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feel like i shld apologise 4 being like, guilt trippy or w/evr but like, if i don't know if anyone acctually felt that way apologissing is, awkward >w> anyways i made a new account lol, message me if nyou want url bcuz hnstly i got too anious over the idea of waking up to see like 20 ppl following it haha >w>

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i had been, techncally 7 days if nyou go by date and nyot hour so compiling thoughts i guess

the overlap w/ the first time in awhile parents were nyot here for multiple days ina row probsbly exagerates alot of the results though >w>

1. if i dont use tumblr i will use reddit, scrolling through subreddits can be literally so much worse than tumblr

2. i felt overall calmer though?

3. very lonely though but, when nyou barely talk 2 one person thats kinda a consant snyways ghfgvhbjbb

i thought abt what felt missing also so list 2: wht does this fvcking catgirl get out of tumblr?

1, pseudo social interactin: bcuz i dont fcking talk 2 ppl on tumblr bcuz even if soneone messaged me furst ild have no fucking idea how to respond and thus wldnt, the closest to sociallity i get is the attention from ppl liking the things i blog, but also the "seeing someone even just in avatar formst often" is also a bit socially fudilling

2, art: curated art blogs snd oroginal srt are both nyice, even though theres mewre curstion

3, screaming thoughts out: i think things and then think i wannya tell someone but also dont wannya annoy the only purrson i talk to so blogging is helpful in that regard

4, tumblr is funny

5, idk where ekse i can find horny textposting tbh >///>

im thinking that i might make a new account though?

sinxe like list 3 having over 100 folloeers makes me feel completeky unsble to post stiff and makes the feeling of nyot getting strention worse,, AND makes the pseudo attention i get feel hollow?, and i just wannys nyot reblog so mewch stuff ehich is rge orecedent here, having less followed blogs wld reduce the negative effects of when compulsion to scroll through literalky everything easier dealt w/, and also as an asside thst shld be burried away down here im like nintybine percent most of the my mutuals i wod wannya refolliw probably fucking hate ne and if they followed me first ild know they didnt think abt skinning themselves everytime they thought abt me

so i might meke a new account st some point soon maybe i guess

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i think that the way i interact w/ tumblr [scrolling through until i get to the point i last rember seeing with genuenly increasing tension, constantly checking activbity 2 see if someone liked one of the original posts i'ld made] is like, genuenly really fucking unhealthy even w/out the jelihsly/resentment/w/e the fuck you call it that i've kinda built up 2 some of the ppl that the ppl i follow reblog from alot >w>

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Making a collection

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