in the context of a well rounded literary work that treats those subjects with the mindfulness that should be served to them; another is to make a gig out of them that's only brought up once in a while for laughs, and thus results tremendously poor in taste. But that's just as far as my judgment goes, so of course, it's fine for anyone to disagree!! I don't think literary references shouldn't be made at all, in truth I find them very cool!!! I really like how the opening of bsd mirrors Rashomon!!! I like how Dostoyevsky embodies the devil from The Brothers Karamazov! But when it comes to, say, Dazai being a suicide maniac, and that being made a joke, when the real author actually killed himself with his lover; I find that massively indelicate, to the point I was in seriously disbelief when I found out about it as I was watching the anime for the first time. Everyone will have a different opinion on this though, so you know- just something to reflect over :)

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prove to me that hope always wins

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are you strong enough to stand protecting both your heart and mine? (kinda nsft-ish bonus under the cut)

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I saw ppl doing post SDR2 timelines and my hyperfixation wouldn't let me rest until I did my own

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how makoto finds out

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buddy your countdown is changing from years to seconds

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He know he love him

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babygirl you are so strange

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kmhn textpost compilation

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drawing request for kamukoma with transfem komaeda?

im aware i could have just drawn on-model komaeda and said its transfem komaeda but i decided to give you what i know you're actually asking for

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that one freetime event