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Understanding Art

[Please understand that this poem is a little disturbing, and has vague references to sa. Do not read if you are not in a safe state of mind. If you know me personally or believe you might, please ask before reading. Thank you.]

When I try to understand art,

I always come back to one quote credited to Cesar A. Cruz,

“Art is meant to comfort the disturbed, and disturb the comfortable.”

This always stuck with me.

When I understand my own art,

Why I decided to make it, think it,

I ask myself;

“Am I truly disturbed?”

This word feels so intense..

And yet I always come back to it.

The way my mind works certainly feels disturbed.

How else am I to rationalize?

The way it handles a human’s touch,

The way it handles a human’s eyes,

The way it handles a human’s words,

The way it handles a human.

I have never been touched like that,

I have never been looked at like that,

I have never had that said to me,

I am just as human as you, sir.

But when these things occur 

I feel how those poor people felt.

I feel burning prints left on my body.

I feel dirty.

Am I born disturbed?

How can someone be born disturbed,

Sure, I haven’t had the best life-

But not a disturbing one.

Please say it’s not a disturbing one.

I can’t handle the fact I could’ve been ruined-

That I am ruined.

I don’t want to know it could've changed.

So I was just born this way.

Simple. Very simple.

I was just simply born this way.

I was born to see the worst in people.

I was born defensive.

And if my family ever saw the way I was born

They’d be disturbed too.

And I could explain it all [away]

But frankly, I don’t want to.

I don’t want to tell you anything!

Let me be.

I don’t want you to know,

Don’t look at me like that!

Let me lie to myself.

Let me lie.

Let me lay down

Let me go.

I want to lay down and never get up.

I never want to face anyone or anything,

I want to feel simplicity-

I want to lie.

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Sometimes, when I close Amino before it can update and recognize I don't have any notifications, I like to say it has dementia

Y'all think this is early on-set, or is Amino a senile old man??

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lol- i have sfx gore makeup on for a school project and a bunch of my friends have already stopped me and been like "bro you good?"

I <3 gore makeup

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GUYS ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE I JOINED TUMBLR WHAT THE HELL 😨😨

WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN

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Stupid Wittle Idea

Ok, chat, I had a silly little idea like a day ago I think is funny enough to share.

For context, a long while back, I had an English project to rewrite a scene of Romeo and Juliet with different characters. I chose characters I had made myself and chose Act 4 scene 1 I think, the one where Mercutio dies lol. Then I remembered that one video where someone has people perform R&J without reading it first and given like bullet points of what has to happen in the scene.

So I had a stupid little idea of rewriting the ENTIRE FUCKING PLAy and then having my silly little friends perform it (I'm friends with theater nerds) But it's so unreasonable I won't even give it the time of day outside of telling Tumblr

lmk if y'all want the link

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Fun idea: To keep with the Skelebros' mysterious yet goofy nature, I'll assign the headcanon that they basically have cartoon logic on their side. It lines up with their weird physics breaking/fourth wall smashing abilities anyway, so what's the fuss?

Here are some examples:

Both of them have hammerspace, so they often pull random crap out of their backsides like it's completely normal.

We already know Sans can use offscreen teleportation and Papyrus can "jump" over things.

Both of them have gravity manipulation, so sure they must often use it on themselves too, right? Imagine Sans walking off a cliff like Wile E Coyote and just... walking on air.

"SANS GET YOUR LAZY ASS OVER HERE I'M STUCK IN THE FLOOR AGAIN!!!!!"

If the situation is FUNNY, the two can get hit and crushed by anything and be completely fine (yes, that includes Mr. 1 HP), but if the situation is NOT funny, or moreso, if they're confronted by a human, they can be hurt and killed, obviously. Rule of Funny, basically.

Bursting out in little songs isn't that uncommon for them, and neither is changing the environment around them to match the song. Papyrus having Disney Princess vibes has taken over my mind for this one.

Why can they do this? Well, there's the "sciencey, playing with magic stuff" idea I proposed in another post, but then again, there are so many theories. Then again, I guess it's all just bullshit. Yup. It's just Skelebro bullshit. No more questions.

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im sorry mabel OWNS those 2000's emojis

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Have you ever seen someone call themselves the victim? That they didn't understand what they did wrong? Ik Tumblr isn't usually a vent app but fuck it we ball

I saw this kid I really don't like yapping online abt how he didn't know what he did wrong, that ppl lie abt him, that he wants people to come talk to him bc he can't apologize and change without it

I agree that if ppl never talk to you you'll never change, but it should be glaringly obvious what he did to me and to many other people he hurt. If he wanted to apologize he should've done so already, he knows where I live, go write a letter to me

I shouldn't have to explain why I was hurt and why I don't want to talk to him- I've been warning people so that they don't make the same mistake I did because everyone who's been his friend or so had gotten hurt. Badly. And the minute he SHOWS that he's CHANGED I will stop!

But he hasn't shown anything, he's gotten visibly worse and incredibly so! If he genuinly cannot see why I am or anyone else is upset and angry with him he is in a river in egypt- DENIAL

Idk, I just genuinely want him to get better. When we were kids and he wasn't kiiiinda not as bad I loved being his friend. But I feel like that little kid's dead, and now there's a shell of someone I once knew and recognized.

I do miss him, but I've been way better without him. Like genuinely these have been very very happy years in my life, even with all the chaos of trying to leave him behind. I've been through a lot and know (because he said so himself) that he still talks about me really sucks, and knowing he still hasn't changed sucks, and knowing he doesn't even think he was in the wrong sucks the most

Idk, just a rant, ifykyk

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"Basking"

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I've seen this a lot

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Two nickels

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Darius being overprotective when Hunter is being overworked at the castle

Please reblog, don’t repost :)

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I swear this was a redraw meme at one point but I can’t find any now?? Maybe I dreamed it lmao

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I honestly kinda hate those quotes that are like "If you can't love me at my worst, don't reach out when I'm at best"

It's hard to define what someone's 'worst' is. If this is referring to when someone's really depressed then I fully agree, but if someone's worst is hurting others then fuck that.

Just because the high points are really good, doesn't justify or rectify the low points if they left scars

idk i'm just tired of seeing that quote

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This is so silly I love this :]

Wrong Spell... A sequel- 😭😂

Oops! Wrong spell! <- First

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Shitty fanfic

If anyone(EXCEPT FOR PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME BC ID BE EMBARRASSED) wants to see the fanfic I'm writing here's the ao3 link

I'm being SO SERIOUS right now- if the two ppl I know who follow me on here sees this don't check it out. It's not like dirty or anything I just am a bit embarrassed. If you ask me personally I'll probably let you read it if you don't show it around to our mutuals.

But if you've never personally met me go crazy- show it to whoever you want. Thumbs up

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Stares at you