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Que frase lindinha que colocou na sua bio 🥺

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obrigadaa 🥲 tô tentando deixar meu perfil bonitinho mas n fica do jeito que eu quero KKKKKK

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oisss 🤓

ueee você não recebeu minha última mensagem? 🤔 nossa mas eu jurava que tinha respondido a última ask 😫 (será que estou enlouquecendo)

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OIII eu recebi sim KKKKKK tá guardadinha no meu inbox! mas eu não sabia como continuar o assunto, por isso não falei nada

como você tá hoje?? fez o que de bom

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cadê minha 🪐?? como você tá hoje??

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you should make a discord 🫣🫣

i have one, anon.. the thing is: i'm not sure if i should go back to it.. 😣

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HAHAH a gente percebe que já não tá bem quando sai do inglês e tá tudo bem 🤣

Mas sim, continue com esse pensamento, toda vez que tiver vontade de desistir, olha pra trás e veja o quando já caminhou, você já foi tão longe de desde quando começou! Claro que pode ter muito ainda pela frente, mas um pouco cada dia você vai chegando cada vez mais perto da conquista!

Feliz em saber que estou te deixando um pouquinho feliz por aqui <3 se pudesse, segunda eu iria segurando sua mão até o ensaio e não deixaria você esquecer de respirar! Vai dar tudo certo.

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"a gente percebe que não tá bem quando sai do inglês e tá tudo bem" KKKKKKKK

nossa, eh incrível como pessoas como ti a gente só encontra virtualmente, não é?

mesmo não fazendo ideia de quem eu sou, vc tira um tempo p escrever isso pra mim. e significa muito, muito mesmo. obrigada, meu bem. saber que tem alguém por aí como apoio já muda mta coisa (contraria as coisas que minha mente me fala, me sinto um pouco menos doida ahahahah)

esperando o universo me fazer um favor e mandar uma pessoinha assim na vida real ☝🏻☝🏻</3

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OMG i'm rooting for you, girl!!! I know here in Brazil is kind difficult to make wishes come true but I'm truly hopping for you! If it's a things you want go for it!! I know there are many good realizations waiting for you in the future!

(HAHAH eu não sou sempre assim lerda, me perdoa 😭)

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obrigada, meu amor 🥲🥲

sinceramente só esse ano pensei um trilhão de vezes em desistir, mas de verdade, não é todo dia que a gente encontra pessoas com tanta força de vontade. seria mta crueldade com a 'eu' do passado, então eu vou tentar fazer isso dar certo, dentro do possível KKKK

enfim. saindo completamente do assunto. é perceptível q resolvi só falar em português mesmo hahah falar com vc tá me deixando felizinha. num momento todo fudido igual esse aqui, mto obrigada <3

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omg theatre??? Tell me more about that!!!! Do you act?

(HAHAH flirting with me?? I'm so dumb 😅 I would never have a clue on that... but well, even I'm this slow you can continue flirting, I wouldn't mind)

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i do! i'm not in anything official yet. for now, it's just a hobby, since i have other priorities, but i'd be lying if i said i don't want to grow in that area. as soon as i have everything in my life settled (which will take ages) i'll work in my artist persona. :,)

[essa parte eu não vou conseguir falar em inglês HAHAHA mas eh isso, meu bem 🤭 tava estranhando vc não ter percebido]

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Ughhh pleaseee tell me 😭 I can keep a secret...

wow a tattoo?? That's cool! I wanna see it if you really make it later!

How were classes?

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hi hi, 🪐!!

classes were pretty boring. most of the people are not coming since we're near vacation. so i didn't do much. i'm mostly working on my theatre stuff since i have a scene to rehearsal monday 🥹

[about the pronouns thing. i wasn't planning on being direct, but since i have to — i was just trying to flirt with you 😶‍🌫️ glad you're a woman. but i don't know if you're taken. got it? hihihi]

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the urge to write everything that's on my mind and post but no one would see (nor care) 😶‍🌫️ how good would it be to have someone care about you 🤭

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𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐢 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞

summary — ‧₊˚ a truth and a choice.

word count — ‧₊˚ 0.2k

authors note — ‧₊˚ yes, i knew i said that i won’t be writing for some time. i’ll probably be posting short-form proses instead depending on the mood.

I hope you know that I truly did love you.

My love was never pretend, and every ‘I love you’ said was real.

I tried to show you how much you meant to me. I gave everything I had, hoping to change the outcome. I wanted to be the perfect partner for you. I tried to be as truthful as possible, but I hid the one truth I knew would break your heart.

You were like fine porcelain to me — meant to be admired but never touched.

The way we talked about our dreams, how our day went, and even our likes and dislikes. The memories hold a special place in my heart, for those conversations made me fall even harder for you.

Our time may have been short, but I cherished all the moments spent together.

I wish I was different. I wish the situation was different. 

Maybe we could’ve been together in another life.

But alas, the world is cruel, and I’m bound by ties stronger than our love.

I’m sorry for not choosing you. I’m sorry for not giving you the love you deserve.

I’ll always regret the choice I made. I could say a million apologies, but nothing will ever change.

I love you, and I hope you know that you mean so much to me, my love.

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Little secret??? Noooo I wanna know!!! This so unfair 😔

Yeah, I know what you mean... I relate most to Wanda, she's def part of my life. Its kind funny and weird how fictional characters have such a big influence in our lives right?! I'm ngl they mean more than some real people haha

Good luck in your classes tho!

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i'd certainly tell you, but i'm not sure if i can.. 🫣😣

i love Wanda, she's also a very important character for me. but Nat's always gonna be my number one! i even plan on soon making a tattoo for her hahaha

and absolutely, some characters have more impact on our lives than real people. i can say that from experience 🤭

and thank you so much, dearest. i'll certainly need it for my entrance exams :,)

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Why are you I'm she/her? Hahah

I understand your obsession with Nat! I do like marvel, maybe more when they had good stuff, but here I most consume Wanda/nat/loki content...

Your vacation you mean?

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can't tell why i'm glad you use she/her, it's my little secret... 🫢🤫

i'm not only 'obsessed' w Nat. she's really special to me, not only because i relate to her in many ways but also because she came into my life when i was at my lowest, and she and Scarlett saved me in every way possible.

yeah, my vacation's finally coming in a few days! gonna have time to organize my stuff 😭 i'm only answering you because i'm in my lunch break right now, but it will soon be over bahahah

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I hate how life keep making me busy instead of letting me read fics all day haha

Well, my pronouns are she/her. I already told you a little what I do on tumblr. I'm such a nerd that breathe marvel and Star Wars content 😔

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okay, then! i'm glad you're a she/her (🫣🫣)

i'm not really into star wars or marvel (surprisingly). i do write for almost all marvel's characters, but my love is reserved to Natasha only, it has always been like that.

my recess is coming soon (thankfully) and i'll have more time to spend here, drowning in fanfiction 24/7 😶‍🌫️

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— ₊˚⊹ 𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐬

— ₊⊹ 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 . Natasha Romanoff x fem! reader

— ₊⊹ 𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚 . she takes her time to explore you closely, as if compensating the time she didn't notice your true needs.

— ₊⊹ 𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 . smut! i am not responsible for your content consumption! — reader being needy, swearing, pet names, making out, oral, strap on, begging, possessive Nat, multiple orgasms. r receives all. soft sex. no real plot.

— ₊⊹ 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔 . just because i'm in need of a very soft Natasha to take care of me. 😣

fic started: june, 23, 2024, 11:55pm. | finished: june, 25, 2024, 11:42pm.

dividers belong to: @/anitalenia and @/rookthornesartistry ₊⊹

you weren't sleeping. your eyelids were shut, but she could tell you weren't asleep. she felt your heavy breathing, and how changed depending on her actions. under the covers, the only thing separating you both being the silk sleepwear you were in. the thin shorts rolled up whenever she shifted, and the skin to skin contact coaxed a small whimper out of you. Natasha was used to sleeping only in her lingerie, and the fact you wore babydolls didn't bother her — not at all. she could use it to her advantage. to tease you, when she felt like doing so.

the room became a hundred times hotter as she nuzzled into the crook of your neck, breathing in your scent, emphasized by your body lotions. her palm slides under your top, pressing flat against your stomach, counting the exact amount of times you inhaled and exhaled. rapidly.

"is there a reason why you're still awake, dorogaya?" she purrs into your ear. the groan you let out, as if admitting you got caught, amuses her. you turn around in the embrace, so now you're both face to face. "no no no. let me rephrase. is there a reason why you're still awake, and letting me touch you like this?"

you sigh, hand moving up to cup her cheek. she leans against your palm, but keeps the questioning, almost teasing look up. you decide to stay silent, for a while. the reason was almost.. silly, in your point of view. but Natasha knew you. more than you knew, in more ways than you could imagine. so she took note of your response and continued with her test.

she pulls you closer, and her hand moves from your stomach to your waist, giving it a light squeeze. her fingertips are delicate against your skin. you sigh quietly, grabbing a strand of her red hair and begining to twirl it on your fingers. "i miss you."

"you miss me?" she inquires softly, eyeing you up and down. she had imagined it was something to do with that, but not that you'd stay awake at night missing her without reaching out for her.

"i mean.." you clear your throat, not knowing how to put your thoughts, desires, into words. "it's not your fault. it's just.."

it was just the fact that you missed being truly seen. taken care of. the last times you and Natasha had sex were extremely rushed, since she had to be awake early in the morning, or for whatever reason. but now that she had taken a break from missions, it could be the perfect chance for you to properly catch up.

"just tell me." the redhead demands. she leans on her ewbol, next to your head, looking down into your eyes. her hair gently falls against your face, and you tuck the locks behind her ears.

"can you.." you sigh. a timid smile tugs on your lips, your voice barely audible. "can you make love to me?

her eyes brighten up, lips parting to say something, but closing afterwards. god, imagining you saying it was something, but hearing you ask for it? her heart melted completely. the woman leans down, face close to yours. she slowly begins to pull the blankets downwards, to the end of the bed. "ask me again, baby."

"Nat," you shakily breathe and glance at her hand, heart beating faster in anticipation. "fuck me, please."

"oh, shit," she mutters to herself. for such a long time, she wanted to properly have her way with you, and the fact you took so long to ask disappointed her somehow. but it wasn't time for that.

she sits up on the bed, both hands grabbing your waist and pulling you onto her lap, so you're straddling her. the sudden action makes you gasp, which turns into a giggle as you see the sparkle in her eyes. your hands grab her shoulders, and you hold onto each other, pressed up, finally, closely. she doesn't want to talk, but makes sure her eyes passes you the message. don't ever hesitate on communicating with me again. your eyes close, enjoying her proximity, the fuzzy feeling her closeness gave you — before she grabbed your chin, and claimed your lips with hers. you almost immediately moan, returning the slow kiss.

seconds go by of your lips just being pressed against one another, so just then her tongue would slip in your mouth and dance with yours. you felt so warm, everything was warm. especially the spot between your legs. her nails graze upon your back, making you shiver and want to get rid of those clothes as soon as possible. as you pull away from the kiss, a small strand of saliva still connects you, and neither of you bother to break it.

"i'll take me time with you," her lips trail kisses down your chin, to your shoulder blade, hands tightening on your torso. "take it as an apology for not giving you what you deserve, malyshka."

"Natasha," you moan, head tilting back. you allow your weight to fall on her, body completely in her grasp, utterly hers — to do as she pleased. "i-i don't blame you.. you don't have to—"

"quietly, now," she husks out, forcing your head to look at her.

she wanted you to know you could openly tell her your desires and fantasies, she needed you to. and in case that possibly happened again — you, hiding yourself — the spy needed to know every little spot that made you moan out her name, all the ways she could make you go crazy for her. make you come so much, just to remind you all she wanted to do was make you feel good, make you satisfied.

"take those pajamas off." the redhead commands gently, tugging on the silk fabric and quickly standing up from the bed.

your breath hitches again, watching her figure leave the mattress. you oblige, pulling the top over your head, and sliding the shorts down your thighs. Natasha walked over to the closet, which was coincidentally by the window. it was late night, so the moonlight shone on her hair — the beautiful red locks falling down her back. that woman, so goddamn gorgeous. your eyes were locked on her figure as she slowly god rid of the wine-red lace underwear that once covered her. she was now nude, and purposefully showing herself to you. what couldn't get better, did — you were almost drooling now. she took the strap you most liked from the dresser's drawer, putting on herself and tightening it on her hips.

"underwear off, too, princess. do i gotta remind ya?" she smirks and walks over to you, winking. when you strip out of it, she kneels down in front of the bed and pats the end of the mattress. "c'mere."

you certainly got wetter with that. crawling over, you sat where she wanted you, feet now touching the floor. she kisses your knee, and thighs, slowly spreading them. her face slowly approached your core, eyeing you intensely.

"god, you're visibly dripping." she moans, placing her hands on your hips to pull you towards her. so, she devours you.

your head tilts back instantly. the walls feel like closing in, all the sounds suddenly dying around you and the only thing you could focus on were the sensations. Natasha's experience never showed more until now — lips slowly, but surely sucking on your clitoris, then her tongue, sliding in between your folds, going deep into you.

"mhm, fuck," your mouth parts, fingers making a makeshift ponytail of her hair to get it out of the way. your body arches forwards, meeting the thrusts of her tongue in and out you. she finds your g-spot, contently humming to herself as you moan louder. "yes, yes, don't— d-don't stop,"

that familiar feeling of a knot building inside your lower stomach starts to wash over you as long as she repeats her motions, but now, it just feels.. more. it has something else to it when the person's determined to do something. doesn't take long before your eyes squeeze hard, a gasp escaping your throat, and Natasha feels your walls clenching around her tongue.

"i'm coming, i'm, i—" you quickly mutters as you come. the russian's mouth opens wider, welcoming in your sweetness. her hands gently grab onto your ribs to contain the spasms going through your body. she smiles.

"good job," she coos, pressing a kiss to your hip and crawling upwards again. she gives you time to enjoy and recover from your first high. but it was only the start.

"feel s'good, Nat," you whimper, eyebrows furrowed as you reach out for her. seeing you like this did something to her. "more."

"you want more, don't you?" she hisses, body hovering yours. her hands grab your hips, shifting your position on the bed so that you're even more in display for her. "that's good, detka. i was just making sure you're wet enough for me to fuck you, like i really want to."

she spreads your legs once more, and without warning, lines the strap towards your entrance and shoves into your pussy with little effort. you gasp loudly, feeling sensitive but deliciously filled, after so long. Natasha takes your legs and throw them over her shoulders, allowing you to feel her deeper and deeper, allowing her own body to press up against yours — hard nipples rubbing against themselves, sweaty skins gliding on each other. she gasps as well, feeling more connected to you than ever. she wondered, how good it would be to actually feel your cunt clench around her. that drove her wild. the silicone material drags up across your walls, just to completely slam in again, hips slapping soundly.

"please, oh, my goodness," you mutter, grabbing onto Natasha's arms tightly, keeping her close. her body rubbed against yours with each thrust, and you both still felt like it wasn't enough. "i fucking love you,"

"i love you so, so much, krasivaya," she huskily manages, breathing rapidly and squeezing your body with all her might. "so beautiful taking all of me."

you're barely aware of what you're doing as your hands caress up her back, shoulders and neck, savouring the feeling of her skin, and the little scars that painted the canvas of her body. the fake cock snugly brushes over and over in you, it gets hard to hold back the moans you let out in Natasha's ear. she pounds into you quickly, surprisingly finding somewhere else which made you cry out.

"oh, please, Nat," you beg, back arching off the bed. your hands slid down her hips, giving her rear a squeeze, encouraging her to go faster. "right there. right fucking there."

"so eager." she hums, continuously hitting where you wanted, before you couldn't take it anymore. your legs shook as another heavenly pleasure consumed you, an almost embarrassing moan coming out of you.

"Natasha~" your head fell back against the pillow, nails scratching her back, cum soaking the length of the toy.

your eyes stayed close for a long while — you weren't even sure how long, just when she started with slow thrusts, that eventually quieted down, and the before you knew, her head was resting right above your heart. weakly, she pulls out of you and sets the toy aside to be cleaned later.

"feeling better, baby?" she murmurs. you smile softly, satisfied. you don't speak yet. she sees your expression of bliss, and that was enough for her. "promise me you wont hide your desires from me anymore?"

you breathlessly sigh, and nod. "i promise,"

she cuddles up against you and brings you to the top of the bed with her, properly laying down on the pillows. the blankets were probably on the other corner of the world right now, but you were both too warm still, so they weren't needed.

"thank you, Nat," you murmur, curling yourself up into her. her hand cradles the back of your head, feeling your messy, tangled hair.

"always, my girl." Natasha gives your lips a final peck, and don't say anything else, nor do.

you both relaxed, but the most important, you felt cared, loved. it was undescribable how glad you were for having that woman in your life, in all aspects.

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I'm totally fine speaking in English!! it's easier to communicate here so it's the main language at my blog too haha

Hmmm what do you wanna know? I use this platform most to read fics but sometimes I try to write..

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i used to read a lot of fics here, specially last year! but i don't read people's fics like i used to anymore, mostly because i'm very busy. nowdays, i just write my ideas and scenarios and post them (and still have a looot to finish!)

anyway!! wanna know your pronouns, anon, so i know how to refer to you. i would like to know about yourself as well, things you like and stuff. but that's optional. 🤭

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no but i’ve learned spanish to speak to my hispanic customers. I also get a lot of brazilian customers, and i’m planning to travel to brasil soon so i want to be able to communicate!

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ohhh, so you want to learn it for work! i see. well, i can certainly help with that, being a brazilian citizen. there we go, anon, tell me what exactly you wanna learn. 😉

[então você quer aprender para o trabalho! entendi. bom, eu com certeza consigo ajudar com isso, sendo uma cidadã brasileira. vamos lá, anon. me diz exatamente o que você quer aprender. 😉]

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okay okay soooo i’ve been trying to learn portuguese and it’s kinda similar to spanish just more vowels lol

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is your first language spanish? i'm pretty familiar with it! i'm not fluent, but i have someone very close to me who's from Argentine, so maybe i can help!

[seu primeiro idioma é espanhol? eu tenho certa familiaridade com ele! não sou fluente, mas uma pessoinha bem próxima a mim é da Argentina, então talvez eu possa ajudar!!]