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2024, here we go

Hello there, long time time I haven’t been updating my blog, so. Thought I would. So I have been about what 12 years since I started tumblr? But you see me come and o but always come back in my new chapter in life. Regardless what, since the early u shit I experience, I only have 2 things in plan, getting my life right.My study and my self. The rest will come together as it may. So the plan

My study

1. Surgery and Both Oncology

2. Conference

3. Surgical skill

My self

1. My study (to achieve plan 1)

2. My weight (cap at 50kg)

4.My character and personality (spirituality, values, intelligence, elegance)

5. My FInancial (bills paid on time, sedekah, save 5k fund)

6. My family and friends (more time together, meet up and dinner)

7.My Soulmate (tawakkal and istiqamah finding him through my prayers)

In a way my goals doesn’t come in according to the numbers but just a rough guideline how I want this year to be.

So here we go, 2024 please make me a better person. Thanks.

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Thank you everyone!!!

Hi guys. Congrats on making thru the steps smpai berjaya ke page ini. Next step click on the spotify link atas tu and silakan dengar sambil terus membaca.

Ok so dearest SN and MAs of HMS selayang 4D, have been knowing a lot of you since ho ship, so my thanks go beyond the 4 months i have stayed here. This is just a small token of appreciation and something to remember me by, mungkin juga wedding doorgift alifa in advance. Hehehe.

Anyways, back to business,

The past 4 months have been great for all the moments we spent together. For all the teachings, team working, laughing and the late nights dinner we had together. I insisted on doing these because i wouldnt want to go and start a new journey without you guys knowing how grateful and lucky i am to me and to work together with everyone and each of you.

So dearest Hj Anwar, Sr Roshina, capik, james, kak miza, kopi, kk anz, ummi mufid, kepil, zabubu, kak ida, president of club single unmarried childless haida, fiona, farah, Ayuni,hussain, syahmi, kak ya, azzamah, kak ju, kak syila , dan sekecil2 nya di 4D.

Terima kasih ye izinkan saya menumpang.

Saya pergi dulu. Doakan saya.

Sincerly,

Nuralifa sahira

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Urgh this posting

Hello peeps i know doesnt exist cause nobody cares about my rant here

This posting is getting more intense as i only have another 2 more months left, which means i have only 1 more month to submit my logbook. Crazy that i still have no gynae op yet, and lets not talk about my SVD ... when am i going to finish this posting at this rate..... And the stress from the mediocolegal stuff is really annoying, like you’re trying to do your best but the patient and your superiors will bring you down at any little simple mistake there is.......

This posting does not leave room for mistake, and how are we supposed to learn.......

I’m literally dying,,, sigh....

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My diary is far away...

So dear tumblenese,

I haven’t been updating my blogs in awhile but here i am telling you whats up with my life. Well, i’m holding on as i’m finishing my first posting in housemanship in a month. December coming soon, and 2021 ending, Guess i’ll be turning 26 soon with not much of life improvement other than getting a job. Other than that, we had 3 new taggers in my group and i am trying my best to teach them but i hate the fact that i will raise my voice when i teach people urghhh but honestly i am not mad at all, which reminds me of my old groupmates, they were so soft and compassionate with me during my first early days....i miss them so badly nowadays, i bet none of them are reading this this but i miss you guys and all those splendid time working together, you guys made medicine bearible (cc: Yita, Navin, Roshini, Sumitta, and leaving soon Lee, and Hani and Hidayah to follow soon) Meanwhile my journey has just started, i wish our path will cross again but maybe next time you guys will be my Mos. On a side note, i am constantly having anxiety prior yo my night shift alone, makes me miss all those night shift i did with Hidayah and Yita as well, it is always a pleasant time to night shift with someone than alone. Aside from that, at least having 10 different crush on 10 different people to kill some time, but specially you who is like a star beyond anyone reach, i fancy you so much :)))) like a lot... i want you to keep crossing my view and just be the highlight of my day, i want to continue working under you and you teaching me everything, urghh i’m offically your fangirl. Ok done confessing, 

Speacially to my old groupmates, 

Thank you so very much for the wonderful days of working together, i love our moments together, you guys kept me going on, though we have no picture together, but i condensed all the feelings of being concern and joy of working together with you guys in my mind. And for the new taggers coming in, in promise you it will get better in time, because in medicine you only be better with time, knowledge just make you better....

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Hey, I was only doing what I'm supposed to do. Whatever words or insult you have threw at me, will only make me stronger. And all you will always be is mean.

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Words

Every words that have came out through your lips or finger tips, you've given a soul to them. Those word you've told to somebody will become alive. Either it haunts or it live to them. So be careful of the words you choose. All those pain and suffering that you've caused , will come back to you, that is when you learn what it is meant by apology.

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Semoga Allah jodohkan atau kekal jodohkan saya dengan groupmate yang baik, beri kerjasama, tolak ansur dalam medicine ini dan seterusnya 😭

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these are actually hella fucking cute y'all

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Kenapa ya aku selalu kena ngorat perempuan di

Tumblr?

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Selamat Hari Raya ❤️

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“your hands were meant to let go of mine.”

I stretch my breath to erase my name, yet my shoulders are never strong enough to wear your smile. I know I’m taking steps into wearing myself down, writing waves over the entrance to my arm, piercing my tongue with wingless papercuts, still I tell myself the best part of me is you. I don’t know which one of us is lying when I love you buds from sleepless summer’s. goodnight, goodnight, you’re the only thing I lack tonight. I’m so tired of being tired of the same hurt. it’s not about love, just hold me until the pain is gone. just tell me when the pain is done. a word left deep in your chest, sometimes i feel like another face in the crowd. sometimes i feel like all of this shouting is finally going to get me heard. do i have to share my silence with the night? and if the stars finally go out, will that be dark enough for you to walk me home? sometimes safety and security is a scam and darling, we’ve been hustled. there’s a scar on the right side of your heart that looks like my hands couldn’t be gentle enough— gentle enough to love you like how i needed you to love me, the truth is i probably just gave up. i’m all out of truths, i’m done with the lies. no more bushes, no more metaphors. no more prose, no more poetry. if you love me then give it to me straight. i would go through hell just for a signature of proof that you truly don’t give a fuck. but we both know that it wouldn’t be enough to merit your approval. we’re full of ourselves, aren’t we? digging for an answer that buried itself long ago. you can find me where you last laughed with me. sometimes i think that was our greatest moment. two people that knew it was never going to last past this point. it’s been a few years, but i still find myself conjuring your voice back into my head. love doesn’t die, it just changes into a new face, a different laugh, and a familiar smile. we’re all missing someone, i just so happens that i’m the one writing about it and you’re the one reading it.

— ate & bunso

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2018

Its a year with lots of sacrifice, loss and waste. But no worries i gain a lot of things as well along the way. I learn the many meanings and ways of sacrifice when it come to my study. Like skipping family events for exams, i know I’m an expert at this ever since i was younger, but the hirt of doing so will remain the same. As for dealing with loss, losing trust toward people is something i had yo deal and I’m trying to rebuild my self again, afterwards. Then, waste. I have wasted and loss a significant amount of money this year. All, for a sacrifice that i made to achieve my dream. I have learn a lot of lesson this year. I hope i am a much better than i was before last year. I am closing my eyes teaching my self to let go of all these regrets, live in the moment and seize my future.

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These new apps is cool.

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