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Okay. Okay

I think Deacon is by far the most tragic Fo4 companion because my GOD he spends so much time, as MacCready says, “being anyone but himself.” Literally you never learn his real name. He’s constantly watching his friends and allies die all for a cause SO much bigger than themselves.

Deacon never gets that chance at happiness and true companionship that the others get. He stays with the Railroad. He keeps his secrets and theirs to the end. You never find out… much at all about him. He always joking and saying random things and it’s such a perfectly crafted distraction from… finding out anything real.

The constant changing disguises, the lying, the. Just everything. His saying he prefers to be alone because getting too close could get him and his allies hurt all over again. He also says he likes traveling with you, but his base instinct is to just “pop a stealth boy and bug out.”

Also. The making up for his past mistakes and actions against synths. The actual RISKING HIS LIFE and throwing away his ENTIRE own identity, his being, for the sake of this cause. I cannot stress enough that this man has no identity left of his own anymore, and what there is is buried underneath so many layers that you, and probably he— will never find it again.

Also I’m adding to this. If you betray the RR for the Brotherhood or Institute, Deacon’s (cut) line about “how could you betray us… betray ME” and the actual rare hint of REAL emotion in his voice before he immediately turns on you. Someone he’d put trust into, someone he actually thought was going to do good for the Synths and for the Railroad. He doesn’t hesitate. That probably legitimately hurt him so much to do.

Deacon is not a character I can wrap my head around easily. He’s not someone I can conceptualize or fit into any box or any one sort of character trope. For that reason, I find him absolutely fascinating, and also completely heartbreaking.

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This is on the Dragonborn's fridge

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I am so glad that the word blorbos exists now. It’s so much more evocative and accurate than “comfort character”. Like, they’re different things. He doesn’t bring me comfort, he makes my hands itchy and I want to polish him with pledge. I want to put him in a Pringle’s tube and shake him. I want to brush his hair and put little shoes on him like a Bratz doll. That’s a blorbo.

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Opening Tumblr on March 15th

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Ides of March

Joshua Graham just loses it occasionally

Bonus reaction:

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Another Sonic and Fallout crossover, this time I'm using New Vegas AU. Presenting Sonic as Courier Six

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Cicero has lost the plot

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"Me? Pah! I was just getting used to being retired. You can see how good my painting is getting."

--Modryn Oreyn

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POV: Vicente Valtieri comes to you in bed to give you his dark gift

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i’m saying this as a serana lover but i think saying serana is your favorite skyrim character is such a cop out bc like ofc she is. she’s the only actual character character in the entire game. pick one of the other 500 rando nothing nobodies like a real fan. Say Benor is your favorite. i dare you

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taking deacon’s sunglasses off for the first time and getting jumpscared by the color of his eyes really feels like

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Vilkas? Physical affection? What on Nirn is going on here

I haven’t drawn Alfe in a hot minute - last time you saw her, she looked like this, and I couldn’t draw very well 😅

That picture seems to have gained some attention recently, so I figured I’d draw her with Vilkas this time. They are friends, I swear. Even if she is the bane of his existence

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if I don’t get arc suit N I’m gonna ugly cry and throw a man sized fit

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i don't know what to call these but here they come...

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“Yeah, I’m kind of a gamer,” I say while on my 17th consecutive play through of Oblivion

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