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[ohkristen]

the feminine urge to become fluent in every language on earth so I can read literature in poetry in their native tongues to get the full effect

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the clear cut parallels between rin, nezha, and kitay and the trifecta never fail to make me sob. like speer and mugen, the second poppy war and the third poppy war. riga loving and betraying daji, nezha loving and betraying rin. the friendship between jiang and daji, the friendship between rin and kitay. both groups leaving only one of them to rule. their shared complicated love and loyalty and hurt between each other. jiang and rins final moments of clarity. they followed right into their predecessors footsteps and didn’t even know it. both groups were supposed to be unstoppable forces but ended up being torn apart by each other.

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this is so “do you love him?” “yes. more than anyone else in the world” and “fight well. keep us safe. i love you.” and “he loves her. of this he is certain” and “is there anyone in the coalition you trust?” “venka” and “lovely, wonderful kitay” and “she would draw this moment out forever if she could” and “i left for you” and “i’ll hate you for it but i’ll love you forever” and “she terrifies him and he loves her so much it hurts” and “should’ve realized that venka was trying to save her life” and “kitay. her best friend. her anchor” and “ah, i get it. you’re in love” and “did they love one another so fiercely, so desperately?” and rin and nezha and kitay and venka

[ohkristen]

When it comes to Rin and Kitay's legacy in the aftermath of tbg i believe Nezha will allow people to tell whatever stories they like. I think he will let the people spin their own tales, myths, rumours about what happened so everything just remains speculation, exactly how it did with the red emperor and the trifecta.

He will allow people to say what they need, and believe what they believe, in order to bring stability to the country because thats what they died for. That's what Rin asked for. He won't deny or confirm any details of what happened, of their story. He will keep the details of their twisted and doomed friendship close to his heart and bear the punishment of their story forever being tarnished by altered version of the truth.

I like to think at the end of it all Nezha will have a secret room, his own treasure trove full of things that belonged to his friends. He would keep Rin's blade made from speerly steel, he'd have a lock of Kitay's unruly hair and documents scrawled all over in his writing, maybe he'd even stumble across Venka's bow abandoned in Arlong. He'd have a bottle of sorghum wine and 4 glasses. Every time he'd go down there he'd pour a fresh drink in each one each time and have a vigil, where for that brief moment he would allow himself to grieve and mourn and drown in the resentment of what could have been. Then he'd hide it all away tightly into his chest again and carry on playing the cards he had never asked for, but had been dealt anyway.

And then when it was time, and when he inevitably returned to that grotto he would take the knife with him that material symbol that ended it all. The thing that killed his friends, the only divinity he truly believed in, and sealed his fate, and take it with him to die too. Because if he couldn't have them in this life, then no one could have what took them away from him either.

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it’s the way i imagine that after nezha has succeeded, gotten rid of the hesperians, and is ruling a peaceful nikara he puts rin’s sword in a display case and the plaque says

“the sword of fang runin, general of the southern coalition, general of nikara, speerly, shaman, last commander of the cike, savior of nikara.”

and somewhere he keeps letters that he’s written to her through the years. promising not to forget her or what she did for nikara. saying sorry. telling her about the day he drove hesperia out. telling her how what she did saved them. how he forgives her.

he always writes two of each, same words copied down each time. he keeps one for himself, to remember, but he burns the other one, so maybe, just maybe, she can see it.

anyway if you can’t tell this series destroyed me and i will actually never recover so that’s how i envision nezha’s future.

[ohkristen]

when hozier said "the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you" and when halsey said "i know i've only felt religion when i've lied with you" and when sappho said "in the crooks of your body i find my religion" and then when rf kuang said "she's the only divine thing he ever believed in"

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STOP making me think about rinezha. i can't do it anymore. enemies to enemies slow burn. enemies to begrudging allies to friends to *almost* lovers. then betrayal, and then they're just enemies who used to be in love. and they both *know* that they were in love, and maybe they are still in love, but they stand on opposite sides of a war because they've both made their decisions and cannot come back from them. there can never be reconciliation for the things they've done to each other, but god, they're still in love. i am literally eating drywall over them

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babygirl is a beautiful name for a bloody traumatized man

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this has to be one of the softest scene in the shatter me books because you tell me this is how juliette describes aaron

“he looks soft and vulnerable— so human.” this is my girl falling for him

and after all that she simply says so casual “He’s easily the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.”

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“Wait, there are people blaming the writers?”

Are you surprised? Fandoms have become notorious anti-writer spaces. Studios love you guys. They can cut the budgets, cut the number of writers, cut the wages of the writers, and you guys always blame the writers. “The writers ruined the show!” It’s never “the studios ruined the show.”

I hate to break it to you: more than half the shows you complain were “ruined by the writers”, were ruined by the studios. Studios cut the scenes and arcs you were excited for. Studios cut the budget of the show, or even raise the budget of the show and force a “bigger, louder, bolder” tone on shows that were unexpected hits (this is where we get “the Netflix look” on every show post-Stranger Things and Queen’s Gambit).

You guys do not do your research. Half your fanfics are tagged with bad faith digs at the writers, when a few searches would reveal how strapped that show was and how poorly the writers were treated. Writers are being given a 10 weeks to write 10 episodes. How are good arcs and scenes supposed to happen under that time limit, with a max of only four writers?

Tumblr, the self-proclaimed “pro-union, pro-worker, pro-artist” site is also a major fandom site. You guys rarely practice good faith consumer etiquette for television and film writers, because your fandom salt always turns you against writers. And studios love you for it.

Yeah, individual writers do create bad writing from time to time. But so do painters, chefs, and musicians. Directors and actors sometimes refuse to film certain scenes or follow a show’s projected style and arc, and the writers always get the crap for a bad performance or a poorly directed episode. This isn’t to blame actors or directors; it’s to point out that you guys have one villain, and it’s always the writers. You guys never give writers the same grace you give animators, designers, directors, actors, composers, and editors.

Studios love you every time you say “the writers ruined the show.” Every single popular fandom is guilty of this. View any of the “why did the writers cut this scene, they hate my characters” talk when leaked scenes hit the internet. Writers barely get paid for what they do write. You think they’re writing scenes and then happily throwing them in the shredder? You guys just eat the talk that studios put out. Always have.

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Colm Fahey reuniting with his son, Jesper Fahey, after finding out he dropped out of college, wasted all his money in gambling dens and joined a literal gang [colorized]:

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Been letting go of people without necessarily villainizing them. I don’t need to tell myself “they’re a bad person” “don’t know how to handle my emotions” “have xyz negative traits” “a total asshole without any redeeming qualities” to be able to arrive at the conclusion that maybe that certain person would not be a very healthy addition to my life. Idk growing up and maturing has come w seeing other people not though the lens of “u bad me good,” but more so through “we’re all imperfect in our own ways, and I can still acknowledge the good in you even as I decide it’s best to part ways.” People will always be tricky to navigate, it’s just a matter of asking yourself “do I have the capacity or time for this? Is this worth it?” and the answer can still be no even if the person you’re removing from your life isn’t an evil caricature of who they actually are

[ohkristen]

1D CANT AFFORD THEIR BILLS SO THEY SELL HARRY STYLES TO YOU SJSJSJSJS

[ohkristen]

when you see your little kitty walking toward you at a leisurely pace and say "hi baby!" bc you're excited to see her and she starts trotting a little bit faster 'cause she's excited to see you too. that's what life is all about i think

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small joys

sitting in the sun

reading a book so good you can’t put it down

warm blankets

drinking hot chocolate on cold stormy day

lying in bed while it rains outside

starting a new journal

ice cream

going on long walks while you listen to music

scented candles

long car drives

sitting on the beach, watching the ocean 

[ohkristen]

I like how rin’s reference point for pretty much everything related to the house of yin is just nezha. she sees jinzha and muzha for the first time at the summer parade and thinks ‘oh they’re just hot, older versions of nezha’ without knowing or caring that jinzha’s the heir to the most powerful province in the empire. Jinzha would be outraged if he knew. She’s face to face with Vaisra,  the Dragon Warlord and richest (and arguably most powerful) man in the country, for the first time and immediately thinks that she can’t look at him and not see Nezha, who to everyone is the ‘irrelevant’ yin son. Even when she sees Yin Riga, the Dragon Emperor himself and strongest shaman alive, Rin just thinks that he looks like Nezha’s corpse. she literally sees some of the most powerful men in the country for the first time and is like oh, another knock off nezha 

[ohkristen]

The Poppy War series is absolutely NOT a romance series but 'She’s the only divine thing he’s ever believed in. The only creature in this vast, cruel land who could kill him. And sometimes, in his loveliest dreams, he imagines she does.'