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"this isn't anorexia" sure

oh my god i found my diary from when i was eleven i didn't know what i had in store

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oh my god i found my diary from when i was eleven i didn't know what i had in store

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idk where my friends went so i have to become an academic weapon

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guys i think im a lesbian

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i don't really put my face on here but this is my favourite photo i've ever taken and i'm certainly not posting it to my instagram

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my jeans like do not fit anymore i forgot how awesome this is

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my ribs are back i missed them so much oh my god

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at some point you go from "I want to eat but shouldn't" to "I should eat but don't want to"

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interacting with guys takes away my entire appetite i have no idea why

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i'm not like at a high weight really but i feel so skinnyfat its like gross

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oh god I'm such a disgusting glutton (I ate lunch). I'm a total food addict (I got hungry so I ate food). I must be using food as a substitute for emotional regulation (when I starve myself it makes me depressed therefore eating makes me less depressed). I need to find a way to get my eating under control (I ate like a normal person for one day).

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i feel like my twelve year old self listening to born to die for the first time

ethel cain is so fucking good oh my god

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ethel cain is so fucking good oh my god

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not being fat is one thing. being thin is a very different thing. being noticeably, exceptionally skinny is a very, very different thing.

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