ordinarybeinghauntedbyderealism

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You’re looking for everybody else but the one person who really cares about you

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I believed our love was special

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I wish it was hard to hate me

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You don’t pay attention to me

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When we were in the car on the way to the arcade and I couldn’t stop thinking about how cute you would look and my hands were sweating so much and I was supposed to meet your mom but I didn’t know what to say her because she was intimidating as hell and when I saw you my heart rushed with butterflies you immediately made me die inside but we didn’t touch but we did rub shoulders while standing by eachother and it gave me so many butterflies but than our parents talked to us for like 5 mins and my hands were sweating so much like I felt drips of sweat fall from my fingers and than when we all said bye it was just me and you and we stood there for 10 mins and I felt like I was melting the whole time and you made that awk face adn scratched your head like you ALWYAS do when you’re awkward and said who’s going up to the register and you said not me so we went up there because of me and I got us a little card and we ended up playing air hockey the whole time and I ultimately destroyed you we spent the whole day talking and playing random games like Jurassic and than we left decided to go to the elevator and we there just talking and I wanted to kiss you so bad than it shut off and I started freaking out than you called me a pussy and I was LIKE WHATEVER BRO AND WE LEFT WALKED TOT THE PARKING GARAGE WE MADE IUT FOR SO LONG AND THE PEOPLE IN THE HOTEL PLACE SAW US AND YOU GOT EMBARRASSED I JSUT LAUGHED THE WHOLE TIME SAYING THEY BARELY SAWWWWW BREH AND YOU WERE ALL AWK I JUST LAUGHED AND WE CAME BACK LATER AND KISSED AGAIN. AWWWW my moni you’re just bored and sad right now and I promise you I’ll help you get over it I promise moni. I love you

@whoisthispersoninthemirror

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Never let it make you feel this way moni I hope my loves strong enough to make you feel happy of it

[ordinarybeinghauntedbyderealism]

from mayakovsky by frank o'hara

[ordinarybeinghauntedbyderealism]

from mayakovsky by frank o'hara

[ordinarybeinghauntedbyderealism]

I just wish I can say the things I wanna say, you think you can atleast respond to the things I say please?

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My life has been perfect so far I started making eye contact with moni and it has exploded my EMOTIONS I nearly feel like I have a crush WHEN SHES MY GIRLFRIEND!!! LIKE THATS HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL AND WHEN WE TEXT I FEEL INTERLINKED LIKE SHES ALL THE WAY OVER THERE AND I GET THIS FEELING LIKE SHES HERE RIGHT BY ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE MY BRAIN JUST MELTED. I LOVE HER SO MUCH

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I bought her this Korg pop SHES talked to me about for months it was supposed to keep her happy but I’m a loser so nothing about me is exciting and I bore her. I wish I just gave enough love.

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You treat me like a stranger and it feels so rough, now you’re just somebody that I used to know

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I do everything right for you, I never leave you in situations I know that would hurt you I ignore this entire reality just to show you that only you exist to me. I wish you could do the same, I love you moni I really do I just hate the fact you exist in other peoples mind. You’re not a terrible person and IM not leaving you, I just hate that guys exist the way they shouldn’t towards you because you’re mine.

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I got her this beautiful necklace I can’t wait to see it around her beautiful neck, AHHHH oh moni I love you, I can call you my very own after everything we’ve done together. Will you spend an evening with me, if we go some place will you kiss me when we leave.

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I love her, I’ll always be yours moni our feelings are so beautiful it makes my eyes feel like your massaging my eye lids

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I love moni so much just being here without her makes me overthink she’s doing something but I still love her. THE SHOP I went too played boys DONT cry reminded me of a moment we both had when I SENT HER A PICTURE OF ME HOLDING MY KNEES I quoted “THIS HOW BOYS DONT CRY GOT ME FEELING”

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I wish you were here moni I love you so much every corner I turn I get some rough feeling that makes me smile and get excited because I feel like I might see you but than again I remember I’m 12 hours away from you. I really miss you moni i miss you so much, even though I’m at Seattle and you say it’s some break ASAY FROM THE CHAOS BUT It wasn’t chaos being without you feels like deepen despair and chaos it makes me sad. I just wanna kiss you right now thinking about your beautiful face and expressions I wish I could just pin you against some book shelve and kiss you. AGHHH I love you so much the thought of you weakens my legs. I hope one day you come to Seattle seeing your name I drew on that chalk board and you put right next to it isa Sux LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO, SEE I WAS LIKE THINKING IN MY mind that if you were here laying on my bed with me because we all got separate rooms I’d kill you so hard.

I miss you so much bb i miss you i CANT last a day without you it makes my heart cry so much.