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There is no "recovery" from burnout. We are crushed under the yoke and perish. Later on our physical bodies also die.

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what's the point. why are we here. just to die. suffer and die.

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at these times it feels like i will never be happy again and maybe i won't be

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my heart just gets broken again and again. there is no more glue. there is no more bandaids. iwpagimm

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I've made a mess of my life. Why

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My heart is so badly broken. It's been nearly two years and it's still broken. Two years. It seems like no time at all. I will become old and infirm and then I will die and my heart will still be broken and no time will have passed. It will still be that instant. I am going to have a bad life and then I will die.

The pain will never go away.

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I think a wizard can be a princess sometimes.. I mean a tower is a tower

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What's the deal with age regression. I've felt it recently and have had difficulty understanding it. I conceive of one alter being unable to speak. Why? What does this mean?

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I am planning to either X or go off and live in the woods once I run out of money. It seems inevitable I will run out of money because to save any more money would require me to live in a space I share with other people; and I am not willing to do that. I would rather X. I will get rid of my possessions and get somebody to look after my cat. I will sell my possessions and use it to fund the care of my cat. I would work if work was available to me that was preferable to X but I have not found work of any kind let alone work that is preferable to X so I assume I will not get it.

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I think I was given various names that were wrong for me. "Mature". I should not have worn that name. It's a fine name to where when it's appropriate but I think you actually need to be 50+ and I don't think it's necessarily positive. You are ill more when you are mature. You are more fixed in your ways. It is not bad to fix oneself but it can lead to bad results.

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The problem with alcoholism being that it does not seem to MATTER if I am now drunk until the day I die. Nothing seems to last. Nothing can be affected. What I do may have the entirely opposite effect as to what was intended. I do not grasp the rules and I am too hurt to really care.

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If it keeps you from killing yourself it's not stupid. This applies to anything btw.

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