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2200cc, 2800lbs, 237hp 12 lb/hp, 108 hp/L

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i met her during a strange autumn of my life. an autumn where the leaves did not change. an autumn when i changed instead of nature. an autumn of why’s that i could not answer. an autumn of what’s that distorts my eyes. an autumn that became my how. how i will journey towards a love that meant me, myself and i.

“what was she like?”

she was like a november you could remember. she was the december that burns your skin. she was a january you have died waiting for. she was a february of hope and scars. she was like a march you filled your spine with. she was an april of jokes and laughter. she was a maybe that followed with “i love you.” she was a june you wake up every day for. she was the fireworks of july. she was the august inside your throat. she was the september tattooed onto your skin. she was the october without disguises.

and soon she’ll be my yearly love.

“do you love her?”

i don’t think love is a word that can accurately describe her. i think the soul and heart fits.

she has enough soul to keep the heart healthy.

“is she real?”

some days i ask myself the same question.

“and?”

she has to be.

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!!!!!

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😂

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Iruvyou

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Fresh 370

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hahaha Vale and Marc <3 

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😍

Pop Up Headlights

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Blueprint for a photo... Stunning detail

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A old task on the To-Do list

While still highly relevant, I found this on a digital sticky note I’ve had since sometime early 2012. I recall looking away from the text as I typed it and simply allowing my thoughts to flood out because I had so much on my mind and I didn’t want my reading the note to affect what I was writing, hence the typos. 

-Get Married to a beautiful and lovely senorita whom you will love and cherish. whose eyes you may look deep into in moments of anguish and find nothing but calmness, serenity, beauty. Find a person whom you will at once be willing to spend the rest of your life with, bi ithnillah... Through the thick and the thin. Do not repeat the mistakes that those around you have nmade.  Love and cherish this owman with all of your heart. Not just for her looks, but for the beauty she possesses within her character. For the smile that her words bring to you, For the calmness that the sound of her voice provides to you. Who makes you feel regret if at all discontent.  She, who;s beauty will not fade in any way, byu Allah.. She who your heart has been longing for ever since yyou were capable of such a desire. may Allah grant me the privelage of meeting this woman, and the privelage of spending my life with this woman, whoom I may take care of and who may take care of me, who I may cherish and who may cherish me, whom I may love and who may love me, whom I may hold and who may hold me... the thought of whom  that may reide within my mind when being faced with all sorts of imagery and shameless self-presentation and degredation throughout the days... whose  mere thought could overpower the false and substanceless allure of the millions of false attractions out there. I only pray that she may reciprocate such a feeling, as it is impossible for me to produce in someone else these feelings I hold. may Allah introduce me to her soon, before my mind goes insane, in search of the one who I think about every day... the one who's thoughts fill my head already... I search for her , yet all I find are materialistic females lacking genuine compassion, at lesat at face value, although I cannot judge. Perhaps she is there, just waiting for me to seek her out.

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S-twooooo

Salaam. well, here we are, just over 1 month into the new year. Sitting on my table are the keys to a car I have longed for ever since I came to know of its existence. The Honda S2000. Black. AP2. Cable throttle. The ultimate variety I could have imagined. Alhamdulillah. I am still in disbelief that I own this car today. Well, as I keep saying, technically the bank owns it. But the loan finally cleared, just today. That’s a scary feeling. I was hesitating to submit the signed loan document with an ounce of doubt, of uncertainty, of unclarity. Did I make the right decision? Have I bitten off more than I can chew? How will I maintain these payments? What about my student loans? omg full coverage insurance is expensive. What do I do? Should I back out now? Now it’s too late. I’ve thought this through. Had I not, I wouldn’t have stayed at the dealership for 4 hours on a work night taking care of the paperwork. I’ve known about my love for this car for a long time. Just as I fell in love with the Miata, I knew that the S2 would be the ultimate rendition of it. All the RWD low slung convertible top goodness, without the bubbly lines of the Miata. Not to mention the VTEC and stunning reputation held by the S2 in general. An incredible short-throw gearbox, the high-revving F22 engine, that digital tachometer, oh that sweet digi display. Now that the deal is done, I have to take full responsibility for it. That means taking care of her, keeping her healthy, making sure she is treated well, and enjoying every bit of her that comes along with that. I feel alive once again, alhamdulillah. This car is the spark to reignite my passion for automobiles. It enables me to finally feel like I am a part of what I love so much, rather than an outcast who only looks to others’ cars for how amazing they are. Now I feel thrilled about her every time she crosses my mind. I pray this relationship leads me down a good road (or many ;) inshaAllah, and I hope that this new addition to my life is a source of goodness and not of stupidity and foolishness. With great power, comes great responsibility, and I’ve certainly never owned a vehicle that produces this much power out the box, especially when the valve timing is varied to full spec. Sure 240 hp might not seem like much, but with a sub-3000 lb. weight designation, and of course the top down, and the engine screaming along at eight Thousand revolutions per minute, the experience is nothing short of theatric, and requires wisdom to pilot. I hope to learn a lot about her, enjoy her company, and treat her with the best I’ve got. Welcome home, my love. 

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The New Year

The new year; is already 12 days in. What a blessing it is to be alive today. I can't believe it's been such a long time since I've jotted down my thoughts. In just the past few months, I've moved out from Berkland, and my life has changed dramatically yet again. It seems that change is something to get accustomed to. If things didn't change, it would be a change, from the norm. I feel like my whole life has been loaded with changes. From the multiple moves that I can recall since i was 5, to the changes in family structure, geographic surroundings, financial standing, educational progress, everything has been rapidly changing as long as I can remember it. Not once did things sit still, and how could they? 

Moving from one city to the next, going from no dough to financial aid dough and now finally earning an income while having tons of debt doe.

The latest challenge is to get standing, after pulling out some major loans to get through school, and pay off these loans and ideally have some surplus remaining. Surplus for what? Pointless expenditures? No, got to take care of the basics, then/while hopefully pursue some passions inshaAllah. 

Meanwhile, trying to stay healthy, physically, mentally, emotionally. Maintain a workout routine, eat right and frequently enough to combat the skinnies I've grown up with. Mentally to challenge myself on a daily basis. I must not allow that to slip. Ever. inshaAllah. Emotionally maintain relationships with people I love and who also help keep me grounded. Loneliness is a real struggle and I must strive to maintain a balance of healthy social interaction amidst everything going on these days. 

I mean, it seems like a lot, but it's still not that much, I'm sure. Yes, the most challenging part is maintaining the regularity of the commitment, i.e. getting your ass to work on time every time, but isn't 'regularity or consistency of commitment' a major challenge in almost every facet of life? When you're married, you must be consistent with your spouse. When in school, hit that homework regularly. Lifting at the gym? Don't expect to become Arnold overnight. It seems like most meaningful things in life require a true (to the heart) commitment that is consistent and regular to obtain real results. 

People often struggle to maintain said commitments, and are eager to opt for an 'easy' solution, in the form of some type of magic pill. 

Well my battery's just about up. 

Peace. 

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