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Been Awhile - HELP

Well I haven't been on here in quite awhile. Almost forgot I had an acct. I sure could use some rant time. After raising fairly well adjusted children I get so frustrated watching them deal with either idiots or selfish (or both) types as mates. Unfortunately living with COPD causes me to depend on help from my children, so I'm involved in most of their lives. Sometimes through their children or sometimes through their problems. I live with my daughter who is the youngest of the five. It's a difficult struggle because she has a lot on her own plate. She's a very generous, and in most cases, a patient person. She has 3 small children ages 5, 4, and 14 mos old. Ontop of which she also helps her brother who has recently become a single father, with his two children ages 3 and 2. She is also with someone who has a handful of issues almost too numerous to mention, (also the father of the 14 mo old). To make a short list of them it could be summed up as being a strictly controlling narcist who is an addict and also has very strong insecurities about himself and those around him. With all that said, their issues are the basis of most of my ranting needs. Now I will try not to be too judgemental about this boy she is with. I call him boy because in my eyes he's very childish, topping that with his addiction to weed and adderall. He also has no idea on how to deal with small children. From his stories it seems to me he was raised with a lot of emotional and verbal abuse and it tends to show in the way he may claim is parenting skills, (which he has none). My daughter has always been real good with kids. It started with her babysitting at 12 years old. She was really good with all types of children. She even use to watch a mentally and physically challenged child who was only 2 yrs old. I seen her abilities of becoming a good parent even at that age. Yet now, because of the strains already on her relationship with this unstable individual it's starting to take a toll on her. Some days worse than others. He requires so much attention and demands it otherwise he starts to slide off the deep end. Most days she has her focus in check, trying to balance her obligation to him and the children, but if he has a fall and indulges with his habit, all hell can break loose. Did I mention her anger issues? She hats that he even mingled slightly in smoking weed! You see we're all trying our best to stay on our narrow walk with Christ, and trying to be his disciplinarian is really hard work...wrong way of saying anything could cause chaos and there would be no rest for anyone. So much for me to handle and it's not even my battle nor my relationship. I can only slightly imagine her struggle, due to the fact I dealt with her alcoholic father. I find it very hard to stay out of it yet I live in the same small home as they do. So I basically live in my room. This doesn't do much for my blood pressure or my state of mind. Thankfully I can depend on my strength from God or I'd already be bonkers! I think the one thing that is really putting pressure on us all, (not as serious as his addictions and behaviour) but we're also potty training my son's 2 yr old as well as being stuck inside because of non-stop rainy days! So can you see why I have a genuine reason to rant? It's becoming so great that I am finding it difficult to stay quiet so I needed this outlet. Thanks for listening if you got this far in my blog, I appreciate your time, if not, no harm done. God Bless and please pray for me.

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• All your children shall be taught by the LORD, and great shall be the peace of your children. ~ Isaiah 54:13

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Introduction

Hello....let me introduce myself.  I’m a well refined parent of 5 wonderful children. I have had a rough life.  One filled with struggles that some say amaze them because of the way I’ve turned out.  I lost my mom at 2 yrs old and since that time my life was very similar to the Cinderella Story minus the 2 fugly step-sisters. I struggled as a single parent when my kids were 11 yrs old and younger... It actually started long before I was separated from my spouse.  He was an alcoholic...fortunately he’s a recovering one now.  God bless him he has finally reached adulthood and has become the man he was meant to be I guess. These were two major turning points in my life and through both of them I received strength in a way I never really knew about.  It’s true that circumstances bring you to your knees and that’s where the strength lies.  You never truly see until you look up and turn to your Creator This is all I will say for now...my posts will continue with Praise to Him and all the struggles He pulled me through.