onebraincelledman

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I sometimes wish I wasn't so friendly. That people didn't immediately see me as a friend just because I listen to them or talk to them. I know it sounds like a dumb problem to have, but I end up in awkward stages where someone will consider me a close friend, and I don't even trust them with advice.

I started to think about how some of the people I know, I have to give disclaimers when introducing them to my actual friends. I don't give disclaimers on my friends, I praise them to no end, to the point that some might be intimidated by how highly I speak of them. I love my friends so strongly that I can't think of anything negative to say about them. They have flaws, sure they're only human, but their flaws are not something that drives them.

I just had a friend, and I'm using that term losely but acquaintance seems too formal, talk to me about a situation they had with someone they know, and my only thoughts were "i wish i knew who they were talking about so i could warn them not to get involved" and "you are such a loser for that" those are not thoughts i would have if that was a real friend. I fully believe this person to be wrong in this situation and I told them to be truthful and not stupid, and gave them as much advice as I could, not because I want to help them, but because I don't want them to hurt the person they were talking to me about. They think we are close friends, yet everytime they confide in me I feel worse about this one sided friendship, because I start to wonder if they are even a good person.

It's so easy for me to tell who my friends are because I've never just stayed friends with people I don't look up to, I don't seek to mantain friendships with people I wouldn't trust in a room full of strangers.

And yet, I don't understand why people out there think we are close friends when I don't seek them out for advice or help or comfort.

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yall ever meet someone that just has a frustating existence in your life?

like i dont necessarily dislike them, but they too often talk in such a negative way about the world and themselves, then when they finally talk about doing something good for themselves they just never do? its all talk and never pulling through.

and it isnt like their interests are wrong i dont think theres such a thing, but its like they are stuck in the past, everything they like has to relate back to something they enjoyed in high school, they talk about their main experiences happening then too, so it just starts to feel less like theyre reminiscing and more like they havent realized that they arent living through that anymore

it just feels like they havent moved on from anything theyve experienced around the ages of 14-16, they havent worked on patching up any old wounds or fixing up any bridges, its like the world around them is crumbling and instead of seeking stable ground they crumble with it. stuck in time, but you can only see it after a while. once it loops again and again, that is when you notice that they havent moved.

and its frustrating bc you know they dont have to live like that, i was also 14-16 once.. almost ten years ago, i sure hope i am nothing like i was back then bc that would mean i havent learned anything, so its odd to see it, its not like they arent a functional adult, but more and more it just seems like in their head they are still just a teenager. i cant explain why that is frustrating but part of me just wants to shake em and tell em that they are older now and the past is the past, living there will get them nowhere new

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as someone that lived through the voltr*n era, i get very similar vibes from how yt ppl treated Hunk and Lance to how yt ppl are treating all the characters in encanto…

it is gross, fetishising, stereotyping, and simply weird how bad yt ppl need to relate to characters that weren't made for them for once. you all have everything please leave this alone

latines/poc this doesnt apply to you pls keep the headcanons coming <3

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they are so fucking hot, ohmy godd look at them i am so gay

brigette lundy-paine for behind the blinds. photographed by emmanuel sanchez monsalve

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so i just watched all of Love Victor, and i havent seen anyone talk about that scene where Armando tells Victor that he's proud. He's proud because he stands up for his friends, and what he believes in. But then, Armando also says that he hopes Adrian isnt actually like that. He says it in passing without a second thought. Like it's nature to him and it affected Victor but it's also kinda dismissed.

that scene fucking broke me. i actually had to just stop watching for a second because it hurt so much. having parents that dont care what strangers do in their love life but they also actively hope that someone queer isn't part of their family, is tough as hell. you know that you dont have it that bad bc at least the aren't super homophobic, right? it could be worse, they say ellen is cool and dont think gay is a bad word, so thats good enough. but it hurts so much to know that as "unbothered" as they try to seem with others being gay, they still make comments that are homophobic even if they don't realise it. hearing your parents say that they hope their kid doesnt turn out that way, hurts so much when you are that kid that did turn out that way.

idk i just i liked that they showed how small comments also hurt. its not just when they diss every gay person they see, but also fear of the hypothetical of having raised "one of those kids"

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jesus some of y’all people really be like

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isn't this a movie that's coming out???

Attention all customers: our store will be closing in five minutes. If you are present in the store after closing you will be hunted for sport.

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they’re married

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it was your own choices that left you in the dark

ya’ll were really gonna let me live my life in ignorance thinking mr. rogers was straight???

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oh my god THIS IS SO MUCH WORSE I HATE IT WHAT THE FUCK I EXPECT THE WORST AND THEN YOU JUST SOMEHOW MAKE IT EVEN MORE TERRIBLE

@ druck if youre trying to kill me just say so but don't do this to me

what if ep 9 drama isnt another fucking hell week of no davenzi but a hell week of a non suportive mother?,,,, like i dont want to believe that but idk i dont see us getting 2 happy episodes with no problems and we didnt get to see Matteo’s mom’s reaction, so what if she isnt as supportive as the other isak moms. and it could also be used to introduce David’s living situation like “yeah my parents didnt take it well either so now it’s just me and Laura”

idk which scares me more tbh another week of problems surrounding Matteo’s relationship with David or a week of problems surrounding Matteo’s relationship with his mom (more than there already is)

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what if ep 9 drama isnt another fucking hell week of no davenzi but a hell week of a non suportive mother?,,,, like i dont want to believe that but idk i dont see us getting 2 happy episodes with no problems and we didnt get to see Matteo's mom's reaction, so what if she isnt as supportive as the other isak moms. and it could also be used to introduce David's living situation like "yeah my parents didnt take it well either so now it's just me and Laura"

idk which scares me more tbh another week of problems surrounding Matteo's relationship with David or a week of problems surrounding Matteo's relationship with his mom (more than there already is)

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i just hope that matteo is well and doing his research for david

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i said this before i watched episode 5 but hey what do you know i was 100% right

Catra is to Scorpia what Mermista is to Sea Hawk

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Catra is to Scorpia what Mermista is to Sea Hawk