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why am i still waiting for proof when i know there wont be any

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they were lying when they said it would get better, weren’t they?

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They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time

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i dont feel alive because im only half a soul because i was meant to die early

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i thought it was all fine but there’s always SOMETHING

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just chilling and then remembering my mom casually disowning me and never taking it back

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i swear to god im like a fucking child i get left alone for a few hours and i hurt myself

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they were talking about me and now they dont like me anymore

i fucking know they were

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never trust a man, its rule #1 in my life

the rules would be different if the men were

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feeling sick and remembering its bc u ate 10 hours ago and did not in fact “just eat”

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i promise im not sad all the time when im in a good mood im actually very fun

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i was never meant to be here

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there’s something wrong with me, i dont think im human really

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and just like that im alone again

i asked for it but i still feel so empty

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i have so much pain inside it is so unfair that i go nonverbal every single time i try to explain it.

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literally every time i try for a peaceful night it is so the opposite of peaceful

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please its finally fall and i can get away with it on my arms… please just let me fucking have this i have nothing else