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I know I won't ever be forgiven unless I leave sometime soon, but I don't wanna leave yet. there's still things I need to do

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just one more night just one more night

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25 posts!

25 posts made whole on the verge of suicide

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gave myself a deadline of 24/2/2025. if things remain this way for that long then I'll go for it. I'll commit suicide

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there really isn't anybody left who cares much at all. I don't even care much anymore really

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4 minutes clean. awesome

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you stupid fucking straggot!!!!! don't ever look at me again!!! I hate you and your deer in headlights stare! I'm so exhausted from pacing around my room and punching myself for the past twenty minutes but at least I'm not as miserable as you are :-D

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it makes me sad when the scars on my arms fade away. I thought I was friends with my scars but they're leaving me! I don't want them to leave yet. I'm not better yet I'm going through all this pain but if I have no scars it feels like I have nothing to show for it! and I don't even have the option to get better yet because getting better right now would kill me for so many reasons. but also really maybe I'm not doing that bad I mean I can't even self harm correctly! I can't do anything correctly. I'm not an actual self harmer. all I ever do is throw silly tantrums and make cuts that aren't deep enough. either I start going deeper or I just chop my whole god damn arm off. I'm being so immature I'm acting like a kid

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don't wanna go to school ,,,,

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I wish somebody cared. I wish the things I do mattered

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there's too much in my brain and I don't like it. but it would be bad if my head was empty because it's scary when it's empty

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reblogging my vent post and tagging it with 'me' doesn't make me feel much better yknow

my emotions are not your emotions

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tomorrow is going to go terribly and nobody even cares

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somebody will figure out someday and it'll be the death of you. I don't want anybody else to know this please dstop please pleas eleas eplease

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cut myself while in the dark and I didn't even realise my arm did get pretty red after all until I turned on the light

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this hurts a lot

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I can't stay like this