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Finally work is getting better and everyday i feel like I’m step closer to achieving my work goals. It a long way and thanks to my stupidity earlier I’m still on the beggining. But new life who this and I’m proud pn myself. So far I’m keeping up with all my responsibilities.

Now i need to finish my school essays as well. And I like it. I like the romantic version of studying. I’m very much in my dark Academia phase.

But i gained weight so much. I’m not even zhinkong about taking my measures I know it would be bad I can see it. My puffy face, belly, hands and all that. Calories tracking here I come again..

Need to find better motivation again.

All over.

Also the regime thing. It started so well my routines, things I was doing such as cleaning and stuff but then it became harder to keep it. I need to give it a month again. Might as well start now.

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Detox and fasting

It's time to prepare my body for new season. For spring. I'm preparing a detox and fasting plan. Starting this monday. (Of course this plan is made by myself for my body. I didnt consult it with a doctor so it's just on my own risk. If anybody by any chance find this don't take it as a medical advice and consult with your doctor first.)

Weekly intermittent fasting and detox plan

Monday:

Fasting: 16 hours (from dinner on Sunday to lunch on Monday)

Food: 8 hours (lunch, snack, dinner)

Detox:

2 liters of unsweetened water.

Herbal tea (e.g. mint, chamomile, nettle).

No alcohol, caffeine and processed foods.

Tuesday:

Fasting: 18 hours (from lunch on Monday to dinner on Tuesday)

Food: 6 hours (breakfast, lunch, snack)

Detox:

Continue to drink 2 liters of unsweetened water.

Include vegetable juice.

No refined sugars and carbohydrates.

Wednesday:

Fast: 20 hours (from dinner on Tuesday to lunch on Wednesday)

Food: 4 hours (lunch, dinner)

Detox: *Include epsom salt in your bath to aid detoxification.

Eat light and easily digestible food.

Avoid fried and fatty foods.

Thursday:

** Fasting: 22 hours (from lunch on Wednesday to dinner on Thursday)

Food: 2 hours (dinner)

Detox: *Include meditation or yoga to promote relaxation and relieve stress.

Continue to drink 2 litres of unsweetened water.

Avoid heavy and bloated foods.

Friday:

Fasting: 24 hours (from dinner on Thursday to dinner on Friday)

Food: 0 hours (complete fast)

Detox: *Include a walk in nature to support the lymphatic system.

Make sure you get enough sleep.

Avoid physical exertion.

Saturday:

Fasting: 48 hours (from dinner on Friday to dinner on Sunday) Meal: 0 hours (complete fast) Detox: Continue drinking 2 liters of unsweetened water. Include relaxing activities such as reading or listening to music. Avoid stressful situations.

Sunday:

Fasting: 24 hours (from dinner on Saturday to dinner on Sunday) Food: 0 hours (complete fast)

Then I want to continue fasting at least for 3 - 5 days.

We will see how it goes.

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How to speed up metabolism

Food

legumes (beans, chickpeas)

Chili peppers

Broccoli

Lentils

Oatmeal

Berries

Almonds

Water

Lifestyle

Regular meals

Eat more protein

Drink green tea

Strength training

Get enough sleep

Vitamins (B)

Hiit training

Stand up more

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Alone time

go for a walk

paint your nails

try cooking a new dish

read a book/ go to the library

write in your journal

catch up on your favourite shows

watch a ted talk/document

organize your clozet/room

go to a cafe

learn something

clean your home

create a playlist

declutter inbox

draw/paint

write

make a vision board

try a new hairstyle

redecorate your home

volunteer

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Give yourself 6 months. Take care of your body, mind, & soul. Give yourself 6 months to get into the habit of practicing radical self-care & self-love. Delete the apps, block the numbers, wake up earlier, get dressed up even though you're not going anywhere, eat healthier, journal, have spa days, & exercise. This is your ONLY life. Do what you can to love & enjoy every aspect of it. No more waiting. Be the person you've always wanted to be. This will not be like the other times, this time you will change, you will stick to habits, and you will see results. I believe in you.

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I'm about to dive head first into my renaissance girl era. Devouring books, feverishly learning languages, working through my watch list of films and adding entries to my film journal, discovering new music, buying new art supplies and painting more regulary, filming and editing videos simply for my own personal consumption, diving more into the art of cooking and even treating my entire look as an art form. The passion and love and richness of it all.

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It’s Sunday so it’s just about time to plan next week. I feel like having those stand up meetings with myself every week. What I did and what will I do.

So last week was my first week back in school now - first just as an afternoon teacher and soon as an assistant in 3rd Grade. Well at the end of the week I was getting used to rides there. But the last day I felt bad and now I’m sick.

I didn’t manage work at all. I need to get it done this week and move a bit towards the goals.

Today I had a dream about making a printed edition of an magazine. I felt inspired with it.

I did cleaning and home chores on 50%, ate well on 20% (not bad but definitely not something that would lead me to my dream body but I kept eating vegetarian most of the times which makes me proud)

So this week

I will go back to keeping record of my calories. Also I will plan some exercises with kids in afternoon. Like one hour we are working on our book and for example for 30 mins we will do ballet and some stretches. Also I will find some jogging plan since I can’t run a shit.

I will manage all my contact and will be active on Instagram again.

I will get on with my work again as planned.

I will plan my vitamins and food accordingly to what I need.

Rearrange my todos to be also more focused on my health.

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I got back to teaching kids and its great but a) I hate getting up early b) I am sick right now and am not sure how to do it.

I’m meeting new people and am talking with them altough they are completely different than “my kind of people” but currently there isnt much “my people” so I guess I have to go with it. I wonder if it is what keeps me from getting know more people - the constant high demands on people I am spending time with. It is deffinitely the reason I didn’t have friends as a kid. Like I knew I had someone to talk to but I didn’t think about them as someone equal to consider them my friends. I wanted be with the best. But felt like I’m not. But that changed of course or at least in some ways. But now when I’m meeting someone “normal” I approach them in my head negatively. On the outside I can act friendly but they all can see I’m distant. I’m here doing my job not to spend time with them and they feel it. That’s why we will never know each other better.

But it is a good thing overall - talk with somebody new energy though I won’t be thinking about being friendlier.

I also started to get my rituals done more. Well the getting up early thing kind of bummed it but I hope it will change soon. Although it doesn’t seem like it. I need to talk with the director about it

My body. Well. When I was teaching before (almost 2 years ago) I was chubby. One woman noticed that and told me I lost weight. Like a lot. That I’m skinny now. She asked me how but I didn’t know. The other day she brought a pie and told me there’s very little sugar in it. Like I’m glad it is visible even to others that I lost weight it feels good in a way but also terrible in other. I felt like I accomplished something but on the other hand I also feel like I’m scared to get fat again. I mean before I didn’t even noticed that I was getting fat. I just realised I was. What if it is happening again.

I know that I should stop worry and just stop eating shit and exercise again. But I feel like I have no energy for that right now. Of course that could be the reason of my unhealthy lifestyle as well. It’s just a wheel of worries and excuses. I need to cut it straight to stop it.

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There are some areas to which I’m always coming back. The general plan of me being that organized and pretty and successful young lady. Such as fly lady routines and habits. Fly lady is the reason I can keep up with clean apartment and not worrying about having a friend over. Also less things happier soul, right? There’s also many things I need to reorganise and fibish. My diaries for example.

Anyway since beginning of this month I’m determined to keep up with the fly lady. So far so good. I’m getting used to these stuff.

Reading and my morning and evening rituals are also part of this. And are something I enjoy but I have problem with waking up early. Im so tired all the time. Emotionally and physically.

The other thing is my French. I finally went for it in uni. Now I need to learn it pretty fast to succeed in it.

What isn’t going well is my body. Still trying to loose the fat. I need to gain some muscle I stopped exercising and it’s the worst. It wouldn’t if I would ate good but I’m not either. Same story over and over again.

My love life is terrible but I’m helpless right now.

Work life is also always like starting over.

And my anxiety is something I’m mentally working on to overcome since it wasn’t good lately as well.

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I am so confused sbout relationships. In general. I mean I’m not the one to fall in love immediately and I overthink everything and I have no idea what love is. I use to over analyse it all to the point where what’s left seems stupid and worthless.

I am in relationship for a long time. But is it love? I mean, I am sure I don’t want to start a family with him but altought I’m not ready to leave him. I feel safe and comfortable around him most of the time. Or is it just me being used to something and afraid to change it?

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Lost

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*It’s getting better all the time - by Beatles playing in the background*

Kind of. I’m doing my cardio and starting to take care of my body. (All the doctors check ups only last one waiting for me is the blood test I think I will do it this week… or the next)

I changed my hair colour again. New me here says hello. The old one didn’t work as I imagined.

I appear to have the same weights till January altought I definitely feel worse I still have 65 but I would love to loose these 5 kilos. Gotta work on it more. But it’s hard, motivation non-existent when it comes to food. But I could cut the dinner. I definitely can go just with a salad. Or it’s just my current obsession.

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I feel a little unwell. *unwell song playnig in the background*

My inspiration is gone, my energy as well. Last two days I cant seem to do anything and am just tired and stressed.

Because of my backpain I cant properly exercise the things I would like to and I’m constantly worried it’s something more terrifying than it is. Also I’ve been to some test and they found I have high Blood pressure. *under pressure tum tum tum tudu tum tum*

I’m also thinking about my passed grandpa and thats also a thing which makes me sad.

I need to change my attitude but I don’t know how.

I can smell the spring in the air and it smells like my first panic attack. And the fact I had a pause in taking my medication (I know again) is not helping as well. I’m taking it 3 days already but it takes time until it kicks in.

Creating stuff helps. Kind of. I learned to crochet and I’m knitting a scarf. Plus I’ve been doing some ceramics.

My mom was a whole week at the cottage, came back for a three days and yesterday went back. I think that made me feel lonely and add up to the stress.

I need to change my attitude completely.

Where is the new me project? I think that’s the only way that can kick me to my butt and get me going again.

So the march is slowly coming to it’s end. I have my exam done but not yet because I think I failed. I will do another one at the end of April. But I don’t need to study that much for it.

So for the social part - which I feel is the worst right now - I need to chat with more influencers and maybe make some friends among them. I will network. I have to sign up for the social breakfast. Both of the things help me in my work. And also I need to find some events in my community to find new friends who will mou intellectual boundaries. Maybe I’m extrovert after all. But nah. I’m just a strategist. I need contacts and I need new things to move me from my state.

The me project the body is still the main goal. But when I’m stressing around it’s hard to keep it. It just adds to the stress. But I feel like I was maybe more goal oriented - focused on something and felt better in general when I was focusing on the diet. I don’t know. I’ll do me best but I somehow feel unmotivated. Maybe if I’ll track results. Not sure. ,

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Ok nevermind the last post, my fitness life is ruined. I ate too much (seriously too much) and I didnt exercise - I studied or that was my excuse at least. Truth is my back still hurt as hell.