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From Neil’s Hilborn’s book, OUR NUMBERED DAYS. Check out his latest book, THE FUTURE, now available!

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happiest of birthdays to Joshua Dun.               June 18th, 1988 ♡ 

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You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.

Ernest Hemingway (via quotemadness)

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This hit me hard. And it is very true. 

me: “I have social anxiety”

what people hear: “I am a bit shy”

what the internet reads: “OwO cute shy boi,,must protecc!! hehe so quirky!1!!”

what social anxiety really is: taking months of knowing someone to feel comfortable enough to have a real conversation, your mind going blank during small talk, inability to participate in groups of more than three people, mentally rehearsing “simple” tasks such as ordering food or making a phone call and your heart racing anyway, constantly feeling watched, being afraid of getting places too early or too late, fear of being judged over the most random things (”is this a socially acceptable ice cream flavor to buy?” “what if they think my shampoo is weird” “will they hate me if I get up to throw my trash away?” “what if I emptied the dishwasher wrong!”), having panic attacks when you have to ask a teacher for help, constantly feeling left out or excluded even with friends, your hands shaking when you get called on in class, being overwhelmed in crowds and public transportation, disliking being touched, perpetual fear of disappointing those in authority, overall difficulty forming relationships, missing out on milestones or social events because you either have no friends to go with or know it will be overwhelming, preferring to be in groups of three so that conversation isn’t solely up to you, making so many everyday tasks so much more difficult than they need to be due to a crushing fear of being judged by random strangers you will literally never see again and needing to be seen as flawless

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I feel so alienated from my own peers in todays society that I have wondered many times if I have been born in the wrong generation

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oh my god

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Unusual Asks (that I saw in a different post and I am bored)

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Spotify Premium, obviously

is your room messy or clean? Clean, unless I have been sad for a while

what color are your eyes? Brown

do you like your name? why? Ehm, not sure. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I don’t

what is your relationship status? Einzelganger

describe your personality in 3 words or less. I am too complex for 3 words honestly, everyone is more than 3 words. 

what color hair do you have? Brown/Dark Blonde

what kind of car do you drive? color? I do not own a car

where do you shop? Bookstores, ofcourse.

how would you describe your style? As my own.

favorite social media account. Meh, can’t think of just one.

what size bed do you have? 140x200cm

any siblings? one sister.

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? For now, the southern of France because I like the sun and France itself. Or somewhere in the middel of the Scottish highland because they are absolutely stunning and peaceful. (Oh and my fellow witches live there too).

favorite snapchat filter? I don’t use snapchat. Don’t like it.

favorite makeup brand(s) I don’t use make-up. I don’t like it.

how many times a week do you shower? Probably 6. 

favorite tv show? Ehm, Friends at the moment. I am more of a bookseries kind of person.

shoe size? 39 (EU)

how tall are you? About 175 cm. 

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“You will fall in love with train rides, and sooner or later you will realize that nowhere seems like home anymore.”

— Shinji Moon (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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I guess I’m a little weird. I like to talk to trees and animals. That’s okay though; I have more fun than most people.

Bob Ross (via quotemadness)

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Watch me paint mother of dragons Daenerys Targaryen from Game of Thrones! <3

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also,  if only my name was Belle I would only have to find a cursed castle in France and marry the beast

but fairy tales do not exist and hope is an unreliable narrator

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audiobooks are not considered reading

there, I said it.

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*sees moon* *remembers outer space* nice

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It was good for a while, being empty. I didn’t hurt anymore. But as time went on, it was like I could hear myself from far away, begging for permission to come back.

Myra McEntire (via quotemadness)

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We have to break up. I know, it’s a weird way to start a love letter. But let me explain.

Jared Singer, “The Entomologist’s Last Love Letter”

Performing at Icehouse in Minneapolis. Support Button Poetry!

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