newgreenhairgirl

[newgreenhairgirl]

Im back! Went to hard on the ice anddd was sent to rehab. I have like three months sober but maaannnn I wanna somke a blunt. 

ALSO I LIVE IN A FUCKING SOBER HOUSE.

I get drug tested every week. I mean I guess its okay since Im on probation. I was only suppoe to be on probation for 6 months well guess what Ive been on it six months and I still have a YEAR left. FML

[newgreenhairgirl]

[newgreenhairgirl]

I MISS DRUGS

Fuck

[newgreenhairgirl]

I wish I had a bar right now. My old job is pissing me off. Maybe things happen for a reason. I don’t fucking know.

I’m gaining weight because I’m off of meth. I really angry but just trying to vibe.

Low key hate my life.

[newgreenhairgirl]

Im hiding this from sal and it’s hard but this is where I can be the real me.

I’m depressed and I wish I had drugs.

[newgreenhairgirl]

It happened again. I went fucking crazy on meth again.

I’m back in my hometown, living with sal. I took to many bars to remember what exactly happened. I just know I need to stay away from meth.

It’s like I have shit together one day but when I have meth and go days with it I go crazy and lose my shit.

I’m okay now but my withdrawals are hell. I need a bar so bad. It’s hard being an addict.

Oh and I also tried heroin for the first time. I don’t remember how I felt but I just know if I did I would have loved it. 

[newgreenhairgirl]

Fuckkkkk I just slept for like 26 hours.

Called into work twice.

Fucking meth

I love it

But I’m so sore 😭

[newgreenhairgirl]

Sorry guys I haven’t been posting, been on a meth binge for 2 days lol I need sleep 😂

[newgreenhairgirl]

Just a little trip

Might take a little trip tonight. Lets gets trippy 

[newgreenhairgirl]

Annoyed

Kyle asked me on a date and he also asked if he could eat lunch with me today.

I said no. I don’t know how I feel about anything. I’m just going to become a lesbian. Fuck it. I feel meh and annoyed. 

This meth isn’t even getting me high. Fuck I miss weed so much. Just a year of probation.. This diet sucks too. I need a good fuck.

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[newgreenhairgirl]

Depression

I am pretty sure i’m just a hook up to Beau. I’m kinda sad about that I liked him but whatever I’m just going to ignore him now. I’m hungry.. this meth isn’t working if I am hungry. I took a line this morning and my nose started bleeding for the first time... ouch...I don’t know why i feel so sad today.. this high is sucking.. I miss weed. Meth isn’t fun alone.. 

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Great Sex

Beau was so sweet to me... i really hope he likes me. I have a feeling he has a girlfriend and isn't telling me. The sex was amazing... I hope he stays in my life and becomes my boyfriend. He has a little lazy eye tho but its okay his sex makes up for it. 

I just told him i missed him and he didn't say it back instead said “I wasn't that good (monkey covering face emoji)” does that mean I was just a hook up? He said i was cute today and that i was going to see him again soon. I wonder if he will ever take me out in public? also hes 9 months and I a methhead.. He probably wants somebody sober and beautiful... which is not me..

[newgreenhairgirl]

Beau

cute guy alert.

His name is Beau and hes super cute...Hes a 9 and I am a 2.  I hope he likes me for me and doesn’t just use me..I mean im still willing to fuck but damn it would be nice to have somebody in my life that stays. 

but hes sober and I am not.. I hope i don’t fuck up his life. 

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The Burn

At work right now and my dealer just delivered some meth and OMG the burn is amazing. Since I cant smoke anymore, this will do. 

I missed it. I just cant get out of hand again. I’m kinda Horny. Hope today is a good day!!! 

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[newgreenhairgirl]

Fuck micheal. I’m just a snap chat booty call to him. His late night cum call.