onthetracktohealth

[onthetracktohealth]

Hello there, I’m Berna. Welcome to my blog! This first post I’ll just introduce myself and my plan for this blog. In this post and blog I’ll talk about my own experiences with eating disorders, other mental illnesses and physical disabilities. I’ll also mention exercise & food as well as the occasional talk about weight and calories. Please be aware of these possible triggers and take care of yourself.

Up until I was 25 I’ve not been able to focus much on my health past surviving. Different situations, mental illnesses and physical disabilities, as well as disordered eating, left me with diabetes and obesity. I notice how much harder my life and disabilities have gotten since gaining more weight. My disabilities in themselves aren’t cause by obesity but they can be aggravated by obesity or specific diets.

At 25 I decided to start taking back full control over my life, my weight and my health, both physical and mental, as much as possible. Since I struggle with multiple different disorders and illnesses, trying to get healthy is a lot harder than it may seem. When you have been stuck in disordered eating patterns your whole life, changing those patterns can be rough. In some cases even dangerous. For many people eating disorders are a coping to deal with other things. For me binge eating distracted me and gave me temporary dopamine release so I didn’t have to deal with things like depression and ptsd for a while. Now I wanna relearn behaviours. So instead of searching for small, temporary releases like fast food, substance use or other things that are harmful, I’m trying to find long term dopamine release. And let me immediately say that not all fast food or substances are harmful as long as it’s done in moderation. And not as temporary solution for problems or feelings.

So in this blog I’ll share things like my progress, experiences or advice. I think there’s a lot of health blogs and accounts on social media but often those are run by people who already are at the peak of their health. And I often find myself trying to listen to exercise routines I’ll never be able to do and I love motivation. So I hope this reach other disabled people who struggle finding the motivation, tips, realistic representation (for them) and a community to work on their health.

I hope you’ll join me on this journey!

🌻Berna🌻