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some ppl found all our social media ❤️ if they're reading this, fuck off!!! ur not doing anything except retraumatizing us and making recovery harder. you told us to apologize and we did, which got met with yelling and insults. you ruined the one thing that made us happy out of fear of being harrassed. you ruined something dirk wanted to work on before he even started.

fuck. off. stop trying to ruin our lives. who cares if *im* proship. my host isn't. that's why i have seperate blogs and twitter and insta to keep it away from her because she doesn't like seeing it! you aren't doing any good.

you know the DIDwatchdog post? yeah. we were being groomed. we were being manipulated into a relationship while we were still underage. we were being abused by two (2) adults and forced to be sexual with one of them by the other. but you wouldn't know that. you couldn't have.

leave. us. alone. you can be angry. you can be upset. but we created a safe place for us and you tore it to shreds by giving it all to STRANGERS. people we haven't met. you showed our face without consent and dragged our friends into it.

you ruined all of our relationships except with two people. we don't know who to trust anymore. our paranoia is at an all time high and it's because of you. my host is mentally ill. all of us are. she's learning how to do this shit because all she's known is toxic behaviors.

i'm tired of this. i'm tired of everyone trying to ruin our life. i'm fucking exhausted. why can't you fucking focus on more important things. here's some shit you SHOULD be caring about instead of fucking over a system trying to recover.

black lives matter resources

lgbt in poland

info about yemen

playlist of donation videos for BLM

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for the palettes challenge anon asked Bro with 44. And there was red in that thing. And how could I avoid to draw a bleeding Strider with all those possibilities. 

So…

heh.

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bro strider more like one of my best brands as a homestuck fanartist

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a thing of bro strider for a nice commissioner from twitter

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hrrrggrh sasuke and naruto

Character A tilting Character B’s chin up to get a better look at their face and the evidence of the fight. A delicately thumbs away the streak of blood by B’s mouth, saying nothing as they examine it. After a brief pause, B’s heart skips a nervous beat as A looks them dead in the eyes. Their voice is quiet and tense, their anger barely restrained.

“Who did this to you?”

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dave: what city slickers dont understand is that weird noises always come from the forest and we just ignore it

rose: If you go out to investigate and get got, then that is on you. Ignore it and go back to sleep like a rational person.

roxy: me on th porche: chillin

roxy: woods: woooooooooEEEEEEEEEEEEG

roxy: me: cheers ill drink 2 that bro !!!!!

dirk: Best case scenario: it’s a fox. Worst case scenario: you’re next.

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Perfect pitch cat. 

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From The Washington Post. Damn

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

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demolition lovers intro but it’s 95% synths i live to fuck with mcr songs

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Why dont you educate yourself before forming an opinion on bi lesbians? I'm genuinely wondering. It took me a second to understand but if I can, you can.

this has got to be the most insulting ask i've ever received because you're essentially implying that i do not know anything and have put no thought into it. how do you know i haven't educated myself? how do you know that i haven't spoken with other lesbians, other trans people, other bi people, and discussed how this label is kind of regressive and harmful?

you want proof? let's walk through the logic of it right here, right now, together. we have the label bisexual; meaning capable of attraction to more than one gender (bi here being a latin root used in the label to denote 'more than one'). this is the definition of the label many of my bi friends have told me they use.

now, there are three manners by which i have seen people define the term 'bisexual lesbian':

the first one is fairly old, it's the manner by which transmisogynists have been super shitty to lesbians in relationships with trans women; calling them 'bi lesbians' or 'dick-loving lesbians' in a pretty straightforward attempt to strip them of their lesbianism and imply that their attraction to trans women makes them bisexual. obviously this is 1. deeply transmisogynistic and 2. not really how gender works. but i'm going to go out on a limb here and guess that this isn't the definition you want to use, because if you were a garden variety transphobe this anon you've sent me would just be some milquetoast jab at my appearance instead of some incoherently high-horsed nonsense.

so let's go with definition #2: 'bisexual lesbians' as a nonbinary-inclusive identity. basically meaning 'bisexual means attraction to more than one gender, and bisexual lesbians are lesbians attracted to women AND nonbinary people.' which is not like, how nonbinary people work. you can't fit all nonbinary people into one concrete 'third gender' because it's an *umbrella term* that encompasses lots of people, some of whom do in fact identify with 'man' or 'woman' in a sense outside of the strict binary (you'll see this like 'men or man-aligned people dni' or stuff like that when it comes to nuanced gender terminology). so there are nonbinary men, nonbinary women, bigender people, agender people, and etc. etc. etc. which means that you can't fit all nonbinary people into one gender category, it's a term that includes a lot of different relationships to gender.

here's what i have to say to that: lesbian was already a nonbinary-inclusive identity to the extent that it included nonbinary people *who are okay with lesbian attraction*. there is a long history of nonbinary people within the lesbian community and those who aren't comfortable with lesbian attraction aren't going to be much more comfortable just because you slapped the word 'bisexual' on to it.

like, this isn't how attraction works! take for, instance, this twink i had a small interaction with years ago at a target once: i'm waiting in line at target, right? and i have my back to the store. and i'm in full 'eyes over the shoulder because i'm a butch in public and america is terrifying' mode. i notice this twink guy walk by, stop and give me the up-down. and so my natural reaction is to turn toward the man behind me, right? and he sees the front of me and has this look on his face of 'oh shit that's a woman i just eyed up' and so he flashes my partner and i a thumbs-up, we have a brief moment of like 'gnc gay people in public hell yeah.'

now did this guy stop and figure out if i was nonbinary or whatever? did he get my pronouns? no! he saw a big back and nice haircut and was down, and when he saw the full picture he readjusted and respectfully bowed out. because, and this is important, when you put the phone down and meet people in the world, sometimes you're going to be fleetingly attracted to people who won't reciprocate. and you readjust. you don't get everyone's name label and pronouns right out of the gate; people aren't pokemon. like, sometimes i'll see nonbinary people who i'm into but when i learn they wouldn't be comfortable with a lesbian being into them, i readjust. i don't hysterically tinker with my identity until it includes them so i was Unproblematic All Along, i grow up and move on.

point blank- lesbian attraction is going to include some nonbinary people and not some others, and if you feel the need to fix that you do not understand nonbinary people.

so let's move on to definition #3, 'bisexual lesbian' as a term for a bisexual woman/woman-aligned person (did you see what i did there?) who is capable of attraction to more than one gender, but is 'sworn off of' men or whatever or has a 'preference for women.' so you're adding lesbian onto bisexual to like, 'fix' attraction to men? in this case you're tacking lesbian onto bisexual in order to be like, i'm bi BUT WAIT i'm with a woman not a man so i'm an Actual Wlw.

we have a term for bisexual wlw who prefer to be with women/women-aligned people. ready for it? it's bisexual. the term 'bisexual' doesn't need fixing and the things you'd try to fix by affixing 'lesbian' on it are super telling. like, creating this new label isn't helping. you know what would help? if we didn't treat bi wlw who are in relationships with men like they're less wlw than lesbians. if we didn't make bi wlw feel the need to apologize for their bisexuality. if we didn't project our insecurities around men onto bi wlw, if we didn't say 'oh you're with a man so it serves you right if he's less good to you than a woman would be'. if we stopped defining bi women by men.

tl;dr: creating a new label isn't 'fixing' bisexuality or the way bisexual wlw are treated. we need to treat bi wlw better and stop defining them by men. that's just biphobia my dude.

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dave strider

pussy eater tweet deleter got peanut butter in my iphone speaker lost my wallet forgotten prophet gonna go stick a fork in a socket

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if you firmly believe cowboy cats would say meowdy hit that mf reblog