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i hope AI causes some sort of freaky renaissance

but a good one

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that guy i’m strangely and just, uncontrollably obsessed with is sitting across from me again

i just see him around and he’s just- idk know what it is but im so interested in him

like some divine thing

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this is visual language

black and white photo = old

statue = old

communication of relationships

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boys get to wear

one t shirt a day

wash day on sunday

jeans

wash once a month

why is it so much more difficult 4 me?

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i’m really bummed that i lost my v to a guy that- only wanted to fuck me because i looked like his mum

and i only wanted to fuck him because- in spirit- he kinda reminded me of henry rollins

but henry rollins ness really toes the line between- insightful, real, strong (mentally) poetic, beautiful, captivating, sincere - and the most vile, careless, self interested, offensive, insulting, nausea inducing, harmful, ignorant, loser who’s self indulgence intentionally rots everything it connects to including himself.

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why the fuck is there a tv showing me ads at the bus stop

and at the intersections

it’s all the time

and now there’s the mental health one it’s so dystopian “we don’t live in a society where the government funds enough public well-being”

and now on this gloomy day, standing next to a busy road, waiting for my bus, and being shown ads for new things to buy; this thing, comes out of nowhere, a reminder that things need to change in the way our cities and countries are built and run.

????

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i remember being little and being excited to go to school and see my friends

i would look forward life beyond my phone

i need to get rid of it right now

keep it in a draw and check it once or twice a day

take a burner phone with me out of the house, for important messages and calls

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comfort movies

1. mama mia

2. wizard of oz

3. marrrie annonette (spelling)

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Suzanne Valadon

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im literally about to cry over the concept of anal

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i worry that i don’t care about other people

i’m too focused on myself in my anxiety

was I offensive

was I mean

me me me me me me

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S

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Y disassociates during sex

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communication only works if you know what you want to communicate

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jesus fucking christ is this my life? am i just gonna get super depressed every month!!?? fuck me! i feel psychotic!

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responses to bullying in childhood

stage one- perpetual victim = when you interpret all situations as being threatening and feel upset or anxious because of this assumption.

stage two- continuing cycle = kill or be killed, you still interpret every situation as being threatening and feel upset and anxious about it- but rather than expressing those emotions one will “bully back” or lash out in other ways. This could involve a dislike for those in stage one as they are more openly vulnerable, leading to bullying behaviours towards these people from those in stage two.

this exists on a spectrum with stage zero being healthy, stage one and then stage two. unsure if there are more stages as that is outside of the scope of this tumblr post lol

based on two friends and myself

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watching lectures on 2x speed has ruined my brain so now i listen to normal talking in like super slow

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tik tok and attention span; how spending time on social media can shorten the attention span

hypothesis, when scrolling on tik tok or similar social media, the dopimine rewards are received in quick succession. This trains the brain to expect dopime rewards. When someone spends an amount of time on tik tok, the next —- is spent with a shortened than regular attention span and has long term effects on attention span