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03/11/2024 - beard growth on chin and jaw, deeper voice, stomach hair, happy trail, inner thigh hair, thicker eyebrow hair

(I forgot about this I'm sorry)

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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Hi I thought I would mark all the times where I have been gendered correctly (by ppl who don't know I'm trans) + date + month of being on HRT;

1. Oct. 18th 2024 - 5 months and 3 weeks on HRT: lady at grocery store said "I'm gonna let these two young men go before me" *referring to me and my friend*

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06/07/2024 - more upper lip hair, voice deepening, ASS HAIR GROWING (everyone clap)

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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27/06/2024 - upper lip hair growing, voice starting to deepen, sometimes voice cracks

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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19/06/2024 - ALOT more body hair, growing bottom growth, first voice cracks

Happy Pride <3

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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How the My Little Pony Fandom ruined my mental health (long rant(/essay?))

TW: sexual themes, gore, trauma, self harm, suicidality

I will go in-depth in alot of sensitive topics, please proceed with caution

I got into My Little Pony when Season 2 aired. In 2011, I was 7 at the time, 2nd grade. English isn't my first language, I didn't even know other languages were a thing. That is until I got access to the internet. We had a family computer that I used basically daily. I mostly drew on MSPaint and played Animal Jam. I was a happy little girl at the time. Eventually, I discovered YouTube. Which became my new obsession. I consumed content like an addict. And eventually, I stumbled upon My Little Pony, where people uploaded whole episodes. The first episode I watched was "Fall Weather Friends", S1 E13. I was hooked instantly. Bright colorful Ponies! It reminded me of the Fillys I collected. So I consumed more. Was able to find a playlist with all episodes in order. The only thing is, they were in English, which I didn't understand. But I didn't care. I wanted my magical colorful ponies! So I watched it and had an overwhelmingly fun time. It was "Bridle Gossip" S1 E9 where the language just...clicked for me. I can't explain it, but it felt like I suddenly could understand almost every word and my English knowledge expanded from there. Which was a yay for me, because now I could watch my colorful Pony cartoon and actually understand what they were saying. It gave me a big heads up when we started learning English a year later in 3rd grade. I never learned English in that class, knowledge wise I already knew what I needed and was very far ahead of everyone. All thanks to My Little Pony.

But I think it is also the start of when everything went downhill for me.

I explicitly remember holding paper in front of the screen to trace the Mane 6's outfits from the episode "Suited for Success" S1 E14 with a pencil. The show made me really get into art. I drew My Little Pony left and right, and it eventually led me to DeviantArt, which I still have fond memories of. I found out that people made original characters. So I did so too. One of my first ever character was "Starshine" which I still love dearly and sketch when I'm bored. But this also led me down the Brony Fandom rabbit hole. Once I realized people made their own My Little Pony content it was over. I literally obsessed over fan content. I consumed everything that the Fandom could offer. And when I mean everything, I mean Everything.

I don't know what the first gore or nsfw content I consumed, I really do not remember. But it was ultimately this content that shaped me or....better say traumatized me that still affects me to this day.

Just like many people in the Fandom, I found out what "Cupcakes" is. A creepy, gore fanfiction that was about Pinkie Pie dismembering Rainbow Dash and turning her into Cupcakes. One of the many fan content I consumed but I remember this being one of the first experiences I had with gore. I watched the original video from ocarinaplaya. I was, I had no idea what gore was. But it was MLP, so I watched it. And this was the first straw that altered my brain. It was like a car crash, i couldn't look away. The way Pinkie tortured and cut up Rainbow Dash. And I consumed more. Smile HD, Cupcakes SFM, My Little Paradox, Pony.MOV, Lil Miss Rarity, My Little Amnesia, Elements of Insanity (that I still unironically love to this day), and so much more. You name it, I watched it. Things like Elements of Insanity and Cupcakes SFM all led me down the SFM rabbit hole. SFM = Source Filmmaker. When I see SFM models of the MLP characters now, I swear I get flashbacks. Because through SFM I found sensual MLP content. Of course, not all of SFM was sexual or gore. Some masterpieces like Doors, Fluttershys Dream, The Walk, Remembrance, Nightmare Night, all are so good.

But of course with SFM came very...sensual MLP content. Ponies kissing or Making out or even going as far as almost having sex. And something changed in my brain. I started to...actively search out these videos. Rarijack, TwiDash - Hearts and Hooves Day, Appledash, those freaking Fart and Vore videos. I watched it all. I don't know what I felt at the time, I don't remember or more so I don't want to remember. All I know is that I started to seek them out. Like actively searching for it. Which also led me to non sfm sensual content. Twilight Sparkle Pantsu, Friendship is Benefits, Concerning Pegasi, Fluttershy gets BEEPBEEPED in the Maze and infamous Banned from Equestria.

Remember I was a child. 9-10 at the time. And 99% of these videos didn't have any warnings. Nothing. And even if they had a warning 80% of those were joke warnings.

I consumed alot of My Little Pony porn and gore in my childhood. Unrestricted Internet access traumatized me to no end.

It was Banned from Equestria which had changed a lot for me. Because I found out that it was a game. An actual game you could play. And I sought it out. I played a lot of Pony games too, especially the ones on the very old Hasbro website. But Banned from Equestria was almost too easy to find. I found it on a website mainly for bad porn games. And it had a category that was purely for My Little Pony. I just went to search for it. I only needed to type "mlp porn games" and it was instantly there. 2 clicks is all that it took. Yes, the website is still up sadly. That website led me down another awful rabbit hole of My Little Pony porn games. Again, I was 10, I had no idea what porn was. Or sex. But it was this (and a separate event that happened in my family) that taught me what it was. And again, I searched for those things actively. And played those games religiously. By 10 years old I was a freaking porn addict. Not even gore (which I developed PTSD from), but Porn was the thing that caught my attention. I also learned what masturbation was thanks to that. And I did just that. I masturbated almost on the daily. Found my Mom's toys, stole them, and used them. Now, masturbation isn't a bad thing by any means. It's good to explore your body and what makes you feel good but I was just an innocent kid...

My parents never found out. My Mom eventually caught on I stole her toys but never did anything against it. Nor did she educate me. She let me do my thing. So I basically masturbated daily, sometimes more than once. What being horny was, was something I didn't even know. I only knew I wanted to do this because is saw my colorful ponies do it.

But these porn games made me spiral. I lost so much of my childhood innocence through this. I spend most of my childhood and early teen years (I started puberty when I was 9) by watching porn, playing porn, and the occasional gore. It has twisted what sex even was for me. The whole concept was ruined for me. To this day.

Throughout the next years, I learned more about porn, and went through many different rabbit holes. My Little Pony Porn, actual porn, Furry Porn, it didn't matter. If it was Porn, I consumed it.

I would also blame this addiction was the reason I became/am hypersexual.

And now, over 10 years later, what changed?

Nothing. I have grown so disgusted by Sex, it's why I'm AroAceflux now. I know. Hypersexuality and AroAce? Pick a struggle. But I'm serious. I consume a lot of Porn to this day. Masturbation had died down but it still happens occasionally. The people I follow on Patreon mainly do nsfw content. Hell, I was on Nsfw-twt a few years ago too.

Porn has ruined my whole mental state. It's scientifically proven that subjecting children to porn and gore at an early age can severely damage their development and I think I'm no exception.

My mental health has been very bad since 2016. I started to cut myself frequently and get suicidal. I still carry scars to this day and I do blame a lot on this addiction. I've been self-harm clean for about 3 years now. I was severely suicidal again in 2021 where I almost killed myself has it not been a friend calling the cops i still struggle with being suicidal to this day though, despite having finished therapy.

I also struggled with a lot of identity stuff at the time. I have it figured out now and am openly out as a trans man by a lot of people in my life. And I have an amazing support system now. But I never really had the opportunity to talk about THIS. How the My Little Pony Fandom ruined my mental health due to the content that was created, without any content warnings. I say I also developed my PTSD from this.

Obviously not just that, it was a lot of trauma family and school-wise wise that made me develop PTSD but I also will blame these types of MLP content for this as well.

Now, I love the Brony fandom. I still do. So many people I have met who are in this Fandom are so incredibly nice, but the awful stuff just stands out even more. This was an innocent kids show about colorful ponies and the magic of friendship. Many children with unrestricted internet access watched it. And watched this type of content. The Fandom should have been a lot more critical about the type of content that they post

I know I'm not the only person that was subjected to gore and porn. Many children from 2010-2017 were traumatized by this type of content. And I wouldn't be surprised if many also developed mental disorders because of it, whether it be Depression, PTSD, Hypersexuality, etc. Many of the young fans are scarred

And we still are

And we are still trying to heal as young adults

Hell, I'm turning 20 very soon, and I still struggle so hard with my mental health and the scars I got in my early childhood and early teen years.

I should've spend those years so much differently

But I didn't and know I'm left to pick up the pieces.

I hope this shines some light on the cruel side of the Brony community, I recommend Raymundo2112's video "The SINS of Bronies", it goes also in-depth about the psychological effects of children being subjected to porn and gore

Please be careful what children consume on the internet.

Now

I apologize for this length, I just wanted to talk about it

I'm open to any questions that may come up, and I'm sorry for my irl people who see this

Thank you for reading, it means alot

[nova--michael]

29/05/2024 - body hair growing. Especially chest area, first small thin "beard" hairs on upper lip

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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I hate how T is making me so incredibly horny

I don't want ittttt

All I can do is lay in bed, my whole body hot, crotch itching and I'm SWEATING

please end my suffering

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Idk if this is normal when you are on T

But my sleep and cravings for food have completely gone downhill

I've been sleeping awfully, can't fall asleep at all most days

And I barely have any appetite

T is supposed to be the opposite, enhancing my sleep and have me crave food more

But so far I've only noticed the opposite and idk if its normal

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Bottom growth is so wierd

My clit is growing into a mini-dick-

Luckily all I feel is a bit of sensitivity but when I see it (and feel it) i'm like "....are you growing...?"

The answer is yes

I know bottom growth can happen very early into HRT but damn

That it's the first change I notice, is silly.

Bottom growth is silly

10/10

[nova--michael]

Hello peeps, your favorite boy Michael here

I started HRT a few days ago and thought I could sorta document my progress and changes

I will update this (maybe reblog it, idk) when I notice something new

24/04/2024 - Start HRT

28/04/2024 - Sensitivity in my genital area (bottom growth?), sweating more, hORNY

30/04/2024 - horny x10, bottom growth getting more prominent, sweating

03/05/2024 - bottom growth growing, sweating

07/05/2024 - pimples breaking out (never used to have them)

12/05/2024 - hair growth on arms and legs

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Hello, I now officially like Good Omens

WE ARE ON OUR SIDE

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The fact that Aziracrow is in the corner makes my heart bleed

My favorite show and my boyfriends favorite show, I'm hurting

Noticing a pattern this year...

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♡

SO PUMPED FOR NEXT WEEK GUYS IM SEEING THE SILLY GOOFBALL AFTER DECADES (only 3 years)

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ADHD partner x Autism partner is the best couple dynamic

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I came out as trans to my parents recently and I decided to make a list of all the things they have done so far that made me happy. Will continue to update

Told me that they accept who I am

Me and my Mom talking about binders and her suggesting I buy another bc I only have 2 and one is pretty old

My Mom telling me that we'll sort out my closet soon to get rid of all the feminine clothes I still have

My Dad gendering me correctly for the first time today ("no, my beard scratched his face")

Accepting that im gonna start transitioning for real soon

Accepting all my trans friends and not asking about what gender they were born as and/or for deadname anymore

My Mom asking if she can talk with her good friend about it since she also needs someone to talk about this stuff (I gave consent to that, bc I get it)

My Dad asking for a copy of my coming out letter

My Mom not pronouncing "binder" correctly (she is making an effort, we stan)

My parents giving me pants that my Dad bought for himself but gave to me bc it fit me better (boy pants!!)

My parents wanting to be an active part in my transition

My Mom wanting to write my name onto my Apple juice carton at work (chose against it in case my coworker question it)

My Mom putting my Name (Michael) on the New calender she bought

My Mom asking for sites that sell binders and asked me more about them

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𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐔𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

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The Kamisato family is regarded as a high status symbol within Inazuma and Inazuma city. Even so, every little detail must be perfect for the house of cards , and their reputation will crumble. So even the Yashiro Commissioner must be extra careful about you, too.

-->KAMISATO AYATO X MALE READER<--

Ayato contracts a stranger from a local red-light district to help him in certain times of need. Even to the point he could risk his reputation.

Chapter logs:

#1 : Ever so perfect

#2: Pleasure over Power

Next chapters every week or so!

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