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Tags: @loganis-sherlock (mkay um…imma make a taglist soooo….if you wanna be on it…ask ig?)

Pairings: Anxceit

Prompt: 10. “How was I such an idiot, to believe that you, out of all people, could ever love me?” 47. “You deserve so much better.” 50. “I’m sorry i’m not enough for you.” from prompts

A/n: hhhhhhh o w just like….the prompts hurt…damn ok….also…im delirious soo…~meh~….I cant write like…fight scenes sooooo…this is the best you’re gonna get aksjsmd sorry also it ended up being longer than I intended.

Tw: ~angst~?, mentions of like…alcohol or being intoxicated? ita like…a kinda toxic…relationship? but like….not really? idk its not a super healthy relationship, mentions of bars, mentions of hookups, panic attack, cursing, mentions of blood

“Virgil….”

“No. You should’ve thought before you did it!!!”

“I wasn’t sober!”

“Yeah, and thats the problem Janus!! You rarely are anymore!!” Virgil started feeling lightheated and thought he was going to faint at any second, but ignored it.

“I- wow you so aren’t being dramatic.”

“Oh yeah! Of course. My boyfriend only cheated on me and tried to lie about it. Yeah, you’re right, nothing big.”

“Virgil thats not what I meant-”

“Mhm.” He then started feeling extremely hot, despite it being extremely cold a few seconds ago. He could also feel his heart beating extremely fast, but blamed it on him being mad.

“Virgil why are you so stubborn? I’m trying to defend myself.”

“Yeah yeah yeah whatever you weren’t sober and weren’t in a good place mentally so instead of talking about it or asking for support, you went to the bar, hooked up with someone, and thought you could get away with it.”

“I-Virgil I love you though…”

“Do you? Huh…thats funny…really funny….I really want to believe that…but I can’t.”

“Im telling the truth you’re just being stubborn!”

“How was I such and idiot that you, out of all people, could ever love me??”

“Virgil! I do love you!! You’re just being….ridiculous!”

“Mhm. Telling me that is going to make this situation better Janus.” Virgil started very quietly gasping for air. He couldn’t breathe anymore…..

“Virgil i’m sorry, alright?! I am. I swear I am…but please calm down. I get you’re mad and you have every right to be. But please. Calm down.”

“You don’t tell me to calm down!!!” He screamed. He actually screamed….was..he going crazy? Nononono he can’t …everyone will hate him..more than they already do and they’ll all leave him and he won’t have any friends…he can’t go crazy….he can’t. Janus was taken back. Virgil…never raises his voice. He jumped slightly when Virgil collapsed onto the wall. Janus moved to catch him and sat both of them down. Virgil moved away from Janus.

“Virgil name five things you see.”

“All i’m seeing is your bullshit lies! Thats hearing but whatever!! I don’t care!! Everything you say is bullshit!!”

“Virgil. Please name five things you see.”

“Why? Im fine!! Just fucking fine!!”

“No you aren’t. Please name five things you see…please.”

Virgil rolled his eyes. “You, the floor, the wall, the kitchen, stairs.”

“Good, thank you. Name four things you hear?”

“Air conditioner, you, cars….breathing.”

“Thanksss. Three things you feel?”

“…Hoodie…” He shook his head, not being able to feel anything.

“Good job. Two things you smell?”

“Mint….I- uh…don’t k-know….”

“Thats alright. One thing you taste?”

“Blood….”

“Thank you Virgil. Breathe in for four seconds, seven seconds, and exhale for eight seconds.” Virgil followed Janus’ instructions a few times.

“Im sorry….” Virgil said after a few minutes. He sat down against that wall. Janus sat next to him.

“Why? You have nothing to be sorry for.”

“I lashed out and became emotional and wasn’t listening to you or your reasoning…”

“Virgil. How you reacted, was very valid and honestly, I probably would’ve reacted the same way if I were in your shoes.”

Virgil didn’t say anything. He was confused more than anything. He knows that when someone is intoxicated, they aren’t thinking properly…but yet he still feels…upset? Is that even what he’s feeling? He wasn’t sure. Feelings are confusing.

“Virgil? Are…you alright?”

Was he even mad at Janus? Should he be mad? Is Janus mad at Virgil?

Virgil nodded slightly. He kind of just wanted to forget this ever happened, but he knew that that was unrealistic.

“I’m sorry i’m not enough for you…”

“Virgil, you are. You are more than enough. You are sweet, caring, trustful, smart, beautiful, and so much more. Virgil I swear to any higher power person, or supernatural being, that you are enough.”

Virgil was silently crying. Was anything that Janus was saying true? People are the most truthful when they’re drunk…but they also don’t have any sense of morality.

Janus saw that Virgil was curled into himself, silently crying. “Is touch alright?” Virgil nodded slightly. Janus scooted next to Virgil and rubbed his back. Virgil scooted closer to Janus and eventually Janus pulled Virgil on his lap. “You okay with this?” Virgil nodded and leaned into Janus.

Virgil kept repeating an apology. He wasn’t even sure why he was crying. “I’m sorry for being dramatic and dumb and annoying-” He kept listing off things he thought he was for a minute or so. “I’m sorry……you deserve so much better….i’m sorry…”

“Virgil. You’re totally all of those things. You are enough, in fact, you’re more than enough. You did nothing wrong and therefore have no reason to apologize. You always have been enough and you forever will be.” Virgil moved so that he could hug Janus and Janus rubbed his back. They both wanted to start over or at least be friends but weren’t sure if the other wanted that.

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@yawniguess

Pairings: Dukexiety

Prompt: "You're talking too much, just shut up and hold me." from grumpy affectionate starters

A/n: I did 13...hope thats ok.... also its like...an au ig?

Tw: none i think?

Virgil just came to his house from work. Why are there so many fricken Karens? He was in a pretty mad mood and decided on watching Buzzfeed Unsolved when Remus walked in. More like he, somehow, crashed in through the roof.

"Hey Emo, watcha watchin~?"

"Buzzfeed unsolved."

"Whoa wait whats wrong?"

"Oh I don't know, my boyfriend just fell through my roof and probably injured himself and now i'll have to fix the roof."

"Why fix it if ya know imma fall through it again?"

"Wow...the world must be ending if you're being logical..." He said in a teasing manner, his mood getting somewhat better.

Remus scoffed. "Excuse you I am very logical. I helped that one kid with intrusive thoughts and-" Remus continued rambling.

"You're talking too much, just shut up and hold me."

Remus smirked and sat down on the bed. Virgil snuggled into Remus as they watched random shows.

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@autumnpleaves

Pairings: Intrulogical

Prompt: "Listen, I enjoy this hug and all, but can you stop?" from grumpy affectionate starters

A/n:

Tw: cursing,

Logan was incredibly touched starved and he knew that, but work is more important. He will ask for a hug or cuddles later. Or never, who knows? A few boring minutes later, Remus kicked Logans door down. "Hey Pocket Protector~"

Logan sighed. "Do you need anything?"

"Huh? Oh um.......oh yeah I want a hug...and I know you're a touched starved bitch."

Logan sighed again. He needed to get this done since it was due in a few weeks, but he also really needed a hug. While he was contemplating, Remus ran to him and hugged him.

"Remus what the f-"

"Well you were taking too long and I got impatient and needed a hug so I hugged you and I miss you cause I haven't seen you for a few days and-" He rambled, continuing to say random stuff, moving from topic to topic.

"Listen, I enjoy this hug and all, but can you stop?"

"Oh yeah..."

They watched disney. Well, Logan pointed out all the inconsistencies while Remus told Logan all the gruesome facts about it.

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Pairings: Demus/Dukeceit

Prompt: “I crave your affection, but I crave your silence even more– shut up.” from grumpy affectionate starters

A/n: this was fun to write

Tw: none i think?

Remus and Janus were in the living room watching Lilo and Stitch. Janus was trying to watch and listen but Remus was rambling on about god knows what. Janus put his face in his hands, getting a headache.

"Remus, please be quiet."

"Nah im good." Remus continued talking about the dark humor in disney movies.

Janus sighed and made Remus' hand fly up to his mouth to try and shut him up. Somehow, someway, Remus continued to talk, but it was muffled. Janus returned to watching the movie until Remus started screaming. Janus jumped and looked over at Remus.

"Are you okay..?"

He made some muffled sound that sounded like "Im fine"

"Will you be quiet if I let your hand go?"

Remus nodded and Janus released his hand. Remus was quiet for a few seconds before talking about some odd thing.

"Remus. I crave your affection, but I crave your silence more- shut up."

Remus looked at Janus before smirking and tackling Janus and cuddling into him.

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@loganis-sherlock

Pairings: Analogical

Prompt: "Yeah, yeah. You're cute. Just stop smiling at me like that." from grumpy affectionate starters

A/n: its like...a college au ig?

Tw: uh....fluff?

Logan and Virgil were sitting on the roof, looking at the stars. They both loved space. Virgil because it was relaxing from the stress of college. Logan liked it since astrology was pretty interesting and really pretty....just like Virgil....mysterious, can be scary, and beautiful.

Logan looked at Virgil. He had his signature purple patch hoodie, his black eyeshadow under his eyes. He also had one purple-ish eye, and one emerald-ish green eye, and freckles that Logan knew Virgil hid with makeup. He smiled as he remembered Virgil saying that freckles ruined his 'spookiness'.

"Uh....any particular reason why you're staring at me?"

Logan broke out of his thoughts. "Do I need a reason to appreciate my boyfriend?"

"Yeah, yeah. You're cute. Just stop smiling at me like that."

Logans smile grew a little bit bigger and he moved closer to Virgil and wrapped an arm around Virgils shoulders.

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@starlocked01

Pairings: Loceit, background royality and dukexiety

Prompt: "Ew get away from me. No- not you. You stay." from grumpy affectionate starters

A/n: um...yeah...hope you like it...I cant write Remus very well wjdhdjdjd sorry about that

Tw: um....sad janus ig? caps

Janus was in his room, hugging a pillow. He wanted cuddles but everyone was probably busy. He knew for a fact that Roman and Patton were out on a date, or something. Virgil and Remus were in their room, watching Steven King movies. Janus didn't really care for the movies, liking the books more.

Logan was probably busy learning or researching and Janus didn't want to bug Logan, despite Logan saying that he would always take a break from whatever he was doing, to cuddle Janus. He paused Tangled and walked to Logans room, knocking on his door.

"Who is it?"

"Janus..."

Logan got up from his desk and opened the door.

"Hello Janus. Do you require anything?"

" I /don't/ want cuddles...."

Logan smiled a bit and moved aside so Janus could walk in. He did and hugged Logan when he was in the room.

Logan chuckled and led Janus to his bed, grabbing the t.v remote as he did. He laid down, and Janus cuddled into Logan.

"What would you like to watch, love?"

"Wreck It Ralph?"

Logan nodded and turned it on.

Remus saw them cuddling. "AWWWWWWWW NERDY WOLVERINE CUDDLES AWWWWWW!" He ran to Logans bed and belly flopped on Janus.

"Ew get away from me." He pushed Remus off of him, as Logan started getting off the bed. "No- not you. You stay." He said, grabbing Logans hand. Logan laughed and laid down next to Janus, which Janus cuddled into Logan, almost immediately.

"PDA IS NOT OK PDA IS NOT OK PDA IS NOT OK-" Remus chanted as he left the room.

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Time to panic

Roman couldn’t think of any new video ideas for Thomas and the voices wouldn’t shut up. They kept telling him how stupid, pathetic and worthless he was. He was creativity for goodness sake. Why couldn’t he think of anything good? Nothing he came up with was good enough. 

Currently he was curled up in a ball, sitting on the bathroom tile, crying and shaking. He felt like he was slowly losing his mind and that he was going to die. He couldn’t catch a good breath or slow down his heart rate if his life depended on it. He could hear someone yelling his name but he couldn’t tell who and he didn’t want to respond cause what if its a trap? 

After a few minutes there was a knock at his bathroom door. He jumped at the sudden noise and slowly moved away from the door. “Roman? I have been told that you are needed by the others.” Roman whimpered but didn’t say anything. “Brother? Are you alright in there?”

Silence. Remus sighed and knocked down the door, causing Roman’s attack to worsen. “Oh fuck, Roman are you good?” Roman shook his head. “Can I sit next to you?” Roman nodded. “It will be alright brother. Umm shit what did Logan say about panic attacks? Shit!” Remus thought about it for a few seconds before remembering. “Breath in for four seconds. Then hold it for seven seconds. Then let it out for eight seconds.” Roman tried and failed a few times but eventually was able to do the exercise all the way through without messing up. 

“C-can I....have a hug?” Roman asks despite knowing that Remus probably hasn’t taken a shower for a few months now. Remus nodded and gave Roman a hug. Roman hugged back after a few seconds.Remus whispered “Its going to be okay.” Roman nodded and thanked Remus. “You feeling any better?” Remus asked. “Yeah. Thanks again Remus.” Roman responded. 

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