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               ❛     harley quinn. if you know what she looks like. i’ll literally give you money for it & hang it on my wall.     ❜  

          “ just … give me something to draw. challenge me. ”

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jcykobensn:

    jaykob couldn’t help but chuckle as the girl in front of him started coughing. she’d clearly been new to smoking, where as he had been doing it for years. “it takes practice ––– everyone feels like their throat is on fire at first but it gets better the more you did it.” the man stated before pulling out a cigarette of his own and putting it between his lips. before lighting the cigarette he looked over at the girl before giving her a quick wink and then inhaling his smoke. 

                 “any particular reason you are starting now?” 

            aro doesn’t need any practice whatsoever   ------   it’s not like she plans to become hooked. being a med student, she knows what such an addiction will inevitably do to one’s body. once her eyes catch the little wink, slight rosiness paints the soft skin of her cheeks & this timid individual tilts her chin down, blue irises glued to the ground as two or three strands of red hair cover her features.          ❛     my roommate says they calm her down. i’ve been in sheer panic mode, studyin’ all mornin’, so i thought i’d find my chill with one of those death sticks. now all i have is aching lungs, throat numb from the fire & a tongue that feels like i’ve been licking dirty concrete.     ❜         awesome. she's clearly radiating positivity.

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dcsirae:

Desirae had just been on her way HOME, having just closed up the studio for the day, she was ready to flop down on the couch & relax, knowing she had another b u s y schedule ahead tomorrow. Just as she turning the corner, the sound of violent coughing coming from up ahead, which caused her eyebrows to knit together, both in confusion and worry. When her steps reached the source, the SMELL of the cigarette had all but slapped her in the face, even if it’d been rid of by now. While she wasn’t a fan of the habit, it also wasn’t her business to judge other people for doing so, nor make comments on the matter ( unless necessary ). So instead she pulls out a small bottle from her purse, handing it over. “–Kinda look like you could use some WATER.” 

            there’s this pity-inducing look of puppy guilt splattered across the young features. if there’s anything she fears it’s being scolded for something that she’s done, particularly because she has this obsessive need of doing everything right, in the best way possible. her entire face lights up when she gets offered a bottle of water & though in the back of her mind there’s still that ‘DON’T, IT MIGHT BE POISON’ voice yelling at her, she opts for ignoring it & extends her arm in order to reach the precious, much needed liquid.         ❛     you’re a lifesaver. it felt as if my throat was rejecting the smoke so much, it’d get all closed up after another inhale.     ❜         she admits, making a silent vow to herself not to do this ever again.         ❛     do you happen to have a piece of gum as well ? i’d be forever in your debt.     ❜        

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lostcausc:

He’d come to RELY on the puffs of smoke that now provided more space in his lungs than actual oxygen did, making him lightheaded in the PERFECT most blissful way. People considered him addicted to the nicotine and they’d be right, though in hindsight his addiction to cigarettes was nothing compared to the rest of his unhealthy addictions that managed to keep him LIVING. Spencer didn’t remember the name of the guy he went home with last night and didn’t care to find out as he slunk out from their apartment in the early morning. Or PERHAPS it was the late afternoon. He’d lost track of time. In the end, time was meaningless anyways, his internal clock ticking to a rhythm of its own accord. The greasy haired blonde was GRATEFUL for the fresh air, relishing in it for only a moment as the sun’s harsh rays beamed down upon his pale flesh, breathing in before he catches a whiff of his sweet companion, one eye fluttering open before the other follows suit. His blue and HAZY hues fall upon a girl, her coughs echoing through his ears as his brows furrow, “Shit, you drowning or something? Jesus. Don’t cough up a lung. I may need it for a transplant or SOMETHING.” He wants to offer her water but he doesn’t have ANY so such an offer would fall short. Slender fingers thumb through the pockets of his oversized jeans, the male losing more and more weight every single DAY, falling upon a flask filled with whatever liquor his drunken state decided to purge on the night before. “This might help.” Spencer offered, knowing it helped him but perhaps it was an unhealthy solution to offer to those who were NORMAL.

            truth to be told, aro simultaneously admires & envies people who can casually start a conversation with everyone, one that feels like they personally know the other, even with a complete stranger on the street. though, when she’s on the receiving end of such extroversity, she ought to feel uncomfortable, as if her claustrophobic self is trapped in a tiny lift that’s also painfully slowly threatening to crush her. to make matters worse, the guy that’s teasing her seems hungover, or even tipsy, & aro is deathly afraid of unfamiliar drunk people. feeling overwhelmingly wary, she scans his appearance before shaking her head.        ❛     i have to kindly reject your offer. i’m not supposed to drink alcohol. but i think it’d only make things worse anyway. thank you, though.     ❜         she utters in a raspy, low voice, not wanting to set him off, but worrying that she’s doing exactly that.

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doctorthompsonx:

“You like the outside?…..Is that why you’re smoking out here, trying not to get caught?” She asked with a raised eyebrow. As a doctor she knew all about how smoking could eventually kill you, so she didn’t smoke. But she didn’t wanna interfere with anyone who likes to smoke, because ultimately it’s their choice and not hers.

            there it goes again, that drowning feeling, the realisation that she’s been caught doing something that is wrong. smoking might not be a completely horrible thing to be doing by the whole world’s standards, but it could easily ruin her reputation of the perfect kid, the perfect student, the perfect person.         ❛     who says that i’m trying not to get caught ?     ❜         it’s a weak attempt, but standing up to someone is a big step for her.

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megxsilver:

With a cigarette burning upon her lips, Meg was walking home after closing up the bar for the night. Her mind was elsewhere until the rough sound of coughing drew her from her thoughts. Whipping her head around, she caught sight of a girl standing nearby who appeared to be choking upon something. As walked closer to see if the girl was ok, Meg noticed the discarded cigarette still blazing away on the floor. “Having trouble getting the hang of it?” Meg said with a smirk, taking a long drag of her own addiction.

            at first, her curious eyes struggle to size up the other person in the darkness, but once they get close enough, she no longer has to keep them narrowed & extremely focused. when she notices the other holding a cigarette of her own, aro significantly becomes more relaxed, not expecting to be judged immediately.         ❛     i'm starting to think that smoking isn’t exactly my thing. i might be wrong, though. what do you say ?     ❜         she manages to push her lips to form an amicable grin.

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bchatti:

“you sure you’re not dying?” she asked, brown eyes peering around to watch her friend with slightly worried eyes. after her question, behati let out a soft giggle. “don’t worry, i won’t tell a soul?” her eyes peered away from eiza and down the cigarette that was the ground, letting her head shake before turning back to face them.

            aro lazily extends her leg in order to put out the cigarette by stepping on it a bit more  forcefully than it was needed.         ❛     we’re all slowly but surely dying, bee. all this is doing is making the whole process accelerate for me.     ❜         she rants, using her most philosphical voice, before offering behati an extremely thankful look.

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vivicnism:

              It was a beautiful day outside. Vivian took the opportunity to go out and run some errands, letting herself feel the sun and take in all the vitamin d she could. Summer was just around the corner, and that meant going to the beach to tan— which was one of her favorite things to do. But with two shopping bags on each hand and her purse tucked under her arm, her heels clicked against the pavement and through those clicks, she heard the rumble of someone’s cough. Furrowed brows and looking around curiously, she saw a younger individual, sitting on a step, heaving from what looked to be a cigarette. Vi quit a couple years back. The smell now makes her both sick and long for another at the same time.  Tossing what was left in front of Vi’s path, she stopped, looking down at her.    “ You good, kiddo? “   She couldn’t help but laugh, ignoring her defensive statement.

            drawing attention to herself is something that margo avoids doing like a plague. another person’s eyes on her make her self-conscious & the opportunity she gets to potentially embarrass herself to death makes her sick to her stomach. although she does not like being called kiddo, she’d never speak up about it, especially since she appreciates the other person’s concern too much.         ❛     i will be once i detoxify my whole body and soul of this godawful thing.     ❜         she confesses, shyly tucking a wild strand of wavy copper hair behind her ear.

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hi, this is an ‘’i miss eva’s mermaid hair’’ gifset

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             one of eiza’s cigarettes sits between her fingers, and she’s all but choking on it. she’d never smoked before, and never planned on trying   —---   but if the girl she lived with was mellow all the time, maybe the less deadly of her vices would work on aro, too. at least the temperature is mild enough to enjoy outside, she decides through another bout of coughing as she adjusts her position on the step outside her apartment building. her lungs are not conditioned to smoke; despite her determination, she is not a dragon. she can only discard the cigarette fast enough when somebody comes into her field of vision, trying to act like she isn’t a few more coughs away from hacking up her lungs.         ❛     i was   ---—   i like it outside.     ❜         she tries to explain, but it just doesn’t feel worth it.

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                   [ LITTLE ME by Little Mix softly playing in the background ]

introducin’ MARGO “ARO” NORDNESS

hola, sky back @ it again with another charrie !! ( i play these nerds: @elvyras​ & @horrcrphile​ ). warning, i love my lil snowflake v much & yeah, ik this is hella long bahEE. ALSO, i'm v nervous abt actually bothering & boring people, so it would be hella appreciated if you came to me for plotties

meet margo nordness, who happens to hate her name, but instead of having her friends call her marg or argo or whatever, they call her A R O. well … that’s surely what they’d call her if she had any. anyway

her parents met during a summer festival, quickly & thoughtlessly engaging in a fling, a fling that turned into a seemingly serious relationship. after only five months of dating, they got married. her mother was a nurse & her father was a mechanic. they were struggling financially, but a bigger problem was her father’s unreasonable jealousy. he’d forbid her mom to wear skirts & dresses, for example. almost exactly a year after their wedding, aro’s mom found out she was pregnant. she shared the news with her husband, hoping he’d be as happy as she was, but no. he ordered her to get an abortion, which she refused. they got into a heated fight, he hit her & then left. later that night he showed up drunk as fuck, packed his bags & just like that he was gone.

they got a divorce & aro’s mom moved back in with aro’s grandparents, who helped her through her pregnancy, along with aro’s uncle & his family ( she has two cousins who are like siblings to her !! )

you think you’ve seen the last of aro’s dad ?? fuck no ! when she was two years old, he showed up & tried to take her away from her mom, become her legal guardian instead

for years the two were fighting over the poor child, who had to go to different psychologist so that they’d figure out her feelings, whether she liked living with her mom, whether she missed her dad and would prefer living with him instead, whether she was depressed & so on. one time they asked her to draw her family & she drew her mom, grandparents, uncle & aunt and the two cousins. no father.

eventually her dad backed the fuck away, but he was allowed to see aro on weekends and such. she hated that. she’d always bawl her eyes out when she had to go see him. she didn’t know why, she simply hated the thought of him.

later they discovered that he never truly wanted aro for himself, that he was solely trying to reach out to her mother by using her as an excuse ?? like, he wanted to get back together with her & didn’t really care about the kid. but anyway, she hasn’t heard anything from him ever since she was 15. he simply vanished, so he’s out of the picture now.

aro’s always been a good kid !! golden !! everyone knew she was THE favourite grandchild among the three, perhaps because she was the youngest & the one who had had the most problems in her life

she’s always been good at school. a straight a student. her social skills, though ? awful. she was that shy, chubby kid who always got good grades. the kind that only hung out with other quiet kids & only during school hours. she had a couple of neighbourhood kids that she played with, however. AT HOME, though, it was like she was a different child. the loudest, happiest.

kids called her fatty & would only talk to her when they wanted to copy her homework ?? she was a complete loser in their eyes, painfully boring. they bullied her so fuckin much, she would always cry alone in her room, but tell her mom that she had the best time in school

that whole thing stuck with her til high school. in high school she was invisible. & while every other girl blossomed, she remained the same. baby face, struggling with weight. dating. while everyone was kissing and losing virginity, she had tragic crushes. her crushes would last for years. in high school, she had a crush on one of the popular guys, but they only talked, like, once. but no. he was perfect in her eyes. nothing ever happened between them, though

she had three best friends in school !! three quiet girls !! they were so different, but everyone viewed them as the same. they’re still best friends, even though they’re going to different colleges.

about the whole weight thing. aro hates food, she used to live on sweet things. she couldn’t understand why she had a bigger tummy & chubby cheeks. she was very insecure. after a series of tragic events ( her grandparents passing & her uncle shockingly dying as well - this is already too long, m not gonna write every lil detail ), she lost her period for four months. after going to 10 doctors, they found out she has hashimoto’s thyroiditis & insulin resistance. LONG STORY SHORT, she’s fine, she just needs to take her meds, exercise a lot, eat healthy ( gross ), avoid SUGAR & use stevia products instead ( which is the worst thing for her ), drink hella water & only a glass of wine now & then and she should be fine. of course, she cheats when it comes to sweets and alcohol, sometimes skips meals. BUT with this new lifestyle, her body started functioning normally & during the summer after high school ended, she got a rocking body & strenghtened mentally

even though her mom ( a nurse ) advised her against it, she’s going to med school now & wants to become a psychiatrist !! she hopes it will help her understand herself, her father’s choices, & help other people live better.

when i said that she wants to understand herself, i meant her slight anxiety issues + she thinks she’s bipolar ?? she thinks. she’s afraid to talk to anyone about it, but the symptoms are there

she’s more sociable now !! hopes people will burn the old images of her from their mind

she’s a demigirl with she/they pronouns & she honestly has no idea what her sexual orientation is ,,, like i said, she’s never been with anyone.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

one or both of her cousins !! they’re both older than her & they all grew up together. they know she’s tiny & fragile, so they’ve always protected her & let her hang out with them and their friends & such. maybe one of them teases her a lot in order to make her stronger. idk

neighbourhood friends: a couple of kids who’d always go out and play hide & seek, play with a ball, run around, be careless together. aro would always forget about her worries when she was around them. perhaps they drifted apart slightly, but reconnecting after a few years would be amazing

kids who bullied her

high school best friends

roommate(s) !!

a guy she was desperately in love with ( or, she was desperately in love with the idea of him ), but they only talked once. mMmmMmm ,, does he remember her now ? did he share her feelings or would he laugh in her face if she confessed everything now ?

a half sibling ? like, maybe her father had that kid before he met her mother

a step sibling ? her mother has a boyfriend now & he has a kid. maybe they are tight af, maybe they hate each other who knows

extremely extroverted friend who drags her to every single party & tries to get her together with their other friends

literal MOM friend. the one who knows about her health issues & always smacks her hand when she tries to eat something sweet. maybe sometimes they feel bad, so they let her, but make her swear that she wouldn’t eat anything else sugary for the rest of the day. someone who reminds her to take her meds.

a person she met online. she likes them a lot. turns out they’re living in the same town. they’re supposed to meet, but aro’s anxious bc she’s too self-conscious. she’s worried she’s not half as entertaining irl.

some smooth motherfucker who’s like ,, aYE sweet mama @aro. 11/10 wants to teach her how to kiss, probably has an ulterior motive

the girl who made her realise she’s hella attracted to girls as well

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