niyabear

[niyabear]

I feel like 2020 is a like a relationship there are the time when all hope is lost when you wanna give up the bad the down of the relationship but then there’s the up the happiness the times you wish you could freeze time the times where you cry of laughter I feel like in the end we all know it’s gonna be okay no matter what happens.

[niyabear]

Oh dear kids your tender heart a Goodmorning and fuck what the world says

[niyabear]

Broken

You ever been so hurt to the point you don’t even know if you wanna die run away or just sit there and do nothing well I’m experiencing that I’m experiencing what you call heartbreak the true definition of it it hurts so bad to the point I could cry a whole river and it still wouldn’t be enough it hurts love hurts people who never been in love think love is just a train that you could just easily walk away from but really you can’t that train was so beautiful and magical and warm and cozy and you shared so many memories with it it’s hard to let go of something that you fell magically and unconditionally in love with but if you love something let it go”

—niyabear

[niyabear]

She slowly undressed me leaving nothing more but my naked soul awaking to be kissed touched to feel the fire sensation shooting through my veins as she touches every inch of me until I am nothing more but a speck of dust in the wind

—Niyabear

[niyabear]

“I think the most beautiful thing in the world is when you look into someone eyes and see the love but the purists of them all is when they say they love you and really mean it “

—Niyabear

[niyabear]

Try

I don’t even know why we tried we weren’t meant for each other

[niyabear]

Every time I try to voice how I feel people get upset or don’t care and you what really cracks me up is when people say you can come to me about anything knowing that is one heck of a lie

[niyabear]

The day someone looks in my eyes and ask if I’m okay and I lie and say yea but they don’t know that and they say no your not and it’s okay not to be okay and truly mean is the day I will truly break down and cry

[niyabear]

Insanity

People will drive you to this thing called madness it’s actually funny how people act you see new things from different perspectives I believe I have been driven to madness but aren’t we all mad on the inside I’m not gonna tell anybody eventually it will come out and I will stop not care it’s a day by day thing life changes you either for the good or bad I think it’s good the insanity only comes out when somebody pushes it I love Halloween because that’s when the real monsters come out to play that’s the day people can become crazy for however long they want so I silently listen to music to calm the inner me because I can see and feel it with the red eyes smirking at me clawing for me to come out I listenly to various type more so xxx, trippie redd,juice wrld. I feel like they get me on a different level than anybody else they tell emotions I can’t express and I’m glad I so excited for the day we’re I feel absolutely nothing I can look in his eyes or anybody’s eyes and feel nothing because that will be the day I truly be happy that will be the joy of my day so as day by day go by I lose more humanity no wait I lose more feeling and I’m glad it’s not on no other crazy shit cause that would be funny

[niyabear]

Happiness and love

What is the real meaning of those words people use them all the time so carelessly like these are delicate words who came up with these words and there meaning like how could two words determine your whole life two beautiful words could determine your whole life and I find it very strange because who gave us the real definition of these two words I think the real definition in those words is yourself happiness is not about always waking up in the morning with a smile on your face it’s seeing there staring at the perfect moment and not pulling out your phones but to look at the cherish moment and love is kissing in the rain not caring if you two get sick or seeing that person you love so much be happy with someone else that’s my definition but my definition I could write a whole book

[niyabear]

Life works in crazy ways

You wanna know something like is a crazy motherfucker it could have you screaming and smiling for joy then crying for sadness it’s scary but at the same time intriguing because as you study life more depending on how you make it you see life that way no matter what your going through or feel you see life that way you feel like it’s nothing and everybody can understand where your coming from your in a room screaming and crying and nobody is looking but we say we don’t want their attention we just want them to show they care

[niyabear]

I don’t even know anymore

You know how when you have so many emotions you don’t know how to feel like your mad but sad and depressed at the same time and it doesn’t matter if it’s that time of the month it happens with boys to sometimes you just need a day to yourself hide yourself for a while to find what really makes you happy stop talking and listen observe the world around you and trust me you will find out a lot of stuff and the crazy thing is the stuff you find out will amaze you because you never thought you would get so much information from people just by observing them it amaze me for the people I needed the most wasn’t there for me and the people that I thought wouldn’t be there was they saw me at my weakest moments and came to help me when I needed them the most I admit it was scary for me but I was weak i couldn’t protest so I just welcomed there help and it benefited me I ramble about things that still hunt my mind at night the thoughts that keep me up wondering and the demons that lurk within them the ones who call out the ones who scratch and claw the one who craves to be freed the madness that grins evilly at me waiting for when I get to my lowest moment but at the same time I don’t know anymore

[niyabear]

They don't know

People are always saying that we are to young to know what love is or how it feels I say no one is ever to young to know what love truly is romeo and Juliet were young when they fell in love I think the real reason they say we are to young to know what love is because they think love is experiencing pain love is not pain nor sorrow it is happiness joyful and secret and most of all patient it's funny though someone created this world that not many know what it means how it feels some people die not knowing what love is or never experiencing you find a lot of people wondering why there depressed because they need love all the world need is love and it will be happier

[niyabear]

The feeling of nothing

Have you ever felt the despair of emptiness and nothing like you have so many emotions till they all got bundled up and became nothing you never thought why you was feeling this what though it's like your screaming for help but no one is listening but now one will understand what your going through at least not your friends or family your having a battle in your head and right now your losing but you end up getting the upper hand if your strong enough

[niyabear]

I keep seeing this quote on Instagram and I found the book I was so excited😂❤️😍💓😘

[niyabear]

Scared

Maybe she was scared,scared because she thought she was going to get the same results

[niyabear]

Love

Oh how I crave thou lips on mine and how I wish they were secret to mine hidden deep inside thee where no one but thee would be able to touch them oh how my heart erks at attention from thou warm lips and thou warmth from thee body oh how sweet it sounds oh how I crave to here that dashing laugh that can cure cancer if it wanted to see that smile that could light up any room thy lips stay warm when I touch thou lips to taste the sweetest bud of thou sweetest honey dough