nochanchu

[nochanchu]

hello i just stumbled upon your nct haechan fic walk you home. upon reading through it i wouldn't have expected to catch myself crying over it since it hit too close to home plus they way you delivered the mc's emotions torn over her fear with the idea of her finally letting in a person like haechan w(hom is so clearly perfect for her) and her deep love for him made me really connect on such a level tug my heartstrings. thank you for writing it <3

aww, thank you for sharing such loving thoughts! I've written so many stories, and yet hearing such kind words about them never fails to warm my heart and encourage me to keep going (whether that be in my fic writing or non-fic writing). I hope you know just how precious and well-adored you are. our emotions can be frightening but they are always, always valid! thank you again, and have a wonderful day!

[nochanchu]

Happy Summer Everyone! I know this follow forever seems somewhat odd, I didn't hit a significant milestone or anything, this isn't an anniversary, I just wanted to spread the love around! I've been a resident on tumblr in various locations for 8 years now, and caratblr has been the kindest crowd I've ever happened into. Thank you so much for tolerating my inconsistent behind and welcoming me with open arms!

Mutuals bolded, favs italicized, special mentions at the end!

Sorry if you're listed and didn't get tagged, I'll try to tag everyone in a reblog!

Best viewed on desktop because yikes mobile did not preserve the formatting at all.

@adorablehoshi / @art-hao / @bookwan / @berethosh / @bbugyu / @brianskangs / @cheolshu / @coups / @cupidhaos / @celestialpearls / @cafevernon / @coupsnim / @chanswu / @clingyhao / @diamondyjh / @hanwooz / @hoshees / @haoranghae / @heartgyus / @honsool / @iiasha / @joshuahong / @jaemtens / @je0nghans / juunshua / junsol / julyprince / jooneos / jonghan / kiwibomb / kyeomshine / kwonsyoungs / kyeomblr / leejenos / lxveille / leedk / lesbiancarat / myungho / myngho / mango-mina / myunqho / minkwans / mngys / nochanchu / ohoshi / sangyus / softwonwoo / soonhoonsol / seokgyus / swyllh / shuaway / sleepyljihoon / scoupsy / scoups / tearsofsyrup / ult-hongs / verkwannies / vernons / wongyoo / wonwvoo / xuboowoo / xuseokgyu

special mentions! I'm about to get sappy so avert your eyes!

@haniehae: miss anna! my comrade-in-arms ; ; thank you for always being so supportive of my works and letting me sneak into your dms when I'm being super indecisive about whatever the heck I'm doing. you're also a huge inspiration for me, you're so creative and so talented, and i'm always shocked when awesome content creators like you follow me. you've made me feel at home ever since I met you and I'll always appreciate you for that!

@dreamystuffers: MA'AM. YOU ARE NOT FOLLOWING ME AND THIS IS A CALLOUT. I RAISED YOU ON MY BACK. I'm kidding, I love you kiddo and it's been something else watching you come into your own on tumblr with your writing and your palettes. can't believe it's only been four years since we met, because it honestly feels like forever. long live yoonkooknetwork!! >:[

@mingtiddies: wendy wu homecoming warrior, you've always supported my writing and been a great friend. thank you for putting up with me just shouting vague story ideas at you from across the void, because we both know that nothing ever comes out of them lol. as always, I promise that the sequel will be written someday. idk when, but I promise it'll happen.

@hungline: obligatory, you're my husband so i have to mention you. lol, just kidding. you're the best ren, the best husband, the best beta, the best network comrade, and i love you with my whole friggin undead heart. let's play video games together someday <3

@kwonthefire: i do not know how you rolled into my life, ya little chaotic bean, but you are an absolute treasure. thank you for playing laggy among us with me and reading my silly wips because i can't tell what's good or bad anymore at 3am. please never stop shouting at me in dms and sending me cute memes. you're the best.

@inter-galaxy: at risk of us starting a "NO U" battle again, i'm just going to thank you for everything you've done for me. and say that i love you.

@kpopaeipathy: deby my heart ; ; you've been a great friend for these past few years, an inspiration, and a masterpiece of a human. i don't know how you do all that you do, and i still secretly think you own the internet. but i will always love and cherish our friendship because you've always been there when i need you, whether it's gfx or network help, or me shouting "READ THIS PLEASE" because i'm suffering from writer's block,,, again,,, you always come thru. you're the realest one there is and i love you.

@miniwaves: little ms waverly, i have a sinking suspicion that you've been following me from the start of my kpop tumblr career and i don't know how long that's been. thank you for staying with me all this time, you gave me confidence and support when i didn't know that i needed it. and along the way you became a wonderful friend. thank you for everything, mon ami.

@gamerwoo: this may seem a little forward, but rocket i have never personally vibed more with someone's online presence so i felt you needed your own shoutout? you are hilarious, talented, and honestly such a chill mutual and i love seeing you on my dash. i aspire to give as few shits as you do (idk if that sounds like a compliment but to me it is) and to be as productive as you. we may not talk much but when we do it's always a good time. really nothing more i have to say, you're awesome.

[nochanchu]

NCT Recs!

Please go give these writers some love and support, they really all deserve it!

All personal favorites will be marked with a ‘♡’. This list will be updated from time to time.

Last Updated: August 1st, 2021

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[nochanchu]

as mentioned, i think i’ll be moving over to @alonfic for future haikyuu (and maybe other sports anime) content! it’s a bit of a mixed bag in terms of content--between writing tips to anime to some kpop--but i figure it’s time to move to a new space where creativity may thrive! sorry to anyone anticipating any more kpop work d: i can’t guarantee i’ll be making anymore.

[nochanchu]

i've recently finished watching haikyuu and bnha!! i've started reading a bit of the haikyuu manga too, but there are so many chapters ;-; i'm glad to hear that you'd write for haikyuu!!! that's what i primarily read from the anime fic community so if you do end up posting, i'll be looking forward to it!! i'll have to watch kuroko no basket and free sometime, i heard they're really good! i'll be on the lookout for whether you post here or on a new blog!! :D

i’ve had bnha on my list for ages! i need to just hunker down and watch it since i’ve heard so many good things abt that one. gosh, i wish i had the patience to read the manga! one of my friends was so impatient between the episode releases that they ended up reading the manga, so kudos to their patience lolll. but omg, that makes me happy to hear that! :3 i’ll definitely announce any future plans!

and, the other two animes are really good! knb is what got me into sports anime, and free is such a feel good show, definitely one of my favorite comfort shows. if you ever get around to watching them, i would love to hear your thoughts!

[nochanchu]

ahh hi em! i just started getting into some anime + reading for them too, and i was wondering which anime you'd write for if you started doing so? either way, good luck with your writing endeavors!!! your work is amazing :)

ahh hello nonnie! that’s so exciting to hear that you’re getting into anime and reading for them! which ones have you been watching lately?

to answer your question: i’m almost certain to start writing for haikyuu!!, which i finished rewatching in an embarrassingly short amount of time, and i’m considering writing for kuroko no basket and free! since i started rewatching those as well.

thank you, i truly appreciate it! truthfully, i’m still deciding on whether i might post that work here or make another blog altogether since it seems a little unfair of me to post stories for a different fandom when this blog garnered followed through my kpop muses. we shall see though!

[nochanchu]

hey. if you’re feeling down about your writing, remember: you made a story from nothing. from your brain. you straight up invented people (aka your ocs), you weaved together plot points and scenes that only you could conjure, you created something. not just something, but something unique to you. something that wasn’t there before. it didn’t occur naturally. you made it, with your own brain and fingers tapping away at a keyboard. that alone is enough to be proud of, man. shit’s cool

[nochanchu]

i want georgia to flip so bad

[nochanchu]

hey folks; i know we’re all going thru it right now, so I made a carrd masterpost of some stuff to comfort us all. there’s some games, some mental health stuff, and all the crisis lines i could find. i hope it helps; please spread this if you think your followers might find it useful

[nochanchu]

drabble requests

Okay, I’m doing something I’ve NEVER DONE BEFORE

I’m opening my ask box specifically to prompt requests for drabbles/short one shots. The catch is that, regardless of how many are sent, I’ll only be choosing one (or two if I REALLY vibe with something), so make yours real good. I just wanna work on something fun that isn’t 30k+ long, ya feel?

So I’ve stolen from some prompt lists I found on @nochanchu​‘s blog (and linked to those original lists.)

This list is messy as hell, but send me the member you’d like it to be about + the au and/or situation and/or trope and/or quote. I may or may not use the line verbatim…. b/c I have a few sections in here, send me the entire line, prompt, or au. Or get more creative than me and send me whatever’s been heavy on your noggin.

AUs

TiMER soulmate au (I’ve already written two one-shots with this one so keep that in mind)

roommates au

hogwarts au (I ain’t writing about kids, tho, fyi)

teachers au

coworkers au

athlete au (specify the sport…)

tarot and/or palm reader au

SITUATIONS/TROPES

jealousy

confession

fake dating

meet cute

meet messy

enemies to lovers

friends to lovers

exes

situations continued, all via @nochanchu: THE NIGHT WE SHARED 

the night we shared with spaces between us

the night we shared with no spaces between us

the night we shared in silence

the night we shared on the road

the night we shared in bed

QUOTES

“My heart hurts when I look at you.” via

“You’re not nearly as smart as you think you are.” via

“Don’t tell me what to do.” via

“Tell me what you’re thinking right now.” via

“this can’t be real. i feel like i’m having a fever dream.” via

“don’t tell me to calm down” via 

“You must be out of your tiny mind.”

“You’re holding back.” via

“Something’s clearly wrong.” via

[nochanchu]

I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH CAT. YOU’RE THE TRUE GODDESS. AN INSPIRATION IN AESTHETIC AND WRITING. THANK YOU BB ♥️ i’m so touched that you responded so well to my poetry. just knowing that you’re there to read my work makes it all the more worth it to write! you’re amazing and talented and i am so honored to know you!!!

who's your closest friends on here?

ave @winetae !!!! I think it’s been three years of friendship now?? it’s always fun when you drunk facetime me but when will you rap cypher for me )): I’ve been asking for so long... anyway, ily more than i love taeyeon and jisoo and one day, I’ll visit you!! 💖💖💖 I can’t believe we were literally in the same airport at one point....

tk, miss eggy @eggyukhei you’re one of the reasons and my insp for why I even started this blog in the first place!!! I love all of your writings so much and you accept any weirdness or questionable fic idea I throw at you :’) also our ig dm’s are literally crack at 3 in the morning and I can send you viet memes like that yukhei tiktoker 👀👀

and great uncle mel @nochanchu ilysm you inspire me so much and always work so hard and I wanna be the first person in line with your future poetry book at your book signing. I’m gonna be that embarrassing mom friend who buys dozens of copies and sends it to all of my friends 💕💕

[nochanchu]

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If anyone with experience with audio transcription formatting would like to repost this with a better transcript, please do, my experience is limited.

As of today, June 16th, 2020, Alexis is at 11K followers on Instagram and has the swipe up feature, but please continue to share this website!

[nochanchu]

37 + jungkook

a must confession

pairing: jeon jeongguk x reader genre: best friends to lovers au | romance, fluff, themes of uncertain pining, includes drinking mention wc: 1,070 author’s note: love me a good ol’ bff2l au. had to do it man! my brain demanded it.

You hate the way wonder feels, proceeds. The way what-if’s take root as if they have any business pondering such preposterous things. And all the same, you can’t help any of it, because you are human. 

Jeongguk has always had a home in the back of your mind. You’ve known him for years, probably eons if you could describe the kind of camaraderie you two formed all those years ago. Largely thanks to your aunt, his mother’s best friend, who probably spent more time at your house with your mom than she did with anyone else. 

You have known him through the awkward phases and the emo phases, and have finally reached that phase in life where you two can laugh at all of it. You have seen him go from a gangly boy to a chisel-chested man, though you aren’t sure at what point that happened, but that shift, those mere months of his baby fat becoming high cheekbones and a defined jawline, his mere leanness gaining muscular heft, still baffles you. 

This boy you had seen through the years, counseled and supported as well, had, for a lack of a better word, changed. He had become… attractive, much to your chagrin. 

The same boy you had put in headlocks and jammed out to all the hard rock bands too. It feels almost strange to remember he was also the same kid that put together a whole dance break to Bohemian Rhapsody, though he had roped you in on the whole extravaganza, you remember it too vividly, never considered for a moment that you might actually find Jeon Jeongguk wholly attractive. 

And yet, you did. 

If you might be honest, and heaven forbid he ever hears any of it, you love all those phases of his. Not only that, you love being a part of it. You love that you and only you can share those moments with him because no one else has seen that true-to-heart dorky side to him, besides your mutual friends, and never quite any of his previous partners. At least not that you were ever made aware of. 

Hell, the last time he was with anyone was over a couple of months ago, and from the sound of it, that fizzled out fast. Chaeyoung had been sweet, a girl you admittedly liked out of the others he had tried pursuing, and yet she had stopped coming around a lot sooner than you expected. When you asked him about it, he simply brushed it off and cited that things hadn’t worked out, they wanted different things, whatever that meant. His look that day had incited an inkling of something in you, hope maybe, but you waved off the idea altogether. 

For Jeon Jeongguk to like you back, even love you, is an idea, a wonder, you don’t quite like to linger in for too long. The very principle of liking someone so close to you, in childhood and in friendship, feels unnerving, uncertain. Too cliché. Truly one wrong move away from him probably leaving your life because you decided to make things awkward. Hence why you hate to indulge in these thoughts at all. 

He doesn’t like me back, you tell yourself. I’m like a sister to him. 

At least you like to think so. You think you have to. 

“Hello earth to space cadet,” you hear him say. His visage becomes clearer; a little more golden under the warm floor lamp lighting, lips a little puckered to keep in the giggle, and doe-like eyes on you, searching. You remember right then that you’re with Jeongguk, in your bedroom, hiding out from the rest of the hullabaloo outside these familiar walls

You blink. “I’m sorry, what’d you say?” you punctuate it with a laugh, a nervous one that hardly goes unnoticed. Luckily for you, he doesn’t question it. 

Instead he asks, “What’s on your mind?” 

“Nothing,” you shake your head almost immediately, “just… nah, it’s nothing. Where were we?” 

His mouth goes slightly agape, no doubt a question in mind, before he decides against it, and replies, “Well, you were about to say something outrageous. That or go back out there and face the drunken aunties. I bet they’re waiting to give us more shots.”  

“Oh god no,” you blanch. 

You think for a second about what you might do, the safer option being the latter, but your mouth reacts differently, wondering what might happen. After all, you aren’t held to this confession. You can cite the silly game you guys are playing. A relaxed version of truth or dare that has never become too much more than just saying what celebrities you two would bang or what friends you think are secretly serial killers. It’s one of those games where you can say nearly anything, and it doesn’t necessarily need a hint of truth, just adventurousness. 

You feel that for some reason, perhaps to finally live out what confessing might feel like. As much as you hate it, you like the idea of getting things over with. Hearing the truth. You think it might help alleviate the fluttering in your stomach and the incessant chattering in your chest. 

“Me being in love with you.”

No doubt you say this with a lot less joviality than you might’ve if you were joking, but the words feel too right to try and play off. You took your chance. You aren’t sure what the outcome will be, and it sits a lot longer than you expect. It unnerves you. 

“What…” Jeongguk says, then blinks. “Really?” 

You stand up from the bed then. The denial stays in your throat, your opportunity to save face slipping away by the second. 

“I—I should go.” 

“Wait,” he says, a visible gulp when you look fully at him. “Don’t you want to know how I feel?” 

“As in… you feel the same… about me?” You point at yourself, a little dazed, wondering if this is real. 

He nods, pointing to you. ��Yes, you.” 

You have to take a seat, a deep exhale as you do, before you look at him and meet his beautiful brown doe-like eyes. Right then, you can’t help but let out a laugh of relief. 

“Holy fuck…” 

He joins in. 

“I know right?”

Hardly to plan, not that you ever made one to begin with, you can’t say you hate how wonder feels anymore. It’s quite nice actually.

[nochanchu]

What have the protests accomplished?

5/26 4 officers fired for murdering George Floyd 5/27 Charges dropped for Kenneth Walker (Breonna Taylor’s boyfriend, who police accused of killing her) 5/28 University of Minnesota cancels contract with police 5/28 3rd precinct police station neutralized by protesters 5/28 Minneapolis transit union refuses to bring police officers to protests or transport arrested protesters 5/29 Activists commandeer Minneapolis hotel to provide shelter to homeless 5/29 Former officer Chauvin arrested and charged with murder 5/29 Louisville Mayor suspends “no-knock” warrants 5/30 US Embassies across Africa condemn police murder of George Floyd 5/30 Minnesota Attorney General Keith Ellison takes over prosecution of the murdering officer 5/30 Transport Workers Union refuses to help NYPD transport arrests protesters 5/30 Maryland lawmakers forming work group on police reform, accountability 5/31 2 abusive officers fired for pulling a couple out of their car and tasing them - Atlanta, GA 6/1 Minneapolis public schools end contract with police 6/1 Confederate monument removed after being toppled by protesters - Birmingham, AL 6/1 CA prosecutors launch campaign to stop DAs from accepting police union money 6/1 Tulsa Mayor agrees to not renew Live PD contract 6/1 Louisville police chief fired after shooting of David Mcatee 6/1 Congress begins bipartisan push to cut off police access to military gear 6/1 Atlanta announces plans to create a task force and public database to track police brutality in metro Atlanta area 6/2 Minneapolis AFL-CIO calls for resignation of police union president Bob Kroll, a vocal white supremest 6/2 Pittsburgh transit union announces refusal to transport police officers or arrest protesters 6/2 Racist ex-mayor Frank Rizzo statue removed in Philadelphia 6/2 6 abusive officers charged for violence against residents and protesters - Atlanta, GA 6/2 Civil rights investigation of Minneapolis Police Dept launched 6/2 San Francisco resolution to prevent law enforcement from hiring officers with history of misconduct 6/2 Survey indicates that 64% of those polled are sympathetic to protesters, 47% disapprove of police handling of the protests, and 54% think the burning down of the Minneapolis police precinct was fully or partially justified 6/2 Trenton NJ announces policing reforms 6/2 Minneapolis City Council members consider disbanding the police 6/2 Confederate statue removed from Alexandria, VA 6/3 Officer fired for tweets promoting violence against protesters - Denver, CO 6/3 Walker Art Center and the Minneapolis Institute of Art cut ties with the MPD 6/3 Chauvin charges upgraded to second degree murder, remaining 3 officers also charged and taken into custody 6/3 Richmond VA Mayor Stoney announces RPD reform measures: establish “Marcus” alert for folks experiencing mental health crises, establish independent Citizen Review Board, an ordinance to remove Confederate monuments, and implement racial equity study 6/3 County commissioners deny proposal for $23 million expansion of Fulton County jail 6/3 Minneapolis Park and Recreation Board unanimously votes to sever ties with MPD 6/3 Seattle withdraws request to end federal oversight/consent decree of police department 6/3 Breonna Taylor’s case reopened 6/3 Louisville police department (Breonna Taylor’s murderers) will now be under review from an outside agency, which will include review on training, bias-free policing and accountability 6/3 Colorado lawmakers introduce a police reform bill that includes body cam laws, repealing the “fleeing felon” statute, and banning chokeholds 6/3 Los Angeles Mayor Eric Garcetti announces plans to reduce funding to police department by $150M and instead invest in minority communities 6/4 Virginia governor announces plans to remove Robert E. Lee statue from Richmond 6/4 Portland schools superintendent discontinues presence of armed police officers in schools 6/4 MBTA (Metro Boston) board orders that buses wont transport police to protests, or protesters to police 6/4 King County Labor Federation issues ultimatum to police unions: admit to and address racism in Seattle PD, or be removed 6/5 City of Minneapolis bans all chokeholds by police 6/5 Racist ex-mayor Hubbard statue removed - Dearborn, MI 6/5 NFL condemns racism and admits it should have listened to players’ protests 6/5 California Governor Gavin Newsom calls for statewide use-of-force standard made along with community leaders and ban on carotid holds 6/5 2 Buffalo officers suspended within a day of pushing 75 year old protester to the ground, and lying about it 6/5 2 NYPD officers suspended after videos of violence to protesters 6/5 The US Marines bans display of the Confederate flag 6/5 Dallas adopts a “duty to intervene” rule that requires officers to stop other cops who are engaging in excessive use of force 6/5 Dallas City Manager T.C. Broadnax releases an 11-point action plan for immediate police reforms 6/6 Statue of Confederate general Williams Carter Wickham torn down - Richmond, VA 6/6 2 Buffalo officers charged with second-degree assault for shoving elderly man 6/6 San Francisco Mayor London Breed announces effort to defund police and redirect funds to Black community 6/7 Frank Rizzo mural removed, to be replaced with new artwork - Philadelphia, PA 6/7 Minneapolis City Council members announce intent to disband the police department, invest in proven community-led public safety 6/7 Protesters in Bristol topple statue of slave trader Edward Colston, throw it in the river 6/7 NYC Mayor Bill de Blasio vows for the first time to cut funding for NYPD, redirect to social services 6/7 A Virginia police officer faces charges after using a stun gun on a black man 6/8 NY State Assembly passes the Eric Garner Anti-Chokehold Act 6/8 Democrats in Congress unveil a bill to rein in bias and excessive force in policing 6/8 Black lawmakers block a legislative session in Pennsylvania to demand action on police reform 6/8 France bans police use of chokeholds 6/8 Seattle council members join calls to defund police department 6/8 Boston reevaluates how it funds police department 6/8 Honolulu Police Commission nominees voice support for more transparency, reforms 6/8 Rights groups and Floyd’s family call for a UN inquiry into American policing and help with systemic police reform

No, it’s not enough, but this is only the beginning. Keep fighting!!!

(I adapted this list from this blog post and added sources and new entries. Please reblog with additions.)

[nochanchu]

37 + jungkook

a must confession

pairing: jeon jeongguk x reader genre: best friends to lovers au | romance, fluff, themes of uncertain pining, includes drinking mention wc: 1,070 author’s note: love me a good ol’ bff2l au. had to do it man! my brain demanded it.

You hate the way wonder feels, proceeds. The way what-if’s take root as if they have any business pondering such preposterous things. And all the same, you can’t help any of it, because you are human. 

Jeongguk has always had a home in the back of your mind. You’ve known him for years, probably eons if you could describe the kind of camaraderie you two formed all those years ago. Largely thanks to your aunt, his mother’s best friend, who probably spent more time at your house with your mom than she did with anyone else. 

You have known him through the awkward phases and the emo phases, and have finally reached that phase in life where you two can laugh at all of it. You have seen him go from a gangly boy to a chisel-chested man, though you aren’t sure at what point that happened, but that shift, those mere months of his baby fat becoming high cheekbones and a defined jawline, his mere leanness gaining muscular heft, still baffles you. 

This boy you had seen through the years, counseled and supported as well, had, for a lack of a better word, changed. He had become… attractive, much to your chagrin. 

The same boy you had put in headlocks and jammed out to all the hard rock bands too. It feels almost strange to remember he was also the same kid that put together a whole dance break to Bohemian Rhapsody, though he had roped you in on the whole extravaganza, you remember it too vividly, never considered for a moment that you might actually find Jeon Jeongguk wholly attractive. 

And yet, you did. 

If you might be honest, and heaven forbid he ever hears any of it, you love all those phases of his. Not only that, you love being a part of it. You love that you and only you can share those moments with him because no one else has seen that true-to-heart dorky side to him, besides your mutual friends, and never quite any of his previous partners. At least not that you were ever made aware of. 

Hell, the last time he was with anyone was over a couple of months ago, and from the sound of it, that fizzled out fast. Chaeyoung had been sweet, a girl you admittedly liked out of the others he had tried pursuing, and yet she had stopped coming around a lot sooner than you expected. When you asked him about it, he simply brushed it off and cited that things hadn’t worked out, they wanted different things, whatever that meant. His look that day had incited an inkling of something in you, hope maybe, but you waved off the idea altogether. 

For Jeon Jeongguk to like you back, even love you, is an idea, a wonder, you don’t quite like to linger in for too long. The very principle of liking someone so close to you, in childhood and in friendship, feels unnerving, uncertain. Too cliché. Truly one wrong move away from him probably leaving your life because you decided to make things awkward. Hence why you hate to indulge in these thoughts at all. 

He doesn’t like me back, you tell yourself. I’m like a sister to him. 

At least you like to think so. You think you have to. 

“Hello earth to space cadet,” you hear him say. His visage becomes clearer; a little more golden under the warm floor lamp lighting, lips a little puckered to keep in the giggle, and doe-like eyes on you, searching. You remember right then that you’re with Jeongguk, in your bedroom, hiding out from the rest of the hullabaloo outside these familiar walls

You blink. “I’m sorry, what’d you say?” you punctuate it with a laugh, a nervous one that hardly goes unnoticed. Luckily for you, he doesn’t question it. 

Instead he asks, “What’s on your mind?” 

“Nothing,” you shake your head almost immediately, “just… nah, it’s nothing. Where were we?” 

His mouth goes slightly agape, no doubt a question in mind, before he decides against it, and replies, “Well, you were about to say something outrageous. That or go back out there and face the drunken aunties. I bet they’re waiting to give us more shots.”  

“Oh god no,” you blanch. 

You think for a second about what you might do, the safer option being the latter, but your mouth reacts differently, wondering what might happen. After all, you aren’t held to this confession. You can cite the silly game you guys are playing. A relaxed version of truth or dare that has never become too much more than just saying what celebrities you two would bang or what friends you think are secretly serial killers. It’s one of those games where you can say nearly anything, and it doesn’t necessarily need a hint of truth, just adventurousness. 

You feel that for some reason, perhaps to finally live out what confessing might feel like. As much as you hate it, you like the idea of getting things over with. Hearing the truth. You think it might help alleviate the fluttering in your stomach and the incessant chattering in your chest. 

“Me being in love with you.”

No doubt you say this with a lot less joviality than you might’ve if you were joking, but the words feel too right to try and play off. You took your chance. You aren’t sure what the outcome will be, and it sits a lot longer than you expect. It unnerves you. 

“What…” Jeongguk says, then blinks. “Really?” 

You stand up from the bed then. The denial stays in your throat, your opportunity to save face slipping away by the second. 

“I—I should go.” 

“Wait,” he says, a visible gulp when you look fully at him. “Don’t you want to know how I feel?” 

“As in… you feel the same… about me?” You point at yourself, a little dazed, wondering if this is real. 

He nods, pointing to you. “Yes, you.” 

You have to take a seat, a deep exhale as you do, before you look at him and meet his beautiful brown doe-like eyes. Right then, you can’t help but let out a laugh of relief. 

“Holy fuck…” 

He joins in. 

“I know right?”

Hardly to plan, not that you ever made one to begin with, you can’t say you hate how wonder feels anymore. It’s quite nice actually.

[nochanchu]

here is a carrd for BLM 

here is a carrd for the crisis happening right now in Yemen

here is a carrd for Hong Kong

here is a carrd for Palestine.

here is a carrd for trans rights 

here is a carrd for the terror bill in Philippines. 

here is a carrd with various donation links (for Syria, BLM etc)

here is a carrd for LGBT+ rights

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