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may we all wake up tomorrow with less heavy hearts

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꧁Productivity challenge day 18/80꧂

22.10.2024

I'm doing this challenge or to say it differently, I'm not doing it at all. These 18 days have been grossly unproductive and I feel like I'm lying every time I make a post.

The change must come from me but It has been over 7 year that I've been like this. Can I change?

Can I finish college? What college do I even want to attend? These questions make me worry constantly.

I let myself fail. At the same time it puts me in dispair and numbs me. Why? What does hope look like for me?

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꧁Productivity challenge day 17/80꧂

21.10.2024

On being irritated and overwhelmed...

Schoolwork:

Did some physics practice questions.

Prepared for my modernist lit. examination + finished my project on Albert Camus speeches.

Other:

I need to start doing a bit more around the house. Feels like I've abandoned all the chores.

Was halfway to school when we got a bomb report (these bomb reports have been a nuisance for a month now. Highschools in the whole city have not been functioning as intended) which was extremely annoying. At least I got coffe with friends so it wasn't a total waste of time.

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꧁Productivity challenge day 17/80꧂

20.10.2024

On grinding for 5 tests at once...

Schoolwork:

Studied theory of relativity and quantum physics + practice questions.

Refreshed my microbiology knowledge. Hopefully I'll get to do the test tomorrow.

Studied postmodern literature.

Other:

Nothing. I rotted in front of my desk for the entire day.

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꧁Productivity challenge day 16/80꧂

19.10.2024

On being in pain because I'm stupid...

I didn't post for four days because I had a bit of an accident. By that I mean I took a laxative and had such a bad reaction that four days later I can't drink a glass of water without my stomach being heavy. I was put of school and couldn't do any work so there's so much to do over this weekend.

Schoolwork:

Studied theory of relativity and quantum physics

Refreshed my microbiology knowledge.

Other:

Carried and stacked wood with my family

Hanged out with my sister.

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doubting myself again but I have no choice but to move forward anyways

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꧁Productivity challenge day 15/80꧂

On being in nature and forgetting latin...

Schoolwork:

- Went over the semantics lecture for my language class.

-Went over and wrote down a math lecture we were supposed to have.

- Revised latin phrases with my friend on the school trip we had today but i forgot everything and revised well when i got home.

Other:

-Went on a school trip to a wonderfull park not so far off from where I live. The weather is ideal!

-sooo tired mimimi

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꧁Productivity challenge day 15/80꧂

On feeling sick and getting ready for the week...

(I didn't have any related pictures for today so here is my drippy bedding and a pair of boots I can't stop thinking about).

Schoolwork:

-Went over all of the 50 latin phrases but I'm confident I know 35 of them well.

-Did a few practice questions for a short math test on tuesday.

Other:

Nothing really happened. Got my schedule figured out for the next week which was difficult considering how many things I have to account for.

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꧁Productivity challenge day 14/80꧂

On not being consinstent...

Schoolwork:

revised for my microbiology test

Learned 30 out of 50 latin phrases

Other:

Spent most of the day out with a friend. There was a vintage market and bought the Wham! hits album

Forgot to make posts for days 12 and 13. They weren't nonproductive thankfully.

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a healthy way to let out anger is to be angry

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꧁Productivity challenge day 11/80꧂

On being tired and ready to get back on track...

Schoolwork:

-Chem. test went fine i guess but the problem was that my ass was forgetting important steps in almost every question.

-Planned the next two weeks of studying

Other:

-Almost fell asleep in class. Was fighting to stay awake the whole time I don't know why.

-Walked around the city with a friend after school.

-My grades have been taking a hit so I need to focus rn if I want to do better this year.

I'm really sleepy so bye!

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꧁Productivity challenge day 9/80꧂

On nerves, dread and small joys...

Schoolwork:

Studied and revised for my chem. test tomorrow.

Other:

Today I had one and a half of a class so nothing important happened. We went to a little museum exibit! One of the pics. is a model of Ottaman era Sarajevo!

Went to a caffe and made bracelets with my friends. Most of our bracelets broke afterwards ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯. What a fail.

Bought this little blind bag guy to feel a bit better.

Not knowing what to do with my further education is getting to me. Everyday is a fight not to burst out crying because I'm so scared. I may be dramatic but damn it, It's my future and I'm allowed to be worried!

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꧁Productivity challenge day 8/80꧂

On future plans and current mistakes...

Schoolwork:

-Light chem. reading

-Went over all I learnt for my biology test (only to find the test was moved and that most of what I studied isn't going to be on the test).

Other:

-Went to the gym

-Did some shopping

I'll make a post about my feelings towards future studies, med school and my work ethic soon. I have a lot on my mind and I hope that post is going to reach some people who are in higher education.

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꧁Productivity challenge day 7/80꧂

Today was a fun day mostly because I spent it alone with my sister. It's also local election day so I went out to make some horrible political decisions.

Studying:

- Biology; microbiology and viruses. Used Khan academy for the first time and was plesantly suprised by the quality of the unit i went over. Will use it again!

Next week:

-Bio. test

-Short math test (still pissed over my last one)

-Chem. test that I'm dreading

Should start studying physics and latin phrases

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꧁Productivity challenge day 6/80꧂

Studied microbiology. I'll start measuring my study time from now on. I really don't feel like writing more than this ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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꧁Productivity challenge day 5/80꧂

Had a no-study day, but still did a lot. Mostly important errands. Finally got paid for my summer job and spent some on cosmetics I've been needing for some time.

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꧁Productivity challenge day 4/80꧂

So I skipped writting a day of the challenge but I did put it to good use!

Today was weird. A bunch of shit happened and life was so strange for a few hours. aMy biggest frustration was missing a 4 grade on my math test by 0,25 points which frustrated me to the point of tears and really demotivated me.

Spent some time microscoping in the bio lab and went to a few stores with a friend.

I know I'm not talking about studying at all but today made me feel so much that I just want to sleep.