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tbh, my work is slowly getting better (I guessed?) coz I have some help to sort my samples. I don't know if I ever wrote about my current life. so basically, I continue my life by taking a new role as student again. in this time I already living this new step for almost 4 years.

well, my recent post here are mostly talking or posting about the current condition. that's the update.

so, ups and own...since I feel like the life is getting ok, it is happened after I going through the acceptence of whatever I have in this life. I learn that life is not always about happiness isnt it? so, all the way I do to romanticize my life is part of the effort to feel alive again.

again, hahahaha...I guessed everyone has this part of their life isnt it? there are times that people feel like not alive but, life is till goin on. for example, writing about something in this platform is also one of my way to discharge the madness in my mind.

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kepengen juga punya excitement kek gini tiap harinya

my therapist asked me yesterday how many days i actually took off after my exam and i had the astonishing realization that i didn't! take any time off! i've been coffee-shopping it and jumping right into primary exam prep and my research and while that has been so much fun and i am so excited about it i do also. need a break. actually. taking the rest of this in-between semester time to chill out and relax and take a much-needed breather, starting today with 6am pilates and a very sunlit coffee date followed by brunch plans with some friends who are back in town for the summer—

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The beauty of having the earthy feel when you study.

@briechyne on Instagram

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Laziness Does Not Exist Devon Price

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when I have to study, I want to clean up my apartment. when I have to clean up my apartment, I want to study. Cursed existence

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dear myself, i know you are feeling insecure. i know, deep down you are sad because you feel like you did'n't do your best.

but, that's how life going right?

they said, if life is easy you won't be asking to the god for your pray.

ustad said, life is just for a while, that's why we don't need to run over it?

bagaikan hidup dalam satu bulan, ada masa keuangan is fine until when the money is running out...

i should be thankful, coz when i was poor my life style at least getting healthier coz i won't buy any fancy coffee. so that the sugar level should be lower.

well bahkan imam bukhari pun pernah depresi, oleh sebab tiu akhirnya muncul hadits dari Anas bin Malik, Rasulullah ﷺ bersabda:Janganlah salah seorang di antara kalian berangan-angan untuk mati karena musibah yang menimpanya. Kalau memang harus berangan-angan, hendaknya dia mengatakan, “Ya Allah, hidupkanlah aku jika kehidupan itu baik untukku. Dan matikanlah aku jika kematian itu baik bagiku.”

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I don't remember how many days have passed since the rain kind of doesn't stop. I'm fighting myself to work because it is so hard to move from the bed. It's very cold outside. I see in the social media flood is coming in the area, I hope it won't come here but the I see the reservoir behind my dorm, it is full.

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“If you are not willing to look stupid, nothing great will ever happen to you.” - Unknown

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i forgot where i got this sentence, probably from twitter

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Life didn’t get easier, it got busier, but in the best way possible. -Jordan in Medium

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So, I write this to reduce my overthinking mind about tomorrow's work. I will have another fieldwork tomorrow for around 5 days. I'm kinda worry not because this my work (yeah. this also 555) but I'm afraid that I will forget something about my works. I really hope everything will go smoothly as my plan.

This is gonna be my last chance because this month is last time of rainy season in the Andaman Sea. I will have the same works in the next season (summer). After that, the works will continue in the laboratory and writing.

I'm begging to myself to be not procrastinated of everything because the time of my scholarship is running out. Please, myself, keep working, don't be lazy, don't listen to your own mind (overthinking and over feeling are so sucks) because those words are wrong. I am in the good way, still in the plan, hang on, you are in the right track. Keep fighting, enjoy every work, moment and obstacle.

You will be there, in your success time and moments.

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i think about this very often to but to be alive is such a privilege. you can smell flowers, eat freshly baked cookies, lose yourself in the pages of a new book, listen to heartwarming music and read soul crushing poetry, meet kind and funny people, learn something new. i think the miracle is in waking up every day

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I like to find my excitement again to live my life

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I really try to let over my mind about everything bad that my brain said to me. I know it's all lied, even sometimes I was kinda believe it. But, yeah..not easy. Every time I interacted with human 55555, there's always something bad saying about them.

Well, it's a time life that I have to hang on. Because if not, that's mean my time is over. So yeah, at least I try to live my life.

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of course everything is falling apart, your new life will cost you your old one