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the first law of tragedies: the end is already written and inevitable. the second law of tragedies: your actions are all your own and you can choose to get off this ride whenever you want. the third law of tragedies: we both know that you are never going to do that.

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🔆

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save me characters doing fucked up things out of self-preservation…..characters doing fucked up things out of self-preservation save me………..

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After years of such servitude, during an unguarded moment, Arcade used a surgical scalpel and his bare hands to disembowel himself. Caesar mourned his loss for months.

study of david's death of marat

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do they k*ss?

maybe someday!

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A WIP can sit dormant for a year and a half and still be happy to see you.

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heartbreaking. you have to write the fic youre writing in order for it to be written

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actually me fr

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The lab coat stays on during sex.

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part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

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Me after I open Google Docs: I can’t wait to write this scene in my head I’ve had for days. It’s going to be great.

Me two hours later:

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I am going to imagine a scene between two deeply fucked-up characters that is so improbably tender

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Enough of the trope where memory loss undoes the damage or the corruption or whatever. More content where removing memories just removes the context.

The tragedy of needing to grieve and not knowing what or who you lost or why. The angst of having trauma and being denied the awareness that it's trauma. The suspense of being different somehow and left to wonder how and when. The tension of knowing that something is off and you can't find where it hurts. The Adventure Zone gets it. Kingdom Hearts gets it.

There is an aching inside you and you don't know how it got there.

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Nothing worse than being obsessed with an ocs ship you haven't even properly written down yet