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How i have change from little me to adult

you really did a good job, living a good decent life dearself,i wont ask for more. You did well for everything you do, you were so good to others, obedient kid, too much babbling .

You were so different from me. I am less talkative, i dont really care abt others. i accept who want to stay and let go if they want to leave.

i hope ,my 30s self will be proud of 20s self me.i am sorry if i dissapointed you , but i am doing well in making money at least hahaba. I hope my 30s is the best year for me. I hope you are happy dearself.

Also, to read how arief affected my life. He is the most important event in my life. I never regret any with him .even things end. It will be best memories with you. I am happy to see you happy.pray for me too...

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i know it still haunting each one of us. She might still broken, me either. Though my relationship with him didnt go for more than years like they did. I am still the one whot get hurted played by him. Said we would make it right but he didnt take it as serious thing. Thats suck. Suck enough for me to adapt with the fact. I know she hurted more than myself but syd love her. Syd fight for her.but he didnt fight for me. He asked why we cant talk abt this at first, and put the blame on me. It was terrifying how he manipulated everything. Its suck. I dont want to go back to him. He dont deserve any part of me ,and my soul.i wish me and her will heal and meet someone who are bettsr 🙂

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“In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.”

— C.S. Lewis

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I am not the old me anymore, but she is more distant yet loveable, she shows no emotion but full of thought

she is no longer cute but she still has good manners

she no longer fight for someone, it is what it is for her

She no longer hold anything, she let go.

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I hate how syd played me

He is my fav men, but he messed up

and now i need to get over him, and afraid to believe,to take someone serious bcs what he did.

I really want to make it right but why is it so hard.

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I want to fast forward the time

To the future you

To the future me

I hope we can meet again with our best version

When the time is right for us

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If we can’t talk shit out, you ain’t for me.

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“I don’t care if it’s a sad good-bye or a bad good-bye, but when I leave a place I like to know I’m leaving it.”

— J.D. Salinger // The Catcher in the Rye

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Yes you played and used me

My fault is believing others will be honest and pure as i am

Believe everyone is kind

My bad, and stupidity

After 1 year, we finally talk. Only for me to realize you played and used me all the time.

Ah how much i wish i never give you any chances

Bcs if i never gave u the chance

I might still happy , im not playing ,

I regret everything.

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Mungkin hari ini, hari esok atau nanti

Berjuta memori yang terpatri dalam hati ini

Mungkin hari ini, hari esok atau nanti

Tak lagi saling menyapa

Meski ku masih mengharapkanmu

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Lets forget each other now.

I will dissappear as you wish

I hope by blocking you everywhere will help me to forget you

I hope when i finally forget about you,we will never crossed each other path.

Goodbye Awak.✨🤍

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I dont know why i started this

But this is crazy

I am sorry, i am not being myself lately

Maybe i was driven of his looks in you

I am sorry for trying. I knew it didnt meant anything to you. Bcs never a guy to fall to my cheap tricks.

I will keep our relationship as cust and seller

:)

I never want anything or expecting anything.

I ,myself do not know why do i need to contact you.but i will just stop having fun around.

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Why i feel so empty and numb

i dont know why i behave like this. Destroying myself

I dont know why i am being cheap

I dont know why i act like i am cheap

I have no intention to destroy myself

I have no intention to distract myself this way

But i also cant find a way to be finally okay

I thought i am done

But its actually, never.

I really want to fix everything 🥺

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I should've told you what you meant to me

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“And things are not always okay, but even from rock bottom, I can still see the sky. I can still see the stars.”

— Michelle K.

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Hello dearself.

Here you again, missing someone you said you didnt have any feelings.

Maybe its not real deep feelings, but it still hurt how this relationship end

I have always ready for the ending, but it still hurt when its over.

You have been so nice to me, i never hated you or angry. I , understand why did you chose this way. just wonder.. if you.. really hate me for real.

I am sorry that i miss you so much.

I wont try to reconcile or talk to you anymore.bcs it will make you hate me more..

I hope you will be a good man. I wish you the best ✨🤍