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me, alone in my room, every 5 minutes: am i being myself? is this who i really am? who am i performing for?

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really rude that i cant go back in time and save my younger self 

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there is a point in your depression where you just give up on getting better but you still won’t kill yourself. you just float around in this state of nothingness and don’t notice anything around you because you’re just so numb and you just don’t want to do anything about it anymore

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Sometimes dissociation is just kinda like, as if your brain automatically goes on low power mode which causes malfunctions because of not optimally functioning due to it, but the battery percentage is just too low for it to go off low power mode

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I thought there might be a lot of other people who would benefit from reading this, too.

(Original tweet.)

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trying to do something fun: dissociating off my ass, focus and memory gone, disconnected from reality

trying to do something boring: now in New and Vivid detail, doing the dishes! experience the thrill in real time!

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i don’t want to say i’m completely losing my shit, but i am definitely not feeling very Cash Money right now

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“But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.”

— (via youdontlooksad)

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My body feels like a bunch of different parts taken and stitched together

This doesn’t feel right

This isn’t mine

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person: are you out of your mind?!

me, dissociating: quite literally, yes, i am

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“I can’t bring myself to tell my friends how bad I really got.”

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there is a point in your depression where you just give up on getting better but you still won’t kill yourself. you just float around in this state of nothingness and don’t notice anything around you because you’re just so numb and you just don’t want to anything about it anymore

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"It all starts with not wanting to get out of bed, that's how you know you're getting bad again"

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