octbrsaturn
octbrsaturn
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24. blm. free palestine. she/her. maybe someday i'll write again. currently in my drew starkey era
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octbrsaturn · 2 days ago
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well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.
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octbrsaturn · 5 days ago
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*gripping your shoulders and shaking you* you gotta promise me one thing, if nothing else. you have to promise me to live, do you hear me. and if it's for nothing else but spite, LIVE. donald trump wants you to feel defeated and alone. let's show him and all the americans who voted for him that we will not stay quiet, we will not be devided and we will LIVE. we will survive that 78-year old asshole, we will OUTLIVE him. so please reach out to friends and family, reach out to each other and STAND TOGETHER.
PLEASE, LIVE!
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octbrsaturn · 11 days ago
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Chosen || Rafe Cameron x fem!reader (love island au)
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Summary: (lil backstory) you and Rafe have been a couple since day one and are pretty closed off but a new bombshell has come and chose Rafe for a date and now it’s time for her to choose who she wants to couple up with.
Warnings: angst
Word count: 2,070
A/n: Inspired by the whole ordeal between rob liv and leah in love island usa lol
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The villa was buzzing with the usual pre-recoupling jitters, and as you sat at your vanity, carefully applying the final touches of makeup, you heard Rafe’s voice echo down the hallway. “Babe,” he called out, his tone relaxed yet filled with that casual affection you’d grown to love. “Yeah, I’m in here!” you responded, smiling to yourself.
Through the mirror, you caught the familiar image of him entering, his sandy-blonde hair tousled, sun-kissed skin accentuating the sharp angles of his face. Your eyes met in the mirror, and the edges of his mouth softened into a smile that made your heart flutter.
“You okay?” he asked, stepping closer and bending down to press a gentle kiss to your shoulder, lingering just long enough to make you feel like he was truly checking in. “Yeah, why wouldn’t I be?” you chuckled, meeting his eyes in the mirror with a playful glint. He watched your reflection intently, as if trying to read your every expression.
“Just making sure,” he murmured, pulling a chair up beside yours. He settled in, crossing his arms, his gaze steady as he watched you apply the last bit of powder. You raised an eyebrow, feigning a casual tone. “Why? Should I be worried? Is there something you’re not telling me about your date with Kayla?” You smirked, trying to keep it light, but deep down, you were fishing for any reassurance you could get.
His hand found its way to your thigh, his grip warm and reassuring as his thumb brushed soothing circles. “No, of course not,” he said, his tone calm yet firm. “I told you everything, and, honestly, I don’t think she’ll pick me. We don’t have that spark—you and I do, though, yeah?” His eyes held yours, his expression open and genuine.
His gaze was steady, his smile reassuring, and despite the flicker of insecurity, you let out a slow breath, his words sinking in and soothing the lingering doubts in the back of your mind. “Okay,” you said finally, a genuine smile breaking through as he chuckled.
“You’re adorable, you know that?” he said, leaning in to press a series of soft kisses along your bare shoulder making you giggle, a genuine, unrestrained laugh that he seemed to crave as he pulled back, grinning. “What are you wearing tonight?” he asked, scanning the room with an approving gaze as his eyes landed on the green dress you’d laid out on the armchair nearby.
“That one.” You nodded toward the dress, and he hummed, his smile widening in approval. “Good choice. It’s gonna drive the others crazy.” “Glad you think so,” you replied, warmth creeping into your cheeks as you noticed the way he looked at you—like you were the only person who existed.
“Well, I’ll let you get ready,” he said, standing up and moving behind you. Through the mirror, you caught yourself staring. How could you not when Rafe looked so... edible. He met your gaze in the mirror, catching your look, and smirked. “Like what you see, Mrs. Cameron?” he teased, his voice dropping to a playful, almost dangerous tone that made you laugh.
“Very much,” you replied, tilting your head back as he leaned down, catching your lips in a kiss that was both soft and full of promise, a reminder of the bond that the two of you had since day one. But before things could get too heated, you gently placed a hand on his jaw, pushing him back with a giggle.
“Alright, alright, I’m going!” he said, chuckling as he stepped back. Before he could leave, the door opened, and you both turned to see Kayla enter, her eyes lighting up at the sight of Rafe. “Hey,” Rafe greeted her casually, his tone polite but distant. You watched them exchange brief smiles before looking away, busying yourself with your lip gloss as Kayla approached her drawers.
“Hey, Y/n,” she greeted you brightly, her tone friendly as she settled beside you. “Hey,” you replied with a polite smile. “Excited for tonight?” “Oh, definitely!” she exclaimed, her eyes sparkling with excitement. “I’m so ready to sleep next to someone again; it’s been way too long.” She giggled, and you chuckled in response, keeping the mood light even as you fought off a pang of unease.
“Do you know who you’re choosing?” you asked, carefully applying your lip gloss as she fiddled with something in her drawer. She nodded confidently, her fingers tapping lightly as she glanced at you with a knowing smile. “Uh-huh. I knew who I was gonna pick the second I walked in here.”
You nodded, hoping your expression didn’t betray the subtle tightening in your chest. It was in these little moments that the villa’s intensity hit, the constant swirl of emotions and unspoken fears. But as you caught a glimpse of your own reflection, you reminded yourself of the quiet confidence in Rafe’s words, of the unspoken bond you’d built.
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The night air felt thick with tension as everyone gathered around the firepit, the familiar crackling flames casting flickering shadows across the group. You sat beside Rafe, his arm draped casually over your shoulders. The warmth of his touch had been a quiet comfort, his thumb tracing soothing patterns along your skin—a small reassurance that whatever happened tonight, he was there.
But as Kayla’s voice broke through the murmur of anticipation, her words twisted the air around you, each one slicing deeper than the last. "I'm coupling up with this person because, from the moment we started talking, I definitely sensed that we had potential and that there was a spark there that I want to explore," Kayla said, her tone confident and unwavering as her gaze locked on the group.
Your eyes dropped to the flames, heart pounding, silently willing her words to be about someone else. When she finally spoke his name, “The person I want to couple up with is… Rafe,” the world seemed to freeze. Your breath hitched, and a wave of shock washed over you, cold and biting, despite the warmth of the firepit. Around you, a few gasps broke the silence, the girls’ faces mirroring the same surprise that you felt.
Your eyes darted to Kayla, disbelief clouding your expression, and then turned to Rafe, who sat motionless beside you, his face an unreadable mask as he stared blankly at the ground. “Really? Nothing to worry about?” you said, your voice low but sharp, brushing his arm off your shoulder. Anger surged through you, raw and uncontainable. You’d trusted him, taken his reassurances at face value.
And now, every promise felt like it had shattered between you. Rafe’s shoulders slumped slightly as he raked a hand through his hair, a long sigh escaping his lips as he shook his head. “Rafe, you look surprised at Kayla's decision,” the host, Sophie commented , looking at him expectantly. He hesitated, his gaze finally flickering up to meet Kayla’s. “Yeah, uh—I don’t know what to say, really,” he mumbled, the frown deepening across his face.
“I thought I made it clear that I wasn’t really interested,” he shrugged, but his words felt hollow to you, hanging in the tense air between him and Kayla. Kayla’s eyes flashed with indignation, and she crossed her arms, a hint of challenge in her expression. “Wow, yeah—that’s not how I felt during our date,” she said with a pointed look, and you felt a pang of betrayal twist in your stomach as her words settled over you.
The whole night, the small reassurances Rafe had given you, the gestures, the closeness—it all felt tainted. Sophie's voice cuts through, pulling you from the storm of emotions swirling within you. “Well, Kayla, if you could switch places with Y/n… and Y/n, if you could come stand beside me.” Standing, you avoided looking at Rafe or Kayla, the weight of the moment pressing down on you.
You forced yourself to breathe as you stepped away from the firepit, feeling the collective gaze of the group on you. “Y/n, you are now single, which leaves you vulnerable here on Love Island,” Sophie announced. You nodded slowly, your jaw tight as you bit down on your bottom lip, desperately holding back the flood of emotions welling inside you.
Out of the corner of your eye, you noticed Rafe looking anywhere but at you, his gaze flickering across the ground as if trying to distance himself from the situation. The sense of betrayal weighed heavily on you, every unspoken word thickening the air between you. As soon as Sophie left, the girls immediately swarmed around you, their arms linking through yours as they ushered you away from the firepit and into the makeup room.
“Unbelievable,” you muttered to Sofia, who gave you a sympathetic squeeze. “Honestly, you deserve so much better than that,” she whispered, her hand rubbing comforting circles on your back.
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Rafe’s voice was soft but strained as he appeared behind you, his presence looming uncertainly. “Can we please talk?” His tone was laced with a vulnerability you weren’t used to seeing in him. His gaze drifted to your face, catching the redness around your eyes, the remnants of tears. You sighed, dabbing away the traces of mascara that had smudged beneath your eyes.
“I don’t think there’s much to talk about, Rafe.” You shrugged, brushing him off as you tried to compose yourself. “Y/n, please,” he insisted, the desperation in his voice tugging at the edges of your anger. “I swear to god, I was making it crystal clear that I wasn’t interested. I told her, over and over, that I was in a happy situation with you.”
You felt the flicker of an ache under your ribs, a small crack in the wall you’d put up. “Then why, Rafe?” Your voice rose, bitterness spilling over. “Why did she pick you? She wouldn’t have done that out of the blue if she didn’t think there was something real, something genuine, between you two.” Your words struck him, and he took a small step back, almost flinching.
He opened his mouth as if to argue but stopped, as if suddenly unsure. “I don’t know why she chose me,” he said, his voice barely a whisper. “But you have to believe me, Y/n. None of this meant anything to me—she doesn’t mean anything to me.” He looked at you, and for a split second, you caught something raw, almost pleading, in his expression.
But the anger and the hurt still clouded your heart. You shook your head, exhaustion coating your words. “I’m just… I’m really tired, Rafe. I just want to go to bed.” You didn’t meet his eyes, the weight of the evening pressing down on you. He paused, the silence stretching painfully between you both. “Right. Good night, then,” he murmured, his voice tinged with a sadness that lingered in the air as he turned and left.
By the time you walked into the bedroom, Sofia was already there, her arms opening for you without a word. You melted into her embrace, the comfort of her support soothing your frazzled nerves. “You’ll be okay,” she whispered, squeezing you tightly before you finally pulled away, giving her a small, grateful smile.
As you made your way to your bed, your gaze involuntarily flickered to Kayla’s. She lay there, already settled in, Rafe’s pillow on the other side, and it made your stomach churn. You slipped into bed, laying in the center, feeling an aching emptiness beside you. Rafe should have been there. His warmth, his steady breathing as you fell asleep, had been a constant.
Then, as if on cue Rafe walked into the room. His eyes skimmed over you for a second before he headed toward Kayla’s bed. The air was thick with unspoken words, unacknowledged feelings, and for a moment, you wanted to reach out, to say something, but you held back, the bitterness fresh in your chest. Rafe leaned over, whispering something to Kayla, though you couldn’t make out the words.
Then, without warning, he grabbed his pillow, stepping away from her bed and heading out of the room. You caught Sofia’s gaze across the dimly lit space, her knowing look meeting your own. She offered a small smile of understanding, and you returned it faintly before letting your eyes drift shut, hoping sleep would bring a break from all the emotions.
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octbrsaturn · 11 days ago
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claim your tickets baeeeeees 🤭 so you can always boast about being a drew og 😚
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octbrsaturn · 13 days ago
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what are your favorite pics of drew? 🤭
hehehe sorry this took me so long!! i had to go in and hand pick all my faves! obviously there’s new photos of drew that belong here too but these are my all time faves and pics i think about on the regular 🙂‍↕️🩷
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octbrsaturn · 14 days ago
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yknow that post thats like why would i watch something good when instead i could watch something mediocre and then pace around my room yeah thats obx to me
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octbrsaturn · 19 days ago
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In the Quiet Hours
Rafe Cameron x Y/n
summary: A sleepless night at Rafes leads to a heated run in with Ward, uncovering dangerous secrets and dragging you into a deeper mess.
warnings: *TW* violence, sexual harassment, fear, hurt/comfort, angst, fluff.
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The night in the Cameron house was unnervingly quiet, with only the soft hum of the AC breaking the stillness. You had been lying beside Rafe for hours, staring up at the ceiling unable to sleep. The heat combined with the swirling thoughts in your head made it impossible to fall asleep. So you decided to slip out of bed, careful not to disturb Rafe’s peaceful slumber, and headed downstairs for a glass of water.
As you reached the bottom of the stairs, the dim light from the kitchen caught your eye. Your steps slowed, it was late—too late for anyone else to be up.
You pushed open the door to the kitchen and stopped dead in your tracks. Ward was stood by the sink, a half empty glass of whiskey in his hand, his eyes immediately locking onto you as you entered the room. There was something unsettling about the way he looked at you, his gaze lingering a little too long, a little too intently.
“Well, well, what do we have here?” Ward’s voice was low, almost a growl as he set his glass down and took a slow step towards you. “Couldn’t sleep?”
You tried to keep your composure, forcing a small smile as you replied, “Just need to get some water.”
Ward’s smile widened, but there was nothing friendly about it. “Water? At this hour?” He stepped closer, the space between you shrinking rapidly. “You know, there’s a much better way to take care of your thirst.” He slurred.
You felt your stomach churn at his words. “I should get back upstairs,” you said quickly, but when you turned to leave Ward’s hand shot out, grabbing your wrist. His grip was rough as your heart began to race.
“Why the rush?” he asked, his voice dripping with a fake sweetness. “Rafe’s out cold. He won’t even know you’re gone.”
You tugged at your wrist, but Ward’s grip tightened, his fingers digging into your skin. He pulled you closer until you could feel the heat radiating off of his body, his breath warm against your face.
“Ward, please,” you whispered, trying to keep your voice steady despite the panic rising in your chest. “Let me go.”
But instead of letting you go, he leaned in even closer, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispered, “You’re too good to be wasting your time with my son. You deserve someone who knows how to treat a woman, knows exactly what she needs.”
Your breath hitched, fear tightening its grip on you. Ward’s free hand trailed up your arm, sending a shiver of disgust down your spine. “I could give you things no one would ever could,” he continued, his voice laced with something dark and twisted. “Just say the word, and I’ll make you feel things you’ve never felt before.”
You tried to pull away, but Ward was relentless, his grip like a vice. “Ward, stop,” you pleaded, your voice trembling now. “I’m in love Rafe.”
“And that’s supposed to mean something to me?” Ward sneered, his hand moving to your waist, pulling you even closer. “Rafe doesn’t deserve such a pretty thing, he’s useless sweetheart.”
The way he said “sweetheart” made your skin crawl. You opened your mouth to say something, scream, anything at all, but before you could the sound of footsteps echoed down the hall.
“Ward, what the hell are you doing?”
Rose’s voice cut through the air like a knife, she stood in the doorway eyes wide with shock as she took in the scene. Ward’s grip on you loosened and he stepped back, his expression quickly shifting to one of feigned innocence.
“Nothing Rose,” he said smoothly, though his voice carried a slight edge. “Just a little late night chat.”
Rose’s eyes narrowed as she looked between the two of you, clearly not convinced. “Go back upstairs,” she said, her tone leaving no room for argument. “Now.”
You didn’t need to be told twice. You quickly moved past Ward, avoiding his eyes as you hurried towards the stairs. As you reached the bottom, you could still feel his gaze on you, burning into your back.
You rushed up the stairs, returning to Rafe’s room as quickly as you could. The darkness of the room was a stark contrast to the burning anxiety in your chest, and for a moment, you just stood there staring at the bed where Rafe lay sleeping, his breathing deep and even.
You wanted to crawl back into bed, wrap yourself in Rafe’s arms and pretend nothing had happened, but the thought of it made your stomach turn. How were you going to explain what just happened? How could you even begin to tell Rafe what his father just did to his girlfriend?
Your thoughts were racing, tangled up in fear and confusion. You didn’t want to wake Rafe. You didn’t want to burden him with this, not when you weren’t even sure how to process it yourself. The last thing you wanted was to make things worse between him and his father, but the weight of what just happened felt suffocating and you knew you couldn’t just go back to bed and pretend everything was fine.
Without thinking, you turned and slipped into Rafe’s bathroom. The cold tiles under your feet grounded you just enough to keep the panic at bay as you shut the door behind you. You sank to the floor, your back against the cool wall, and pulled your knees up to your chest wrapping your arms around them.
The quiet of the bathroom was almost too much, the silence allowing your thoughts to race unchecked. You replayed the scene over and over in your mind, Ward’s voice, his touch, the way he looked at you. It made you feel sick, like you wanted to scrub your skin raw just to get rid of the memory. But no matter how hard you tried to push it away, it lingered, festering like a wound.
You sat there for what felt like an eternity trying to collect yourself, trying to figure out what to do next. But you couldn’t stop the tears that began to well up in your eyes, hot and stinging as they slid down your cheeks. You buried your face in your hands, desperate to muffle your sobs that threatened to escape, not wanting to wake Rafe and force him to see you like this.
But Rafe had always been attuned to you, even in his sleep. It wasn’t long before you heard him stirring in the bedroom, the sheets rustling as he reached out for you. When his hand met the empty space, you heard him sit up, his voice groggy and thick with sleep.
“Baby?” Rafe called out softly, the concern already creeping into his voice when you didn’t respond. You could hear him getting out of bed, his footsteps soft as he walked around the room searching for you. “Where’d you go?”
You tried to stay quiet, hoping he might just go back to bed, but when he reached the bathroom door there was no hiding from him. He knocked gently, the sound soft but insistent. “You in there?”
You took a shaky breath, trying to compose yourself before answering. “Yeah… I’m here.”
The door opened almost immediately and Rafe stepped inside, his eyes narrowing with worry when he saw you sitting on the floor, tears streaking your face. He was by your side in an instant, dropping to his knees in front of you, his hands gently cupping your face as he searched your eyes.
“Are you okay? What’s wrong?” His voice was laced with fear and concern, his thumb brushing away a tear that slipped down your cheek. “Why are you crying baby? Did something happen?”
You wanted to tell him you were fine, that it was nothing, but the words stuck in your throat, your voice betraying you with a broken sob. Rafe’s expressions shifted from worry to alarm, his hands tightening on your face as he tried to get you to look at him.
“Talk to me,” he pleaded, his voice cracking with desperation. “What happened?”
You took a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, but the moment you met his eyes the dam broke and everything came pouring out. “I-It was your dad… Ward— he…” your voice trembled as you struggled to find the right words. “He cornered me in the kitchen, he—he said things, Rafe, disgusting things, a-and he wouldn’t let me go…”
Rafe’s entire demeanor changed in an instant. His eyes darkened with a fury you’d never seen before, his jaw clenching so tightly you could see the muscle twitch. He pulled away from you, his hands dropping to his sides as he stood up abruptly, fists clenching and unclenching as if he was trying to keep himself from exploding.
“That stupid piece of shit,” Rafe growled, his voice low and dangerous. “I’m gonna fucking kill him.”
“No Rafe, please,” you cried, scrambling to your feet and grabbing his arm before he could storm out of the bathroom. “Don’t leave.. Please don’t leave.”
Rafe stopped in his tracks, turning to face you, his expression softening the moment he saw the fear in your eyes. The anger drained from him just as quickly as it had appeared, replaced with a deep concern that twisted his features into a pained expression.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, pulling you into his arms and holding you tightly against his chest. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.”
You cling to him, your fingers digging into the fabric of his shirt as you buried your face in his chest, breathing in his familiar scent. It was grounding, comforting, even as the storm of emotions raged inside you.
“It’s not your fault,” you murmured, your voice muffled against his chest. “Just.. please just stay with me.”
Rafe’s arms tightened around you, his lips pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. “I’m not going anywhere,” he promised, his voice etched with emotion. “I’m here okay? I’m right here.”
You nodded, the tension in your body slowly beginning to ease as you let yourself relax in his embrace. He gently guided you back down to the floor, sitting with you, his arms never leaving your body as he held you close trying to offer you some semblance of comfort.
“I’m so sorry,” he whispered again, over and over, his voice breaking each time. “I should’ve protected you.. I should’ve known.”
“Rafe, stop,” you whispered back, lifting your head to meet his gaze. “You couldn’t have known, this isn’t your fault.”
He shook his head, tears welling in his own eyes now as he looked at you, his expression filled with regret and self-loathing. “I just.. I never wanted something like this to happen to you. You don’t deserve this, you deserve so much better.”
You placed your hand on his cheek, your thumb brushing away a tear that escaped. “Don’t, you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.” you said softly, your voice steady despite the turmoil inside you. “I just need you with me right now. That’s all I need.”
Rafe’s eyes softened and he nodded, his forehead resting against yours as he let out a shaky breath. “I’m here,” he whispered again. “I’m not going anywhere, I’ll be right here as long as you need.”
You closed your eyes, feeling a sense of relief wash over you as you leaned into him, letting his presence soothe the raw edges of your emotions. Rafe’s hands ran soothingly up and down your back, his touch gentle and calming as he whispered soft reassurances into your ear.
For a long time the two of you just sat there on the bathroom floor, wrapped in each others arms, the world outside fading away as you found solace in each other. Rafe kept murmuring apologies, but you hushed him each time because the only thing that mattered right now was that he was here with you, holding you together when you felt like falling apart.
And as minutes ticked by, you started to feel a sense of peace returning, knowing that no matter what happened next you wouldn’t have to face it alone. Rafe was here, and for now, that was enough.
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octbrsaturn · 21 days ago
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BYE literally obsessed with these
╰┈➤ drew texting angel!reader pt 3 𓂃⊹
warnings: drew being a chronic Hahahaha user …. i love them …
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octbrsaturn · 28 days ago
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10 Flaws to Give Your Perfect Characters to Make Them Human
If you're tired of the usual vices like arrogance or impatience, here are some unique (or at least less basic) character flaws to give your perfect characters: 
Pathological Altruism
A character so obsessed with helping others that they end up doing more harm than good. Their inability to let others grow or face consequences creates tension.
2. Moral Narcissism
A character who sees themselves as morally superior to others, constantly justifying selfish or harmful actions because they believe they have the moral high ground.
3. Chronic Self-Sabotage
A character who intentionally undermines their own success, perhaps due to deep-seated feelings of unworthiness, pushing them into frustrating, cyclical failures.
4. Emotional Numbness
Rather than feeling too much, this character feels too little. Their lack of emotional response to critical moments creates isolation and makes it difficult for them to connect with others.
5. Fixation on Legacy
This character is obsessed with how they’ll be remembered after death, often sacrificing present relationships and happiness for a future that’s uncertain.
6. Fear of Irrelevance
A character-driven by the fear that they no longer matter, constantly seeking validation or pursuing extreme measures to stay important in their social or professional circles.
7. Addiction to Novelty
Someone who needs constant newness in their life, whether it’s experiences, relationships, or goals. They may abandon projects, people, or causes once the excitement fades, leaving destruction in their wake.
8. Compulsive Truth-Telling
A character who refuses to lie, even in situations where a lie or omission would be the kinder or more pragmatic choice. This flaw causes unnecessary conflict and social alienation.
9. Over-Identification with Others' Pain
Instead of empathy, this character feels others' pain too intensely, to the point that they can’t function properly in their own life. They’re paralyzed by the suffering of others and fail to act effectively.
10. Reluctant Power
A character who fears their own strength, talent, or influence and is constantly trying to shrink themselves to avoid the responsibility or consequences of wielding it.
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octbrsaturn · 1 month ago
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crash
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warnings: car crash, drinking, partying, soft!rafe, descriptions of blood, rafe and sarah actually get along, underage drinking? (i guess sarah but this doesnt fit in with the obx timeline), topper and sarah dating, established relationship, surgery, hospital setting, injuries, fluffy, they say i love you a lot
“you good to drive top?” rafe tosses the keys towards his friend. rafe usually wouldn't trust anyone else with his truck, but he wouldn't drive with even one drink in his system when he has such precious cargo.
“yeah, man.” topper catches the keys one handed with ease, pulling sarah behind him with his free hand.
rafe looks to you, wrapped against his side, steps slightly wobbly, a small giggle escaping your lips as he opens the back door for you.
“why thank you.” you step in with rafes help, immediately flopping down in the seat. 
“gotta buckle up, baby.” rafe may be slightly tipsy as well, but he's not as far gone as you are, having indulged with your girlfriends at the party, including sarah who is clearly the drunkest out of the group as topper has to physically lift her into the passenger seat.
“mkay.” you hum, letting rafe do up your buckle in the middle seat before you collapse against his side, eyes closing instantly as your tiredness sets in.
“did you have fun?” rafe asks as topper gets in, his arm wrapping around your shoulders.
“mhm.” you hum out again, not wanting to actually open your mouth to speak as the truck moves out of its parking spot, topper carefully driving down the road as he squints slightly into the darkness before turning the brights on to illuminate the road more.
“just head to mine, top.” sarah says, reaching over to place her hand on his bicep. “you can spend the night.”
“in the guest bedroom.” rafe adds on. he can't see sarah roll her eyes, but he knows she does.
“shh, young love is cute rafey.” you mumble, rubbing your head against his chest like a cat would snuggle into their owner.
“im like only three years younger than-” sarah can't finish her sentence as topper blares on the horn seconds before another truck rams into the passenger side, sending the truck spinning through the intersection. before you even realize what is happening, you're upside down, then right side up, then upside down again before the truck ends up on its tires once more, now off the side of the road.
“fuck!” topper shouts out, his hands running over his body, checking to see that he’s okay before turning to look to sarah, who is clearly shaken but uninjured. “everyone okay?”
“baby?” rafes arm caged you against his body during the impact, but the rolling dislodged you as the top of the car crunched down.
“shit…” you groan, reaching up to touch your forehead, having smacked it against something in the crash. you pull your hand away to realize that your fingertips are red with blood.
“im bleeding.” you wheeze out, panic suddenly setting in as you try to move before realizing you’re trapped, leg pinned under sarah’s seat which has been pushed in towards you from the impact.
“baby, baby!” rafes voice breaks through your panic as his hands grip at your wrists until you stop your flailing. “stay calm, im getting us out.”
topper is able to kick his door open before rounding the now completely wrecked hood to get sarah out. he looks at the intersection to see the truck that plowed into them now blocking the center of the roadway. 
“i-i can’t get out rafe. my leg is pinned. i-i think its okay though.” you’re not sure if your words are the truth, afterall, your head feels completely fine and judging from the blood you have to wipe away from your eye, its not.
“okay, shit.” tears stream down rafes face as he looks over you, allowing himself a split second of panic before he instantly begins to move in the crumpled truck, tearing at the bottom of his shirt until he’s able to pull off a chunk, moving it to your forehead and pushing against the cut despite your grimace.
“its okay.” rafe assures you softly. “ive got you. you’re okay. you’re okay.” the repeating words are partially for rafe as he reaches with his free hand to under the seat, feeling that your leg isn’t bleeding, just stuck at the ankle by a bar under the seat.
“call 911!” rafe yells, and sarah instantly pulls out her phone from her back pocket, glad it survived the crash.
“fuck-i-” tears form in your eyes as the pain sets in, as you see the panic in rafes face and realize how bad you must look. “im scared.”
“im scared too baby, but its gonna be okay, just stick with me.” rafe can’t help himself, he leans forward and presses a kiss to your cheek despite the sweat and drops of blood, he needs to reassure you that everything will be alright.
when rafe pulls away from the kiss, his eyes are blown wide, brows raised. “what is it?” you begin to squirm again.
“nothing, i got you.” rafe works to unbuckle his and then your seatbelt as the fabric of his shirt is now dyed completely red with your blood. he doesn’t want to tell you how shockingly cold and clammy your skin felt when he pressed a kiss against it.
“topper!” rafe shouts. “try to move this fucking seat!” rafe can’t just sit still, managing to push at it with one of his legs as topper pries at the seat, the sound of sirens approaching.
“see that, baby?” rafe looks at you, even able to tell in the dim lighting that your face has gone unnaturally pale. “help is coming, okay?”
it’s a fire truck that arrives first. they do a quick assessment of everyone at the scene before helping topper and rafe, who have not given up on moving the seat. they get it to budge just enough for you to pull your leg out with a sigh of relief as the ambulance arrives.
“come here.” rafe feels a pang of pain is side, but he ignores it as he climbs out of the car, pulling you into his arms. “she needs to go first.”
rafe knows eventually they’ll all get taken to the hospital, but you’re his priority.
“the other guys got a broken leg-” a firemen begins to explain to the emts as they lower the gurney. 
“and hes the one that fucking hit us!” rafe shouts. “my girlfriends got a head injury, she’s going first.”
the emt takes one look at you and nods, motioning for rafe to lay you down. the emt instantly takes over, applying more gauze to your forehead but leaving the crumpled bit of rafes shirt there, hoping that it’s clotting underneath.
they raise the gurney up, rafe climbing in the back with you as a second ambulance pulls up, probably to take the other driver.
rafe tries to talk to you as the emt moves around the back of the ambulance, checking the rest of your body, grimacing slightly when she sees your ankle, which is already swelling and turning purple.
the ride and transfer into the hospital is a rush, and despite rafe not wanting to leave your side, you’re taken for further examination while he has to stay behind.
“sir, we should get you checked out too.” a nurse says softly, his voice too calming for rafe, which just causes the anger he’s been holding inside to bubble over.
“not until i know y/n is okay.” he says firmly, walking out of the waiting room before he can say another word or start punching shit and get himself kicked out. rafe moves towards a tree, pummeling his fists into the bark until they’re bloody and bruised. 
with the anger now at a simmering level, rafe walks back into the emergency room entrance, looking for an update on your condition, only grunting his disapproval before slumping into one of the uncomfortable plastic chairs.
rafe doesn’t even realize that he’s fallen asleep until he's being shaken awake by topper.
“y/n.” rafe stands suddenly, cursing at himself for falling asleep in the first place, but his body crashed from the adrenaline.
“shes alright. the doctor just updated us.”
rafe walks past topper, noticing sarah sleeping in one of the other waiting room chairs, relieved to see that they're both fine and not admitted.
“room 1007.” topper calls out as rafe moves past the nurses station to find you.
you are still groggy as the medicine works it's way through your system, and the feeling of stitches on your head is an unusual weight against your skin, yet you still smile widely when rafe enters the room.
“im okay.” you confirm instantly as he rushes to the side of your bed.
“god,” rafe places his hand on your cheek, his gaze darting between your eyes and the gash on your forehead, looking a lot less serious now that the bleeding has stopped. “im so sorry baby.”
you shake your head. “i really am fine. this nice nurse was explaining to me that head injuries bleed a lot and always make it seem worse than it is. and my ankle is just bruised and sprained, not even broken.”
“you won't be using that ankle any time soon anyways.” rafe leans forward to press a gentle kiss against your cheek. “you're getting carried everywhere, i hope you know that.”
you laugh before suddenly stopping, watching as rafes face turns pale, a sheen of sweat seeking to suddenly appear over his face.
“rafe?” you watch as he blinks heavily, once, twice, then his eyes slide closed as he drops forward, landing on the bed, body completely slack.
“nurse! nurse! help!”
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“ma’am, you should be resting in your own bed. you're still a patient here.”
you're well aware you're a patient, moving around the floor in your hospital gown and hauling the iv attached to your arm.
“ill rest when i know my boyfriend is okay.”
“he had internal bleeding and wasn't seen for hours after the crash. he's in surgery but it won't be short, we are being as thorough as possible to make sure he's going to be okay.” the nurse explains to you gently.
“ill go sit.” you say, mostly because you feel like your legs might give out at any moment, and you're tired of hopping around on your one good ankle. “but i will not be resting until i know rafe-”
a bell dings and cuts you off, the nurse rushing off without another word.
“shit.” you groan, just glad she ran off in the opposite direction of where rafe is in surgery. 
you hop back to the waiting room and drop into the seat next to topper.
“im so sorry, y/n.” topper says, apologizing yet again.
“it wasn't your fault, top.” you shake your head. “he hit us out of nowhere, you couldn't have done anything.”
“maybe if id just gone a little slower-” you tune out whatever else topper is saying, stomach churning as you watch in waiting for an update on rafe.
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“he's awake and asking for you.”
“thank god.” you jump up, cringing when you land on your hurt ankle. 
“im taking you there in a wheelchair whether you like it or not.” the nurse whose been with you all night says. “but ill walk fast.”
you sit on the chair, needing to get to rafe as fast as possible, and you know the nurse understands just how much you need to see him as she rushes down the hallway.
“baby.” rafe is sat in bed, looking so much younger and vulnerable in that moment. “are you okay?”
“me?” you laugh and shake your head, moving to carefully sit on the bed next to him. “you just got out of surgery. you needed a blood transfusion.”
“mmm.” rafe shakes his head. “are you okay?” he asks again.
“yes.” you nod, tears coming to your eyes. “im okay now that you're okay. don't you ever put your health off again just for me.”
you lean forward and press your lips against rafes, kissing him softly even though he can barely manage to move his mouth to meet you.
“i love you.” you tell rafe. “and i don't want to live without you.”
“i love you too baby.” rafes cheeks stretch as he smiles, and your chest flutters with relief as the spark in his eyes comes back.
sfw tags: @winterrrnight @bejeweledreverie @ladyinbl00d @ethanthequeefqueen @drewsephrry @wearemadeofstardust0
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Reblog if you support squishy bellies, have a squishy belly, or have the desire to summon satan
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୨⎯ POGUE!BARTENDER!READER UNIVERSE!⎯୧
♡✎OFFICIAL MASTERLIST♡✎
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: ̗̀➛ONE SHOTS
birds of a feather
it could be you and me
scared of nothin' & i'm scared to death
i would follow you home
you got me overnight
it hits different ‘cause it’s you
don't want less, don't want more
found a girl my parents love
i'm usually so uproblematic
year dark night and now i see daylight
wash the sins out of that house
you're in the walls that i made
social media au
so blessed to be looking at you
death by a thousand cuts (+18)
you're on your own kid
we're both older now
i'd give up everything
threw away my faith just to keep you safe
just want you in my life keep you warm at nights
you say you got it & you have to let me see
you’ve got no reason to be afraid
i would never do you wrong
i'll do anything you say, if you say it with your hands(+18)
it's buzzcut season anyway
social media au (2)
when you say you love me, know i love you more
the way you hold me is actually what's holy
don't you ever grow up just stay this little
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》 you are my sunshine — rafe cameron
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gif creds to me!
ᡣ𐭩 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: grumpy!rafe x sunshine!reader
ᡣ𐭩 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓: 2.1k
ᡣ𐭩 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: allusions to underage drinking (not by reader or rafe), cussing, fighting, punching, blood, jaw breaking, mean!rafe (to everyone but his girl, ofc), angst, fluff. semi-proofread. let me know if i forgot any!
ᡣ𐭩 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘: slightly based on this ask! (since i screwed up)
ᡣ𐭩 𝐀/𝐍: again, I AM SO SORRY i realized once i had basically wrote the whole thing, that you said they didn’t start dating until after she helps clean him up :’( i liked your idea way better so feel free to send me another ask based on that! <3
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a majority of obx gathered at the boneyard just a few hours before dusk. ages ranging from sixteen to twenty-three, they all came for two things - to drink and have a good time.
the weather was still warm despite being october, most of the partygoers dressed in shorts, t-shirts, and some in dresses. everyone was conversing with different people, many people all scattered around the massive bonfire. the sound of the waves crashing, the salty air, tourons mingling. this was your favorite part of keggers. two tribes, one island. it didn't matter during this time, everyone gathered no matter their "status." fights often broke out, typically minor and petty anyways.
you had been near the wall of the cliff, talking to sarah when she eventually went off to find topper, leaving you by your lonesome. rafe was off with topper and kelce so once sarah found top, you figured it wouldn't be long before rafe was by your side.
you watching warily as some random guy began approaching you, a drink in his hand and a smile on his face as his eyes kept on yours. you politely smile at him, looking down at the now empty solo cup in your hand. you were hoping he would turn around and walk towards someone else, but nonetheless, he was now standing right beside you.
a young guy, maybe twenty-two? a bit of scruff on his face, his eyes were a nice shade of green. he had a ballcap on backwards, some random band shirt and cargo shorts. all in all, he seemed like a well kept guy.
"hi," he smiles. charming, a little cocky maybe? he must be a touron because everyone on this island knew you belonged to rafe cameron. if anyone dared to mess with his girl, they'd be lunch for the sharks.
"uh, hi," you smiled awkwardly. you were not mentally prepared to deal with this right now, let alone have a conversation with this dude. you looked down, picking at your fingers anxiously, hoping maybe he would take notice and ease off.
"how are you tonight?" he asks, trying to keep conversation.
"i'm good, how are you?" you smile. your mouth began feeling dry, your fingers twiddling with themselves. he seems like a really nice guy but you know exactly why he approached you.
"i'm great. what's a pretty lady like you doing all by yourself?" he cocks his head to the side, smiling sickly sweetly.
"well my friend ran off to find her boyfriend," you point, smiling and looking off to whatever direction sarah headed off to. he smiles, nodding in understanding. you notice he's about to speak again, so you quickly say what you wanted, "but my boyfriend should be here any second," you grin, looking every direction for rafe. leave it up to you feel horrible, though. he seems innocent enough, just trying to make connections, shooting his shot. although you're anxious that he's talking to you, he didn't seem so bad.
"i don't see him," the man shrugs, looking around, scanning the island. you can't help but hug yourself, wanting to get out of this situation but not seem rude about it.
"he will be here any minute," you look away, looking around frantically for sarah to rescue you from this situation. rafe wouldn't let this dude walk away alive if he came to your rescue. sarah was your safe option, your non violence option.
"well he's not very bright to leave a beautiful girl like yourself all alone," he flirts, poking your arm jokingly. you smile, taking a small step back.
"thank you, but he just had to leave for a moment," you assure him, still smiling politely. you stand on your tip toes, attempting to look over the crowd of people for sarah or even rafe. at least if you spotted rafe, you'd have an excuse to leave.
"why don't you let me take you home? you seem awfully uncomfortable," his smile became more and more sinister the more you spoke with him and this was when you realized he wasn't going to let you off the hook very easily.
he reaches out, his fingers grazing your hand and attempting to grasp your shoulder. you instantly pull away, clutching your loose sweater to your abdomen. you stumble back and he simply looks at you confused. you try to play it off with a smile, keeping your distance respectfully.
"hey, what's your problem?" he snarls, stepping closer yet again.
"i- just please leave me alone," you shake your head, attempting to ignore him, still searching for sarah or rafe.
"hey!" he grips your arm roughly. you shriek, looking down at his hand roughly clutching your bicep. your eyes travel back up to his, pleading to let you go. now, you were terrified. now, you weren't sure how to get yourself out of this one. someone had to be noticing the altercation by now, right?
"didn't your daddy ever teach you manners?" he shouts, his grip bone crushing. you recoil, tears falling down your cheeks. you shook your head, choking on your own sobs as you tried to pry his fingers off your arm. his grip was too tight, your skin turning white under his fingers and turning red around his fingers from the grip.
"i- i," you stutter nervously, holding your hands up in defense. just let me go, you pleaded in your head. just let me walk away. stop crushing my arm. it hurts so much. rafe, please help me.
"rafe, no!" you hear topper shout after your boyfriend and before you can even look, rafe comes barreling through a crowd of people, shoving them aside, storming up to the man.
"hey! bitch!" he walks right up to the man, gripping fistfuls of his shirt and shoving him against the cliff wall. the guy lets go of your arm, but you begin stumbling back, nearly falling to the sand as you grip your arm in your hand. you knock into a hard figure whose arms reach out to catch you. you turn your head, looking to see who caught you. topper.
by now. every single person at the boneyard had their eyes on rafe. watching intently as he handled the situation.
"that's my girlfriend, man," rafe shakes his head in disbelief, his tongue poking his cheek, "don't you ever, EVER, fucking touch her, or yell at her again. you got me?!" rafe screams in his face, keeping him pinned to the wall, some rock dust falling on them.
the guy shoves rafe off him, rafe staggering backwards. rafe takes a moment, breathing heavily, eyeing the man. rafe smiles maliciously, running his tongue along his bottom lip. rafe was fucking pissed and this dude was not getting out of here unscathed.
he charged at the man, gripping him harshly and whipping him to the side and shoving him down in the process. your hands fly up to your mouth, gasping loudly as you take in the sight before you. topper still had his hands on you protectively. sarah had finally came running up to the affair, immediately pulling you into her arms.
you watch in horror as rafe straddles the man, fist after fist colliding with his face. all you could hear was grunts and the sounds of rafe's fists connecting with the man's face. blood began appearing on rafes knuckles and came from the man's nose.
at one point the guy got a quick chance, cheap shotting rafe as his fist collides with rafe's cheek. you wince, tears brimming your eyes yet again. you scream out, holding your chest.
"rafe!" you cry out, sarah holding you back, keeping you safely in her arms,
"fuck you!" rafe shouts, bringing his fist up and letting it crash down, connecting with the man's jaw. the sound of his jaws undoubtedly breaking fills the air, the crowd "ooh!"ing.
topper runs up to the two, grabbing rafe and urging him to leave the guy alone. "rafe! let's go!" topper ushers, trying to drag rafe away, but he doesn't want to be done. rafe simply wipes the blood from his nose, attempting to go back down and give the man another reason to go cry to his mommy.
"rafe, c'mon man! enough!" topper grunts, jerking rafe away. rafe shoves topper off him, walking off towards you and sarah, turning his head for a moment to make sure he left that guy to the point he couldn't even stand. a few people had gathered around him, calling 911 and attempting to keep him comfortable.
"fucking prick," rafe shakes his head, immediately walking up to you and pulling you out of sarah's embrace and into his own. his arms wrap around you tightly. you sobbed into his chest, your mind replaying the images of what you just saw.
when things had eventually calmed down with you, i.e your tears were no longer streaming, there was a house right off the boneyard that belonged to one of the partygoers. he gave you permission to take rafe there and clean him up.
you lead rafe through the house, a few other tourons and friends of this partygoers were hanging around in the house, one of which knew who rafe was.
"yo, rafe are you okay?" he asks, completely shocked and likely worried when he saw you bringing rafe through the house with a cut cheek and bloodied nose.
"fuck off," rafe barks, continuing to follow behind you. you lead him up the stairs and to the left where you found the bathroom. you shut the door behind you, locking in and immediately looking for something to help rafe clean up. he notices your frantic state and attempts to relax you.
"baby, it's okay. i'm alright," he reassures. but this was all your fault. he's hurt because of you. if you would've kept your mouth shut and just played a little nicer with the guy, allowing him to flirt, maybe this whole situation could've been avoided.
finally, you found a washcloth under the sink. you stood up, and attempted to lift yourself up onto the counter. it was seamless and you struggled for a moment. rafe smiles cutely, approaching you and placing his hands under your armpits as he helps pick you up and place you onto the counter.
wrapping the cloth around the pad of your finger, you turn your torso and turn on the warm water. you let the water soak the fabric before turning the water off and turning back to rafe.
he looks at you and steps forward, standing in between your legs so you could easily clean him off. you raise your hand up steadily, brushing the cloth across rafe’s gash on his cheekbone. you wince as you try your best to be gentle and not hurt him.
as you continued to clean off his face, you felt tears prick your eyes. you shook your head, trying to rid of them and distract rafe from seeing them.
“hey,” rafe’s voice is quiet and hardly even noticeable. his finger rests up under your chin, encouraging you to look up at him. you hesitate, your vision going blurry for a moment from the pooled up tears. you take a long blink before looking up at rafe and opening your eyes.
“why are you crying?” his voice is gentle, kind, and calming.
“you got hurt because of me,” your voice is strained, lip quivering.
“i would take a hundred punches if it meant you were safe,” he smiles and brings his thumb up to stroke your cheek. you smile softly at him, thankful to have someone like rafe in your life. you didn’t like the violence he inflicted, but he was greatest protector and always would be.
“can i ask you something?” you ask, running your fingers through his mess hair. he nods his head and leans in a bit, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek.
"why are you so nice to me, but mean to everyone else?" you ask. rafe pulls away and looks at you, cocking a brow.
"what do you mean?" he questions.
"you would kill anyone who looked at you sideways. but you've always treated me so different. in a good way," you look at him.
"well that's because you’re my princess," he smirks and you can't help but blush, giggling and pushing him away playfully as he tries to leave tickling kisses on your jaw. rafe pulls away after a moment and suddenly looks at you seriously.
"you saw me for who i was under all the anger, rich boy shit. you treated me no differently that anyone else. you gave me shit when i deserved it and you were there for me when i needed it. that's when i knew you were the one," he smiles brightly, so much emotion and love for you beneath that smile.
“i love you,” you giggle, leaning in and pressing your lips to his in a sweet moment.
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new light — rafe cameron
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welcome to the series masterlist for my rafe cameron x reader series new light!
summary: you come home from college to spend your last summer before senior year in your hometown of the outer banks. an old friend hits you up wanting something more, and you begin to see what’s really been there all along.
warnings: drinking (+ underage), drugs (weed), swearing, mentions of sex/suggestive content (minors dni!), false positive pregnancy. more detailed warnings on every part.
word count: ~85k
new light
part 2: take two
part 3: break through
part 4: underneath the moonlight
part 5: real thing
part 6: far from here
part 7: take a ride
part 8: walk away
part 9: think twice
part 10: look at you
part 11: just one night
part 12: through my veins
epilogue: new world
blurbs: soft spot, sleepyhead, heat above, the wonder of you, before we knew, all i want, just for me, flume, when i’m gone, stargazing, fine line, tongue tied, wake me, better man, blue christmas, new year’s day, next to you, never really mine, this love, hesitate, don’t worry baby, keep driving, stuck in your throat, sweet nothing, fade into you, head over heels, girl at home, smaller acts
prompt celly: give up, look at us now, baby blue, last kiss, no surprises, space and time, wondering why
outtakes: afterglow, motorcycle accident, rafe and dylan, all i want p2, where the f is kelce, the truck hop, coming home
misc: headcanons tag, instagram tag, tik tok camera roll edit
*the character of rafe cameron in this series does not reflect every aspect of the canon character or any of his more condemnable actions in the show outer banks. this is fanfiction!
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"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.
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