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Aside from the beautiful love and every wonder that came along with it, I lost a friend. I lost the best friend I've ever had.

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I spoke to my dear friend Salahudeen last night, we met through playing video games(call of duty) and played hours upon hours together for almost three years until he graduated high school and went on to college and to practice his fighting. I'll never forget the deep talks we'd have while nerding out playing video games endlessly, from everything to just ranting about life outside of the game to speaking about religion. I always remember and am reminded of Sal because I see his instagram stories and it makes me happy to see how he found god again and is so passionate about his fighting, I've never met a man so driven spiritual and confident, he's just the type that makes you happy to be around like you can do anything you want. I messaged him to get advice about something that was recommended to me by a friend Josh who had taken a turn in his life for the better. Josh told me through meditation he opened his third eye and came to realize he should cleanse his body and be vegan and meditate daily, he quit smoking weed which surprised me because he was such a heavy smoker but he claimed that having his chakras in balance and keeping an alkali body he's come to be more driven and energized throughout his days. The reason this intrigued me is because I've lately been unmotivated and I always feel like I need something yknow Jane is a big something but a lot less so now that she has her own life to tend to, she shouldn't have to worry about keeping me going. But anyway I asked Sal and he said that it could be dangerous which I've heard of before but basically he said that he Astro projected because of the meditation and was sent to a realm where these horrifying entities threatened to take his body(ive heard it's entirely possible to let entities enter you if you're not careful when meditating.creepy) so he said it led him to be depressed and in bed for days until a close friend led him back to god. He says since then his life has been amazing and I've thus reconsidered the whole thing. Most of all I was happy to talk to him again and to vent about the things that are bothering cause it always helps to get an outside opinion. I miss call of duty and the simpler times I made the bestest of friends and I miss them so much but there's more to come

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its meeeeeee

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I have never known who or what I am supposed to be. The only thing I know for sure, is that I am supposed to be more than I have been.

William Chapman (via quotemadness)

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Le Petit Soldat, 1963

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Sad sad fucking times How does one go on with the inability to see the future being bright I feel stuck I feel lost I feel sad I feel stupid I feel useless I feel cowardice I feel tired I feel sick But most of all I feel hopeless Lost in a word of endless opportunity seeking all or nothing Nothing remains

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I want so much that is not here and I do not know where to go.

Charles Bukowski (via girlinlondon)

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I’ll do my best to stay out of your way then I guess maybe one day, I’ll be yours forever.

Moose Blood // Bukowski (via karmatisiert)

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My wish for you is that you continue. Continue to be who and how you are, to astonish a mean world with your acts of kindness. Continue to allow humor to lighten the burden of your tender heart.

Maya Angelou (via quotemadness)

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Woke up to find this upstairs while boyfriend is on his walk.

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I feel like shit. I feel like I ruined my shot at true love. Why because I had to be an idiot and go chase after girls to fill this void that I thought couldn't be filled with her being so far. I've never wanted to change something so badly. She deserves the best of the best and the more I think about the kind of person I am the more I hate myself. So I showed her what love was and was nice to her. I also broke her heart and I lied to her because I'm a coward and couldn't just own up to chasing after someone else while she probably stayed thinking of me everyday. I want this to last forever I really do but I need her here. I need to touch her and hold her and feel her hair and her warm breath on my neck when she's asleep in my arms. I don't even know if I deserve a second shot but I do wanna make things work she comes back in roughly six months. I think that if I could not be a fucking asshole and actually check on her and be there for her things could work. I can't believe that I haven't been asking about her fucking days I thought things were fine but I'm an idiot a stupid idiot. I have this amazing girl who would do anything for me this girl who loves me for me this girl who I can be MYSELF around. I'm the weirdest fucking person and I know she loves it what the fuck am I doing. I need to prioritize I need I go to school and I need to do my work and I need to get my life together. I want this I want it badly I want her to live here after summer and I wanna have a job maybe a car I wanna have the things that might actually make her stay the things that'll make her feel safe and taken care of. I've never met anyone as special as this girl no one can fucking compare I don't give a shit how cliché that is she's my soul mate and I know it I can't give this up I need to make it work or I'll never forgive myself. How can I sit back and watch a girl who's perfect for me slip through my fingers. I owe her the world after how I've been and I hope that I can man up and give it to her but I need her to talk to me too and we need to become a strong couple who helps each other and talks about everything. I just want this and I want it bad

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The Little Prince graffiti at Fitzroy North, Victoria, Australia. (via littlepieces)

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Travel and tell no one, live a true love story and tell no one, live happily and tell no one, people ruin beautiful things.

Khalil Gibran (via bookmania)

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