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No one. I'm trying to tell myself that I don't want to be hit, which is a lie.

Who gonna hit you?

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I don't want to be hit, I don't want to be hit, I don't...

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My family? ...My mom is dead, my dad is in prison for murder. My sister and her children are here... I don't actually think I have a favourite film, I've not watched that many to be honest.

Up until now, I've been sitting in my room and eating.

Okay, tell me more anything, just to distract yourself. Your family, your favourite movies, what you did today. Anything. 

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I was born in Manarola, Italy.. I think the last thing I ate was toast. Um, my favorite colour is turquoise.

Okay, distract yourself. Tell me, where were you born? What was the last thing you ate? What’s your favourite colour? Just talk to me, okay.

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I-I'm remembering everything that happened in the house.

Do I have to do everything around here? Talk to me, dear. Tell me what’s happening? I may be a psychiatrist but I’m not a mind reader.

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Sweetie, look straight in my eyes. Think about what colour and shape they are, focus on nothing but me until the flashbacks start to subside, okay. Talk to me, distract yourself.

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Okay.

Okay, it’s okay, take a deep breath and focus on me.

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make it stop. make it stop.

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Flashbacks fucking suck.

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Lost One's Weeping [English Cover] || JubyPhonic

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I don't see why I wouldn't...

Told me to post an introduction.

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I'll get to know you then. And you can get to know me.. That's if you want to.

Told me to post an introduction.

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Really? I'll be your friend!

Told me to post an introduction.

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Because I like being friends with people. You can't be friends with people if you don't meet them first, right?

Told me to post an introduction.

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...Sorry, I just like meeting new people.

Told me to post an introduction.

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Hey, I'm Jesse!

Told me to post an introduction.

There.