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oh hi thanks for checking in I’m still a piece of garbage

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chandler bing from friends was such a complete trainwreck of a person (jokes when distressed/severe relationship anxiety/social awkwardness/cynicism towards self) and I don’t think i’ve ever related to a tv character more mentally and spiritually in my entire life

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BITCH WE OUT HERE TAKIN OUR

M E D S

AND DRINKIN THAT UHHHH

W A T E R

Still havent showered but bitch

WE’LL GET THERE

[omfgitsjordann]

“letting go of you was painful. I will never forget the way you made me laugh or the way you set my body on fire with the slightest touch. but I also have to remember how you stabbed me and kept pushing the dagger in deeper with no regrets.”

— you loved me once but not again (the art of letting go)

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“I’d give anything for you to look at me again the way you did back then.”

-16/01/2019

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“Nothing has made me sadder than imagining myself not seeing you ever again.”

— P.G.G

[omfgitsjordann]

“The biggest mistake you can do, is leaving someone you still love”

-C.M.

[omfgitsjordann]

After all this time, I’m still waiting for you to call me and say you’re sorry and you haven’t had a day where you haven’t thought about the way I used to hold you. Or even for you to just show up at my door and hug me, and in that hug I’ll understand everything. But in reality, I know the longer I wait, the more you’re getting used to your life without me. You’re happier without me as the time goes on.

11.08pm

[omfgitsjordann]

My friend told me that the boy she’s talking to has been ignoring her for 17 hours. It made me laugh because she was so precise about the timing but it also brought back flashbacks. The days I’d be anxious and desperate for him to reply. I’d sit and wait and check my phone hundreds of times, only to be met with silence. I’d check if his Snapchat score went higher, wondering who he’s talking to and why he hasn’t replied to me. Am I too boring? Is he with friends and too ashamed to text me in their presence? My mind would race with all these possibilities and I was so naive to the truth: he didn’t like me. It took me half a year to come to the realization. A boy who truly wants you will make it known, don’t settle for anything less.

Things I wish I had known

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“There’s nothing I’d love more than to wake up to the sunlight streaming in and you still asleep next to me.”

— tara love / every morning

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“Sometimes it takes years before we realize how much a person we’ve lost really meant to us but in those moments it no longer matters anymore. We’ve grieved, we’ve moved on, and we’ve learned. Life has this way of protecting us from such realizations early on for us to be able to heal from the damage properly.”

— Juansen Dizon, Life’s Way of Protecting Us

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Why I wait

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Another day bleeds into nightfall and you’re not here to get me through it all.

-I miss him so much that I don’t know how to deal with it anymore

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“She had always believed that love was one of those things that just came and went, like wind and rain. Then he left and she was faced with the bitter truth of just how wrong she was.”

— tara love 

[omfgitsjordann]

My love for you was different.

I felt like I couldn’t survive without you.

You were the stars in the sky and the oxygen in my lungs.

My world revolved around you.

But soon enough, as the years passed by,

the fire I had for you, the crave I had for just the

touch of your fingertips had faded away.

All that was left were the lonely crackle of embers

And the sound of my heart falling from my chest

and shattering on the ground.

[omfgitsjordann]

After all this time, I’m still waiting for you to call me and say you’re sorry and you haven’t had a day where you haven’t thought about the way I used to hold you. Or even for you to just show up at my door and hug me, and in that hug I’ll understand everything. But in reality, I know the longer I wait, the more you’re getting used to your life without me. You’re happier without me as the time goes on.

11.08pm