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cain instinct

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a sort of split bao

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They’re just shy~

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anaxa/goras/ 🌌

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before y'all ask:

no, I don't know how to draw nor shade. rn I'm in the process of making my commandant OC's 3D model, but I thought that for now I would have a simple portrait of him while I finish that up. Might eventually commission an artist to draw a character sheet reference for him to make the modeling process easier. for now, have this

below the cut is the ref (aka my untextured wip model):

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Some pirates here for you =^______^=

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characters raised to be tools

Weapons. Trained, tested, forged in steel and fire. Failure is an inevitability that ends in death. Pain should not be felt--it should be recognized, familiar, and inconsequential

Martyrs. In the form of servants and princes, of leaders and underdogs. If blood is necessary, the martyr will lift their hands and offer it all

Shields. Like tempering a sword, but only to bear and not to lash out. Wounds are medals--not symbols of pride, but symbols of worth. A pretty shield is useless; scars mean a job well done

Experiments. Raised on the cold comfort of a lab table. Restraints are only necessary when they're not in their right mind. Is it honorable, to be twisted beyond recognition? Or is it just a necessary evil?

Monsters. Cruelty, caution, and regarding one as a creature beyond reasonable thought is tempering in its own right. But if you keep a leash at the right length, perhaps the massecre won't reach you. One can hope.

Idols. Pretty face, pretty name, pretty hands around their shoulders and throat. There to seduce, manipulate, force any feeling to come to the surface and twist it to their favor. Any genuinity stays locked behind the guilded cage that surrounds their pretty little heart

Trophies. Status and wealth and the traditions that keep someone at their heels, on their knees, to display and serve and decorate one's ballroom.

Sacrifices. Drenched in honorable clothes, prepared and adored and cleansed. The gift of hope at the cost of one's life. Is it taken with no fight? How can you escape the ropes you were born in?

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Listen. This scene. THIS SCENE. I just needed this last part of the film to be a tiny 🤏bit longer.

Let me bask in this lighting and colors.

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the problem w making up OCs is before you can get the rewards of shitposting about them you must first submit yourself to the mortifying ordeal of explaining who they are.

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POWAH!

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Coriolanus Snow: Oh, I never had much as a kid. Just loving parents, stability, and a mansion. And a thriving weapons enterprise for me to inherit. Useless crap like that.

Coriolanus Snow: But there's only one thing that will make me... happy.

Sejanus: Oh, what's that?

Coriolanus Snow: Inheriting your family's wealth so I can ascend to a dictatorship and make the Hunger Games an entertainment for all to enjoy! Is that so much to ask for?

Sejanus:

Lucy Gray:

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what makes Snow such a formidable villain within THG universe is that nothing he does was set in stone. there was no sense of inevitability about his actions and his brutality. Snow had enough perspective of poverty, capital cruelty, district hunger and not to mention his own arena experience’ and yet he actively chose at every moment to stray from natural goodness. its even more terrifying in the sense that he had the ability to care. Snow is not a mindless sociopath, he displays feelings to others such as sejanus, lucy grey and tigris but ultimately he will always choose himself. his ability to betray those he cared about in order yo advance himself makes him so much more than the stereotypical villain who is forced into his actions.

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flip the rock to see what’s under it!

🌾🌷🌾🌷🌾🪨🌾🌷🌾🌷🌾

(make sure you put it back after, don’t want to disturb the wildlife.)

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in my luciaxocskk feels rn, so here are some summary notes from how their relationship developed when lucia was in Lotus

a lot of these notes are actually summaries of my actual notes (i have 200+ pages' worth of notes for my oc from main storyline alterations to actual fics, i have a problem)

i hope that someday i will be able to actually write out and flesh out this particular universe for my oc, but for now pls have these tiny little crumbs as offerings

When they first met to become Gray Raven, practically strangers to each other, Exekial thought Lucia to be distant, even a little cold, while Lucia thought Exekial to be a rather strange commandant and human being. However, as the months went on with just each other, they quickly became accustomed to each others’ presences, so much so that one could say that they learned together how to become an effective commandant and Construct

In their downtime, Lucia and Exekial would hang out with each other even outside of training—something that Lucia was unaccustomed to, as she felt that Exekial should have more important things to do. But the first (and last) time she brought it up, Exekial waved her off, telling her that he preferred her company to most everyone else’s

Around the last months before Liv and Lee would join the team, there was an incident in which a commandant challenged Exekial to a duel, a duel that Exekial ended up winning effortlessly. Enraged and humiliated, the commandant lashed out, leaving a scar under Exekial’s left eye—an action that Lucia didn’t leave unanswered. This was the first time in a long, long time that Lucia had felt so protective of someone else, and the feeling only grew as squad after squad tried to challenge her for his command

When Nikola asked Exekial to review Liv’s and Lee’s profiles, Exekial deferred to Lucia’s judgment, mostly out of respect for her capabilities and experience but also because of his complicated past and potential bias clouding his assessment

Despite having a bond that was closer than comrades but couldn’t quite be called friendship at this point, Lucia always seemed to display uneasiness whenever Exekial ended up physically close to someone, though she initially reasoned the feeling off as protectiveness

Exekial always noticed, however, and at the first chance he would get, he would break off engagement with the other party to walk over and check in on her. This would always catch her off-guard, and time and time again she would wonder why he would prefer the company of a weapon of war over “real” human beings

Though Lucia wouldn’t remember, a chance meeting between her and a young Exekial changed the course of Exekial’s fate forever, propelling him on the path to becoming a commandant despite his deepest fears and doubts

In the early days of Gray Raven, Exekial was observed by Lee to be avoidant to physical contact, only engaging in it either through professional gestures, helping others, or if any of his Constructs were assisting in tending to his wounds. However, if he sensed that Lucia was unsettled or distressed, he would reach out to hold her hand, long enough for her M.I.N.D. to stabilize, before he would withdraw it

Due to Lucia’s and Lee’s overly serious personality, Liv and Exekial often acted as their counter-balance between Liv’s gentle nature and Exekial’s casual, laidback demeanor outside of missions, with Exekial taking the liberty to tease Lee and Lucia. However, after the first few times, he realized that his teasing Lucia, far from making her relax, only seemed to make her self-conscious. As a result, he resorted to only teasing Liv and Lee

When they faced off against Alpha for the first time, the fight was more brutal than in canon, resulting in Exekial sustaining more injuries. However, when Liv fretted over him, Exekial pushed her away, worried for Lucia, and insisted that she checked on Lucia first. In turn, Lucia protested, arguing that her parts could be replaced, but if Exekial bled out, the Gray Ravens couldn’t find a replacement like him

Lucia and Exekial then began to argue with each other, with Lucia insisting Liv check on Exekial and Exekial insisting she check on Lucia. It was only resolved when an exasperated Lee chided them both for getting Liv caught up in their spat and told Liv to go check on Lucia, as he knew some first aid and could take care of Exekial

As they faced off against Tifa, Exekial suddenly realized that Lucia was right in the path of her rampage. He shouted her name in warning and lunged at her, clutching her in his embrace and rolling them both into cover, where Exekial ended up on top of Lucia. Stunned, Lucia looked up at Exekial, who looked down in worry and asked if she was okay. Before Lucia could say anything, however, Exekial noticed Liv was out in the open and shouted at her to look out, prompting Lee to jump to protect Liv

As Liv treated Lee, Lee made a comment that caused Liv to vow to become stronger to protect him, prompting Lee to become flustered as he tried to explain that this wasn’t what he meant. Exekial teased Lee, saying that he was envious that Lee had a pretty lady to protect him, and Lee retorted by saying Exekial was no better, clearly looking to Lucia when he said this. Embarrassed, Exekial coughed as he said he had no idea what Lee was talking about, while Lucia asked with confusion why Lee was looking at her

In the wake of the mission to rescue Liv from the Forsaken, Watanabe invited them to spend the night at a nearby camp as part of an apology for the way they treated Liv. Throughout their stay there, both Kamui and Watanabe made comments on how Lucia had changed, noting that she used to be indifferent while they had been training together, but now she seems to care for Gray Raven and a lot of other people, especially her commandant. Lucia only stayed silent, unsure of how to respond to that

While they were at the camp, however, Exekial ended up in an altercation with a young Forsaken man, resulting in Exekial being shot. Once he was whisked into a tent, with Liv and a Forsaken doctor treating him, Lucia positioned herself right outside his tent, not budging an inch. When they were done treating him, she went inside to watch over him through the entire night, helping him sit up once he woke up

Once Exekial realized that Lucia stayed up all night to watch over him, he told her that he was grateful that she stayed up with him, but she didn’t need to do that, much to her confusion. She tried to point out that Constructs don’t need sleep to operate at full capacity, but Exekial refuted that he didn’t care about that, only her. Lucia went quiet at that, as if taken aback

Exekial reached over with his hand to hold hers as he said that he knows that while Constructs were created for the purpose of fighting the war, that should never be their sole purpose; after all, Constructs were once people too. He asked her to treat herself less like a weapon and more like a person—for him if not for herself. Stunned by his words, she could only look away as she mumbled that she would try

At some point, a banquet was held for all the Task Force squads, with Constructs being invited to it for the first time. Upon entering, all eyes turned to them and the whispers began. Feeling Lucia tense up next to him, Exekial only briefly grasped her hand as he told her that she deserves to be here, turning to look at Lee and Liv as he indicated that the words were meant for them too

When Lucia and Exekial get a moment by themselves, Lucia asked him why he bothered to stand up for Constructs like her, since Constructs have always been seen as mere tools and he risked antagonizing a lot of higher-level people. Exekial only replied simply that he knew what it was like to be seen as a mere tool as well. This was the first time Exekial even hinted at his past to someone else since he had graduated F.O.S., a sign of vulnerability that only deepened the bond between them

A strange feeling would well up in Lucia whenever she saw Exekial dancing with others, though she tried to stamp it down as best as she could, agreeing (a tad begrudgingly) with Liv and Lee that Exekial looked happier. However, when the banquet ended Exekial walked back to them, Lucia noticed the way Exekial’s smile slipped off his expression like a mask, making him look more tired than usual. When his eyes met hers, though, a small smile flitted on his face, and Lucia realized without a doubt that this was a real smile, reserved just for her and the other Gray Ravens

The first time Lucia hugged Exekial of her own accord was when they reunited on-board the Nighter after the mission in which Exekial was forced to go on a solo mission on Hassen’s orders. Just as quickly, however, she released him, clearing her throat and saying that she was glad he returned to them

After the battle with Huaxu and Villier, when Lucia was falling, Exekial reached out and caught her, holding her tightly in his arms. Surprised, Lucia told Exekial that she was fine, but Exekial only hugged her closer, telling her that he was glad she was alright. Unnoticed to him, a faint blush appeared on Lucia’s face upon hearing his words, but their attention was soon drawn away to Villier and Huaxu

During the battle of Kowloong Metropolis, as Exekial cradled Lucia’s broken body in his arms and watched Alpha step up to them, Lucia begged Exekial to run, but he stayed put. When Alpha questioned why he won’t run, Exekial kept his gaze on hers as he said quietly that Lucia was part of Gray Raven, and Gray Raven would always stick together

Enraged, Alpha lifted the blade, preparing to strike both Lucia and Exekial down. Lucia said his name again, sounding as if she wanted to tell him to run, but Exekial reassured her, saying that he was right here and that he wasn’t going anywhere. In the end, their impending doom was halted by Luna, who wanted Alpha to spare Lucia

Once Lucia returned in Plume and defeated Qu, Exekial grabbed her outreached hand and pulled her into his embrace before she could pass out and hit the floor. Lucia weakly called out to Exekial, and he murmured that he was here; he wasn’t going anywhere. Comforted, Lucia closed her eyes, and Exekial could feel her relax against him. He was left standing alone with Lucia in his arms, his heart heavy with grief

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gray raven x lawson~ 💙✌️🤍 Let's make sure to take a picture for Liv, skk! *ocskk

I worked hard on drawing and recreating the background graphics this time, so here it is on its own

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this website’s easy watch. *dangles a bunch of greek gods like keys*

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i think eventually we're all just gonna have to come to terms with the fact that it's impossible to tell a story with any degree of subtlety or nuance without risking a portion of the audience taking the "wrong message", and that's ok. art isn't meant to be strictly a teaching tool, and if you're goal is just to convince people or critique an idea, just write an essay or a polemic