notallmight

[notallmight]

He's dead now and I really wanna die also.

If u have a crush on a guy and a solid portion of the reason you're into him is because he reminds you of someone you were with during ur Kin lifetime, does that technically make it 'kindating'??

Asking for a friend

[notallmight]

I really wanted to use this blog to post smart things (some real galaxy brain shit yo) but I realize that due to the nature of me as a person this blog has just kinda devolved into me shitposting about how newport reds taste like sand, how I have distinct kin memories of David Shield cheating on his wife with ""me"" (altho I generally take all memories that I uncover with a massive grain of salt lol), and some bullshit half-joke about being a Jungian psychological Kinnie that probs just makes me sound extremely pretentious

[notallmight]

I guess I'm a little bit psychological kin, but like in in a Jungian sense....

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Me when I smoke my boyfriend's newport reds

All Might from My Hero Academia eats sand!

[notallmight]

Me

School is very offensive to dropoutkin

I remember how in my last life, I dropped out of school. So now that I have to go to school it's so OFFENSIVE!!!!!!! like, they have no sympathy for me or my friend because we're dropoutkin.

I try to tell my therapist that, but I'm pretty sure that even though she's nice to my face she doesn't really think I'm a dropoutkin.

But I am????? It's also cultural appropriation if you try and say school is fun, because it's not for dropoutkin!!!!

[notallmight]

If u have a crush on a guy and a solid portion of the reason you're into him is because he reminds you of someone you were with during ur Kin lifetime, does that technically make it 'kindating'??

Asking for a friend

[notallmight]

Y'all kinnies gon' make me fucking KILL myself over here (not rly)

Like I took *physical damage* from having this conversation.

"you can't choose your kins uwu" yeah, you can't choose to have any spiritual experience nessacarily but you *CAN* choose whether you engage with that expierience or not! jfc that's like an extremely basic ass principal of spirituality and idk why ppl in the kin community don't seem to fucking get that shit 🙄

[notallmight]

I want to induce a kin-shift and then take a shit ton of magic mushrooms for science reasons

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Thinking about all the neurological and energetic and shard and psychic and multiple cause and irrelevant cause otherkin out there, you rock 👊😤

[notallmight]

So I've been around the otherkin community since 2014 which was something that was extremely formative for my spiritual practice as a whole and I've on and off identified as fictionkin since I was 17/18 (I'm 21 now). I also consider myself to be a fairly serious occultist (if being a chaos magician qualifies one as a serious occultist lol). I primarily identity as All Might/Toshinori Yagi from My Hero Academia in terms of my fictionkinity (which is definitely a character you wouldn't expect for me if u knew me irl). But as stated before I've been really on the fence about fictionkin identity as a whole; so much so that it's definitely something about myself that I've brushed under the rug for the past few years. When I first came to identify as fictionkin I was in a really dark place; I was homeless (living in a shelter), a recent highschool dropout, and was all together very much down on my luck. Identifying as All Might is something that gave me the courage to persivere through that hardship and eventually the confidence to kickstart my music career; which actually came to be a major reason *for* hiding this identity in the first place. This time last year I was walking the path to becoming an underground famous musician, I had recently opened for a very popular electronic band, and my band was supposed to go on our first tour last summer. Everything about the notariaty I had obtained felt so right (on a spiritual level you could even say lmao) but at this point in my life I was basically completely denying the validity of my belief in fictionkin as a whole; mostly for reasons concerning the persona I had created for myself as an artist, but the logic I was using to justify that was that I was using it as a coping mechanism; and that my belief had been invalid because of that. But honestly looking back it was because I was afraid of being seen as "cringe", because well believing you're the reincarnation of a fictional anime super hero is pretty inherently absurd imo. Now as a chaos magician I'm no stranger to redicolously sounding spiritual beliefs (in fact the *completely unhinged* belief systems some chaos magicians hold has become somewhat of a meme in the occult community as a whole) but I guess my personal beef with the fictionkin community as a whole is that while identifying is all fine and good I guess, what does it really accomplish for the believer? The most important tenent of chaos magick (imo) is the concept of belief as a tool; and if I may posit this question to the reader: what has identifying this way taught you about yourself? And what are you gonna do with that knowledge? Well I know what I've learned recently from exploring this identity and what happened to me is as follows:

When covid hit I went through my own oddly synchronistic 'fall from grace' so to speak; the music scene was all but gone and I had absolutely no idea what to do with myself, which ended up resulting in me all but losing the deep connection I'd developed with spirit. So I guess it started with a ritual my friend did for me on the last full moon which was supposed to combat that weakening connection; coincidentally (or maybe not so) I was in the middle of getting caught up on the My Hero manga at the time. What happened because of that ritual was extremely unexpected; suddenly the 'kin memories' all came flooding back, overflowing my brainwaves to the point that it was kinda difficult to sleep. I spent like three nights lying awake in bed till 4am pondering the cyclical nature of the situation I'd found myself in. And well I could go over every single memory or synchronistic moment that happened but I don't wanna make this post anymore long-winded than it already is lol. So what I'm gonna say is that my major takeaway from the expierience is this: well first and foremost one of my most important core values as a person is helping other people, and because of that I got a lot of fulfilment from being a teacher (not just a Hero), and that fame isn't everything it's cracked up to be; specifically when you have to hide aspects of yourself to suit the public persona you've created. But another important takeaway from this for me is that fictionkin as a system of belief is valid and can even be an extremely powerful tool for spiritual self discovery in the right hands. What am I gonna do with this you may ask? Well I've reached out to a couple of local anarchist collectives about volunteering for their mutual aid efforts (mostly distrubing food, masks, and other donated goods to people in low income areas of Brooklyn) I've also decided to finally seriously pursue my certification to become a mental health peer support counselor. I've also realized that I should be making music for myself because it's what I love doing, not for the recognition and to be some sort of a 'symbol', because that concept is something that is no longer serves me in this lifetime (and it more or less led me to becoming a slave to my ego this time around) I've also decided it's time for me to become a spiritual teacher (which is something I've aspired for since I first started practicing magick) and to run workshops about magick, spirituality and the occult online as well as irl in the park (socially distanced obviously) and have decided to seriously start the planning process of writing a book on chaos witchcraft; which is an idea I'd been toying with for a little while but didn't really think about seriously till' now. Uhh thanks for coming to my TED talk I guess?