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It was also a reminder I never healed in my ED. The first thought I had was well I just won’t eat today then.

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Ive gained some weight lately and I know that but I honestly didn’t think it was that bad. Until someone at work asked me if I was pregnant and let me tell you I died a little inside.

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How do people just open up to others after getting no help from the people that said they were there to help you??

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Peaky Blinders S01xE02

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Jamás pensé que me iba a quedar tan sola.

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I need to come to terms that I’m just not good enough maybe then I can find peace.

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I hate how my social anxiety runs my life. Even tho it feels like I’ve gotten better and little by little I can have some conversation without much anxiety there is always a reminder on how fucking broken I am. Recently I had a friends mom and boyfriend say that they simply don’t like me because im to quiet. That’s it that the only reason why and it just hurts. Or I’ll hang out with someone and then introduce them to my best friend who is the exact opposite of me and they just automatically like her more because she’s just more out going and fun. I try for it not to get to me but it’s hard when they don’t even hide it. I don’t even hate my best friend for it I love having her around I just hate when everyone around us need to point it out that I’m just not god enough or as fun as her.

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I somehow only have two close friends but when there with there boyfriends or other friends I feel so lonely like I feel like I should have other people besides them but I can’t seem to keep a friendship going it’s like they get bored of me and just leave. I don’t really blame them to be honest

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How do people make friends in real life? Like I feel like I try I actually enjoy spending time with people but I feel like people don’t enjoy spending time with me….

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I cut myself last night... i have purged before but never cut myself. I am so disappointed in myself

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I have come to terms that I meant nothing to him but he showed me I could possibly be happy and then he just left now I’m so fucking numb

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Is it just our bodies?

Are we both losing our minds?

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