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it's painful, almost agonizing to see him this way, ruthless, detached, hellbent on revenge. a part of her blames herself for it; maybe she hadn't tried hard enough to find him. if she'd been smarter, stronger, more determined, maybe she would have found him in time. maybe none of this would have happened. maybe all of this is all of her fault.

she wants to call out for him, tell him to stay. even if he's a shell of the jason she used to know, it's still him. years of absence, of missing him makes watching him leave feel scary, like he'll disappear again, forever this time. but the gunshot startles her and words are failing her spectacularly and all she can do is watch him walk away.

Jason froze before softening....."i-i I told him that's why......" He looks heartbroken "I'm so sorry I'm sorry fucking sorry! That's why your stuck in this chair....g-god I I was tired I...I " he's on his knees whimpering like a kicked puppy his mood dropped at the flip of a hat "I I'm going to take my hate all this blackness and put it between Bruce's eyes.... " He became detached before flipping his helmet up and shooting one of his own men since they'd seen Jason's face another milita member came in "watch her anyone harms her their a mother fucking dead man" he leaves the room ....

[oracledrama]

>> fair enough. it'll be nice to have a working relationship with someone else doing their thing in this field.

>> and that is true. i've worked with him a time or two. talented man, smart. we're lucky to have him in the community.

>> actually, my main computer system is from digitronix. truly a well-oiled machine, reliable and brilliantly put together. i've had it for years at this point and it's never let me down. why do you ask?

🕷} Color me shocked, then. I can only imagine what the head honcho's written about me in his diary. 🕷} RR must have been feeling generous. 🕷} At any rate, I thought it would be prudent to reach out to the only other major player on this turf and establish a fair treaty of peace. I don't intend to get in the way of your work, but it's likely we run in similar circles. 🕷} By the by, I hear you know Jack Marshall; is that true?

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she thinks for a moment, pondering the idea of it all. what it means to be a hero, what it means to live that kind of life. she supposes she would be the poster child for a life like that can't be worth it. it would be so easy to say so, to agree that it isn't worth it, but everything else gives her pause.

"you know..." she begins and trails off, the words dying on her lips. it's a difficult thing, voicing complex feelings about something so inherently selfless. "my mind changes on whether it was worth it, but... i don't regret it. i did good work, important work. i helped a lot of people doing what i did."

❛ Do you regret it, being a hero? Was it worth it? ❜ There's a sigh from the blonde, fingers now picking at painted nails as she looks off to the side. Nervous habit, one she never grew out of. ❛ It feels like a life like that can't be worth it. It can be so awful, you know? It can cause so many terrible things to happen. I've always wanted to be a hero but... the idea seems stupid now. ❜

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sorry ! not fucking dead i just lost all of my motivation to write and then have two jobs and OUGH it's a whole thing. anyway ! i am here i swear !

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the words hit hard, cut deep, striking something delicate. tears sprung to her eyes unbidden, hot and stinging. she wondered if she deserved this ire, if she really hadn't done enough to find him. she'd tried so hard back then because she wanted him home, for herself, for dick, for bruce. his loss had been like falling through a frozen lake, the grief so difficult to get out of even now. she didn't think she'd ever be able to convince him of that fact, not when the jason before her was nothing but a shell, hollowed out, but she would try anyway.

"i tried-" the whisper is small and broken, her voice like crackling glass. "i tried... so hard to find you, jason. i promise i did. we all did."

He explodes "no no no you don't get to fucking ask.. jason hisses " your the fucking smart one!! You could've analyzed the damnn fucking video pick up w-were Bruce abandoned me! But no you were all happy to replace me the fucking street shit!........none of you could understand..... You weren't with ...." The man no ... The broken boy "h-him..... for t-three y-years ..." He's.... spiralling ......

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as if the fact that he knew her name or the relationship she'd shared with the ill-fated second robin weren't enough, it was like the world grinded to a halt. the hiss of his mask slow and drawn out, her eyes meeting his. for a moment, she wanted to believe it was just a nightmare or a trick of her terror-addled mind or the result of some stray mist of scarecrow's fear toxin. it couldn't be him; he'd been gone so long, too long. they'd all just assumed he'd... but the longer she watched him, that observant green gaze of hers taking him in, picking up on all the same imperfections of his skin that jason had, she knew. how could she not?

"jason," she whispered, his name so now foreign on her lips. he'd become someone she never spoke about, the memories too painful; she couldn't remember the last time she'd uttered his name. her mind raced, her stomach tensed. "what... we thought you were... how?"

"I mean.....what about poor Jason who screamed and cried out for the person who he saw as a older sister to come and save him or for Grayson to come and save him .....or....Bruce.." he smirked under the helmet rage simmering "that's right Barbie it's our little secret now here's another ...batman likes to play the hero Barbara ....if your captured ... he'll choose the mission every fucking...dammn time!" He flipped his helmets up revealing his broken young worn face...... His face had been branded with a j those sweet eyes were now replaced with jadedness betrayal....hurtness and.....brokenness ....

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@arkhambird said: "...... your supposed keep me talking play for time...right?.... that's what he taught you..... Right?.... eventually I ran out of things to...say....that bastard just let me talk ...." The Arkham knight spoke his voice modulated ....

her heart ached something fierce, all at once terrified of and mystified by this man. as oracle, she'd done what she could to bury her past; nobody had ever and would never know that she'd been batgirl, a protege whose bright future had been taken away in an instant, a flash of light and gunpowder. but he seemed to know those long-buried secrets about her, sensitive information she'd taken delicate care of to keep in dark shadows, and it scared her.

"i don't know what you're talking about," she said, fighting hard to keep her voice even. there was nothing to gain here from being scared, from letting that show.

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barbara shook her head, amused at the use of the emoticon, the seemingly playful confusion laced through the words on her screen.

>> nothing bad, obviously. if that's what you're worried about.

>> just that you're a talented person. they're very complimentary of you.

>> cont. >> @oracledrama

Lonnie blinked in surprise at their computer screen.

🕷} Have you? Like what? 🕷} Should I be worried? ;P

They did not yet answer her first question.

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🕷} From one redheaded computer genius to another... 🕷} Hello. Nice to make your acquaintance, officially. 🕷} I've heard mentions of your handle from people in our circles. 🕷} Accompanied by mentions of your talent.

>> well, to what do i owe this pleasure? it's nice to (finally) meet you.

>> your former associates tend to speak fairly highly of you and your own talents, you know. i've heard quite a bit about you myself.

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barbara does her own study of the woman before her, those long waves of blonde and those dark brown eyes framed by equally dark lashes and the tattoos that run the lengths of her arms, pale skin shot through with dark ink. she wonders what she might feel so curious about, whether it will lean into the personal questions everyone tends to ask a woman in a wheelchair.

doesn't matter. she'll bite. she always does. "sure. go for it."

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Arms folded ‘cross her chest, Natalie leans against a wall and stares at the woman before her. There’s a million questions swirling around her blonde head, a million things she wants to ask the other. But, how did she do so without coming off as rude? ❛ Can I ask you something personal? ❜

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slowly working on getting my pinned filled out with all the links i need and whatnot !! sorry for any cluttering that happens later today when i start making posts for those !! very excited to be here tho

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# ORACLEDRAMA : a little over a year has passed since my old life ended , since i died and was reborn . the shadows remain , but only to give contrast to the light . i am no longer a distaff impersonation of someone else — i'm me , more me than i have ever been . i embrace it , and the light , with a deep , continuing joy .

a portrayal based primarily on birds of prey ( 1996 ) , other official sources , and personal interpretation . crossover , au , and oc friendly . please read rules before interacting .

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RINGS LIKE A BELL THROUGH THE NIGHT. ╱ ooc.

I HAVE TO FIND ANOTHER PATH. ╱ self.

BECAUSE I'M STILL HERE. ╱ about.

I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN ALMOST FEEL IT. ╱ musings.

COME WHAT MAY I'M ALWAYS YOURS. ╱ interactions.

DO YOU COPY? ╱ askbox.

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𝐈'𝐌 𝐀𝐍 𝐎𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐓 , 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀𝐍 𝐈𝐃𝐈𝐎𝐓 selective , independent portrayal of dc comics' barbara joan gordon : formerly batgirl , currently oracle . this portrayal is based primarily on birds of prey ( 1996 ) , other official sources , and personal interpretation by way of headcanons . crossover , au , and oc friendly . cherished by rhi .

𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘 𝐈𝐍 having your life planned out , knowing what lurks in the deepest shadows , wanting to be the smartest person in the room , gifted kid syndrome , fearing for the life of your father , looking in the face of a hero and knowing he is anything but , lives disrupted among other things , learning to be at peace with things outside of your control , loving fiercely in the face of adversity .

𝐃𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 carrd , verses ╱ promo , calls , mains , connections , interest tracker , thread tracker .

𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐒 coloring psd 〞 evergreen 〟 by vendettapsds .