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LOU FERRIGNO JR as DONOVAN ROCKER S.W.A.T. 6x14 - “GUT PUNCH”

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the thing that gets me with the bucktommy breakup is the way tommy phrases it. "what you're feeling now is new" "i know how this ends" "not your last, i'm your first" "it usually isn't" "i knew that parking spot was too good to be true" just stab me.

he was so specifically loud about how he's been through this. he's felt this way before. he's lost a love like this before. he's made the mistake of moving too fast and loving too much before. maybe he's been on evan's side of it; or maybe he's fallen head over heels for someone the way he has with buck, and he let everything rush forward and then was forced to watch it all fall apart. either way, he knows how it goes. this wouldn't be his first heartbreak. he's so intentionally vocalising the fact that he's hurt like this before. that he's felt this specific pain before

BUT!!!! he's also really clear that taking this blow, having his heart broken by evan, of all people, would be too much. that he wouldn't be able to handle that despite the fact that he has handled heartbreak in a situation something akin to this before. evan is just that much more special to tommy, that much closer to holding his heart in their hands than anyone else has ever been, and thus so much more fatal to tommy.

he's essentially saying that other people have broken his heart, but none of them have ever hurt as much as it would if it were evan who did it. somebody sedate me

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So Tommy was saying "I already love you enough to know that if this doesn't last, if when I let myself believe that this could last forever, that I could be your last, and then you realized that I'm not that for you, I know that I couldn't deal with it, that it would destroy me." but up to that point, it wasn't a full "real" breakup. But Buck's response to that speech was "are you breaking up with me?" And then Tommy realizes it that maybe this is the only alternative for them, because he can't ask for more from Buck, and too-good-to-be-true things usually aren't? So yes, that is a breakup, one he didn't see coming, one he didn't want to do...

Is that what happened?

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baby 🫶

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LOU FERRIGNO JR for JON MAGAZINE (March 24, 2023)

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i was checking frames for icons and wow... he looks so beautiful 🥰

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The Underdog

They thought he was a himbo. A pretty face on a great body, with decent acting skills. Good enough to be the love interest of the main character for several episodes.

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It was a surprise when he rejected a full make out session. He opted for a gentle first kiss instead. It should be their first clue.

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He added a thoughtful detail to the scene. People noticed and loved it. The kiss went viral.

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At first, it was his good look which caught our eyes...

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Soon enough, his nuanced acting and thoughtful subtleties kept our attention.

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Within the limited dialogues and screen time he was given, he told the story through his soulful eyes and his micro expressions. We got the messages and we adored him.

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But they never wanted him to stay long. His time was measured. He had to say goodbye and walked away. And he took our hearts with him.

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So, when he turned his back on the door, we also turned our backs on the show.

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7x04 ✦ 7x06 ✦ 8x06

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your face sir...

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I made a comment the other day about not knowing how to write Buck, and the more I think about it, the more I realize I really DON'T know how to write Buck, and it's becoming a problem.

I think of myself as loving Buck. I understand what draws people to him: sunshine, eager to help, surprising, charmingly oblivious -- funny and big-hearted, if you will. And I've seen Buck Begins, I have a basic grasp of the abandonment issues. But I don't have a handle on how he makes decisions, much less his inner monologue, or how to integrate both his worst and his best qualities.

And the biggest problem is I'm mad at him. I look at his six months with Tommy, and I'm mad that he never showed up for him; never asked about his exes or his sexuality; didn't get him an anniversary present; didn't tell those girls he was with his boyfriend; flirted his way out of serious conversations; didn't consider moving into Tommy's place; hasn't reflected on the breakup; won't call him, for no clear reason; never said I love you.

I'm sure I'm being too hard on Buck, but I keep getting stuck there. What I want more than anything is for Buck to empathize with Tommy, to notice when something's wrong without being told, and I don't know how to get him there in a way that doesn't just feel like wish fulfillment. At worst, I'm afraid following this train of thought will lead me to conclude that Buck isn't right for Tommy, and that's obviously not a fun place to end up.

Anyway, this is not a vent post: I'm sincerely inviting Buck understanders to share their wisdom, because I'm not going to be able to write a fic without it.

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I'll try my damndest to make it to the wedding.

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Hmm 👀

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I mean this very politely but what job do you have? It just feels like you are posting/reblogging 24/7.

I was hired by Lou to defend his honor 24/7

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LOU FERRIGNO JR. as TRENT FOX RESISTING ROOTS (2022)

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tell me you don't watch swat without telling me you don't watch swat

you're a 911 fan that think that the show is all about copganda (hello, have you watched 911?)

because in reality, it's one of the most cop critical shows on television, if not the most. almost every episode is rife with an acknowledgement of what is wrong with the system, how incredibly screwed up it is internally and externally, and has incredibly nuanced characters that function in that system and yet still continuously try to make it better at an individual level and a system level

both the mains and the supporting characters live in this space of recognizing that the system needs a lot of work, and even those who support their loved ones are still so incredibly critical by it

case in point: the main character hondo is a black lapd sargeant swat officer from oakland put in the team lead position in the wake of BLM for political optics that everyone knows and does not love. and his father? was a black panther. and their relationship is one of the best, most beautifully written tv i've seen in a long time

not to mention they have a proper locker room that has proper walls

all this to say: i get not wanting to watch the show, but to not watch the show and say "it's COPGANDA" without actually knowing what it's TRULY about? just false, especially if your point of comparison is 911, which has more copganda in one season than swat's entire series combined

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