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trying to feel any emotion after the sun sets is like Oops! all guilt!

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Love when I go on Tumblr and it shows me stuff seemingly specifically designed to annoy me

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I’m not *really* suicidal anymore (thank god) but I also don’t know how to deal with strong negative emotions without immediately going to “hate myself? hurt myself? kill myself?”

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I logically know I did nothing wrong and I’m in the right, I wish my body and heart rate would agree with me

GAHHHHH i HATE that I can’t have a minor argument with someone online without it freaking out my nervous system and making me feel physically unsafe

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90% of sufferers quit right before they figure out how to give their suffering meaning

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GAHHHHH i HATE that I can’t have a minor argument with someone online without it freaking out my nervous system and making me feel physically unsafe

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I'm going to [doesn't even consider self-censoring bc letting pop psychology influence your behavior is cringe] fucking kill myself dude

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I feel like the loneliness of a person with SzPD is usually overlooked, I'm guessing it is because people assume we can't feel it but that is far from the truth, the loneliness is always there for us and some are occasionally haunted by it.

We're still humans at the end of the day, a naturally gregarious species that depends on each other for pretty much everything, being a schizoid is like living against your own nature and have you seen what that does to a living being? They start to develop stereotypical behaviors and some have a huge impact on their neurological health, causing irreversible damage.

The loneliness I feel as a schizoid person is a strange one, hard to explain but if I had to name it, I would call it "Void", a void that never goes away, sometimes I can ignore it, other times it hurts like a dagger cutting my chest open.

I don't miss the interaction, being around people or going out with my friends, I miss what I was supposed to be as a gregarious species, I long to feel the warm people talk about, the love, care and empathy that are supposed to give color to our lives, I guess my kind of loneliness can be summed to what I never had and know will never be able to have and feel.

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avpd/szpd culture is experiencing "love" more like a reptile would--in the sense that you are familiar to me and I appreciate you, however I cant feel any deep emotional connection to you.

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Nothing I do seems to make a difference anymore. I smile, it doesn't matter. I bite, it doesn't matter. My heart always stays closed, and the world passes by like rain on my windowpane. I've lost all my teeth.