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"i will be ok and soon you'll fade into the nothing that you are, the nothing you are."

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the big move 23/12/2022

i'm scared and i'm sad. i'm scared i might be leaving the best things that ever happened to me behind.

i wanna be able to share my life with my friends and marc, and live happily ever after.

i'm scared i might be shooting myself in the foot. i'm scared i might not be as successful as i want to be. i'm scared i'm making the wrong choice.

prioritizing something i've wanted in the past but that maybe right now doesn't suit my needs.

i hope i can finally be happy. but happiness seems so far away when you're pulled apart from your friends and boyfriend.

boyfriend! feels good to say that.

something i never thought would occur to me in this country.

but i'm so grateful.

oh! for him i'm so grateful...

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Mia’s outfits in “The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement” [ 2004 ]

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2004 was one for the books

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8 years later and it’s always been you.

It’s always been you, dammit!

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This is a love song for a girl who will never know it’s about her I know it’s pretty stupid but I’m much too shy to tell her She’s beaming that smile, all the while

Looking out for you

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2021 resolutions

- being able to move to **** or ***** by the end of the year/beginning of 2022

- making more money than i did last year

- making more music that i actually like and enjoy

- get my numbers up on my main social platforms

- going to therapy and start healing

i feel like i’m back to my 2016 self (not necessarily a good thing)

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Apparently I was more mature 3 yrs ago than i am now.

2019 resolutions

☆I’m making a point to leave classism aside.

☆I’m making it a point to understand that i am no better than anybody and that all of us are the same.

☆I am making it a point to treat everyone (who deserves it) with kindness

☆I’m making it a point also to pursue wholeheartedly my passions

☆I am also making a point to stop stressing about time passing and age. Wouldn’t like to look back on my life and only see stress.

☆I am making it a point to be genuine. To myself and others. Not lying to myself nor others, just honesty.

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The San Fernando Valley in film 

Back To The Future (1985) - 535 N. Victory Blvd, Burbank 

The Karate Kid (1984) - 19223 Saticoy St. Reseda 

American Beauty (1999) - 20105 Saticoy St. Winnetka “Mr. Smiley’s” 

The Bad News Bears (1976) - 10500 Mason Ave. Chatsworth

Boogie Nights (1997) - 12036 Ventura Blvd. Studio City

Pulp Fiction (1994) - 20933 Roscoe Blvd. Canoga Park

Superbad (2007) - 1700 Victory Blvd. Glendale

Clueless (1995) - 5600 Vineland Avenue, North Hollywood

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90s black girls

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Brooke Shields, 1980′s

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I realized the thing that brings me the most happiness is freedom. there isn't such thing as complete freedom obviously, but i'm going to dedicate all my efforts to secure that i'll be able to be as free as posible in the future. Freedom to me means being able to travel and move whenever and wherever i want. it also means being able to travel back to see my mom whenever i miss her. i also want to take financial responsibility over her without worries and being able to live comfortably. maybe also going to grad school w/o financial/funding worries.

Which basically means: money and work related freedom. I guess that's what 2019 will be all about.

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Fave Ariana outfits

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my favourite of ariana’s candid + performance outfits of 2013

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