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So it’s been a while. I haven’t been on this page in a long time, at least it feels like it’s been forever. Life has been good most days, some days though not so good. Lately I feel like there’s been more bad days than good and I don’t know why. I feel like it’s God telling me to chill out, I feel like everyday I’m getting farther away from Him, and I think that’s why lately I’ve been having a hard time. Today that all changes, I’m changing everything about me. I’m getting back on the right path and not gonna stray from it again. I have to get back right with my life, stop doing half of the stuff that I’ve been doing. 

Tonight I went to the movies with my youth group and we watched “I’m not ashamed” and oh how it opened my eyes. I don’t cry often, but there wasn’t a dry eye by the end of that movie. It made me realize that you need to be a nice person to everyone. You need to show compassion to everyone even those that show none back to you. You never know when you’re last breathe will come, so make sure you’re living right with the Lord. Have a relationship with Jesus Christ our Savior, he’ll get you through everything and anything you’re dealing with in life. No one is a perfect person, but with God he’ll get you through it all, He loves your imperfections, every single one of them. 

Lately I’ve been unhappy with everything. I’m starting to withdraw myself from people, my friends, family, people who love me. I don’t know why I do this, but I can’t really help it. I go into this mode of not wanting to talk to anyone, I don’t want to leave my bed, I go into a mode of not being able to deal with anyone. I hate that I get into these moods, I hate not being able to tell people how I truly feel. I hate that I don’t have that person who I can tell all of my feelings, good and bad, to. I don’t feel like I have anyone who will just listen to me, because I’ve never been the person to tell my feelings, ever. I’ve cried in front of my friends and family twice, when my best friend died. Other than that I don’t cry, I don’t show my feelings, ever, that’s just who I am. I need to open up to people, I need to tell people how I really feel instead of telling people I’m okay when in reality I’m not. I don’t know, i’m just rambling by this point. 

I don’t even know the point of this post....

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Every time I get on any kind of social media, it makes me realize why I hate people..... 

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So this happened today!!!! 😍😍😍😍

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So this just happened😍😍😍

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Dragon con 2015<3

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IT’S TIME FOR TEEN WOLF!!!!

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Update

So long time no see... I’ve been computer-less for a while now so I haven’t been able to post on here and posting from my phone sucks so yea. I just got a new computer so hopefully I’ll be able to post a lot more. But I figured I’d do a quick little update on whats been going on in 2015 so yeah here we go. 

January: Our year started off rough as my uncle was in the hospital 2 hours away not doing good at all, and my great grandfather was also in the hospital after having a stroke and heart attack. My uncle is autistic and had a major set back, at one point we we’re told he had cancer and only had six months to live. Well I’m happy to say six months has came and went and he is still doing good. Not doing as well and we would like him to be doing, but he’s still here with us and that’s all that matters. His birthday was actually yesterday and he turned 24 years old. Other than that though January was kinda boring, just a lot of traveling back and forth. 

February  My brother, Riley, turned 23 years old. My little brother, Westin, tested in karate and got his purple belt. We found out that my cousin was having a baby boy!!! It snowed and iced over for a week and CVS got to close early at least three times. 

March I traveled to Mobile to hang out with my best friends. It was also St. Patrick’s day so we went out and had a fun night. I also watched all of the hunger games for the first time along with divergent and insurgent. 

April Easter with the family. We took our annual dysfunctional family picture. April 20, was two years since my best friend Bradley was killed in a motorcycle wreck. It’s a day that will never get easier to get through but he lives in my heart always. On April 22 we found out that my cousin had unfortunately lost her baby boy. On April 23, 2015  my cousin gave birth to a beautiful 2 pound baby boy, Haithan Kash who unfortunately we had to say goodbye to just as we we’re saying hello. April was most likely one of the hardest months ever and it taught me a lot about myself. The weekend after the death of my baby cousin, my best friend and I headed to Atlanta to see All Time Low for the third time in concert. We almost canceled the trip because I honestly wasn’t feeling up to it, but I’m so happy we didn’t, it was a much needed get away. 

May We had our memorial for Haithan, most likely one of the hardest days of my life. My older brother, Riley, graduated from college! My little brother passed the 2nd grade. 

June I went canoeing for the first time with some old and new friends. I also went to a craw fish broil which I got to see more old friends, which is always fun! I headed to the beach with my family for a week. Crazy and amazing and I loved every minute of it even though we are a dysfunctional family. We had vacation bible school at church which is always interesting, but I loved every minute of it. 

July Westin became a brown belt in karate, he’s now 4 belts away from black belt!!! I spent the 4th of July with my family and the next night with my church family and great music. We had a tornado in my hometown and didn’t have power for over six hours. We adopted a new puppy!!!!! She is 9 weeks old and a Siberian husky and her name is Sasha!! She is a crazy puppy and very wild but oh how we all love her!!!

And now we’re in August. How it’s already August is beside me, I feel like it was just January!!!! But I can’t wait to see what the rest of this year has in store for me and my family!!! Hopefully I’ll get to write on this thing more often now, that I actually have a way to do so, but we’ll see. 

Until then <3

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2 years....

Two years.. It's been two years since I lost my best friend... Two years since a part of my heart was completely broken... How can it already be two years?? It feels just like yesterday, I saw the news... Feels like yesterday I was saying goodbye.... I so cannot believe it's already been two years... They say it gets easier, and it does. But there's never a day that goes by that he's not on my mind, never a day that I don't think about him.... I love you Bradley Davis<3 I know your partying it up in Heaven, but oh how I wish i could see your pretty blues one more time... Hear your voice, hear you singing and playing the guitar... Watch you dance to Michael Jackson... Oh what I'd give for one more day...

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2014… It’s been real and it’s been fun but I’m ready to move on to bigger and better things! I figured why not do a little look back on my 2014 so I would have something to remind me what happened on down the road, so yeah let’s goo!!!!

January:  Not much happened. Officially only working one job. Other than that it was pretty boring.

February:  Riley turned 22. I worked ALL the time. 

March:  Dad's Birthday. Demi Lovato Concert In Nashville, TN. 

April:  All Time Low Concert In Birmingham, AL. Cystic Fibrosis 5 Mile Run with Mom & Allie in honor of my best friend Hannah. I paid my taxes like the adult I am for the first time. 2 Year anniversary of Bradley's Death. 

May:  We found out that Sabrina was having a baby GIRL! Westin's First Karate Tournament, Held in Gulf Shores, AL. Mothers Day. Brittany's College Graduation from Nursing School. Addyson's fifth Birthday. High School Graduation of great friends. 

June:  Trip to New Orleans, LA. Cruise To Cozumel, Mexico & Pregreso, Mexico with my family. Brianna's Wedding. Vacation Bible School. 

July:  Chase's 15 Birthday. Westin's 2nd Karate Tournament in Huntsville, AL. Shopping Trip to Nashville, TN with Allie && Hannah. 

August:  Kaylyn's 1st Birthday. Allie & Hannah moved to Mobile for college. Katelyn's 15th Birthday. Allie's 20th Birthday. I cut ALL of my hair off!

September:  Trip to Mobile to see Hannah && Allie. My 21st Birthday. Sabrina's Birthday. Isabella Kate was born! Austin's birthday. Samantha's Birthday. 

October:  One Direction and 5 Seconds of Summer Concert in Atlanta, GA with Hannah. Westin's 8th Birthday. Out of town for Westin's Birthday. Eli's 3rd Birthday. Mom's Birthday. Two day trip to Mobile to bring Kaylyn back home! 

November:  Bradley's 21st Birthday. Hannah's 21st Birthday. Thanksgiving. Dad's doctor appointment for weight loss surgery. 

December:  Brooklynn's 6th Birthday. 17 Hour trip to Nashville with the older ladies at Church. Working at two stores in one day! Working 90 hours in two weeks. Christmas play at church. Christmas. New years Eve. 

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2015.. Already Stressed Out....

So long time no see.... I haven't really had much to talk about lately. I have my what happened in 2014 post that I'll eventually get put up, but lately life has been rough. 2015 has somewhat been kinda rough so far and I'm already ready for it to be over.

Christmas was good, I worked Christmas eve morning and it was a little bit rough but I got off at 4, so I got to go spend some time with my family, however I went back in at 8 to work for two hours because night shift cashier was strung out and had to go home, so my manager was by herself and I felt bad so back I went. Christmas day was good, I was woken up by a 8 year old at like 6 am. But hey, my older brother used to wake me up at 2 am so I guess 630 is okay. I had to work 4-8, which I thought was stupid, but oh well I don't make the rules.

Then you get to this week and everything went downhill so fucking fast. Both my store manager and assistant manager went on vacation, which I thought was stupid and they shouldn't have done it, but whatever. I worked Monday through Saturday with people who are stupid and don't really listen to me, mainly because their all older than me. So that really just pissed me off, and then the other manager that I worked with is just really stupid and doesn't really have any common sense and she didn't do anything that I said either, so I honestly felt like I was babysitting all week. I honestly thought though that I did a pretty good job seeing how It was the first time I was really left alone to do everything but apparently according to my assistant manager that was wrong. I knew Friday morning before I went to work that I was going to get yelled at for something that I didn't do, something I did wrong, or honestly for anything under the blue moon. Boy was I right, the first words out of my assistant manager's mouth was "why didn't this get done" "Why is this this way" "Why did you do this this way" I honestly felt like either A) Cussing her out, which I had to tell myself NOT to do or B) I was going to walk out of the store and say I don't need this shit. So I simply walked out of the office and went back doing my actual cashier job and checking people out. She was still a total bitch about every single little thing but I only worked 4 hours that day so I kept away from her and tried to really just keep the peace. So today I worked until 1 again (five hours today) and she got there at 1. My cashier was on lunch when she got there and of course her first question was where is she, how long has she been gone, blah blah blah. So I stayed an extra 30 minutes (even though I was already over in hours) and she was just a total bitch the whole time and then she was like what did you do today? I was like I did the whole damn list that you left me, but I know I most likely didn't do it right to your standards. NOTHING I FUCKING DO WILL EVER BE ENOUGH FOR HER AND I'M FUCKING OVER IT!!!! My self esteem and my happiness had FINALLY gotten to a good point in my life and then you have this bitch who want to ruin it all. I honestly just cannot work with someone who is going to make me feel like complete shit everyday that I have to work. I used to LOVE my job, I used to look forward to working and now I Fucking DREAD it! I HATE going into work because I'm always expecting a note that's going to be left chewing me out for something, or a note telling me that I didn't do something right. She's going to be there gripping at me and I CANNOT deal with it anymore. I refuse to be put in that situation everyday. It's not healthy for anyone, especially not for me. I don't know I'm really just rambling even though I've already gone through this conversation with my mom and then I get to have it again with my actual store manager Tuesday. but I'm done for tonight....

But yeah, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Years and hopefully 2015 will be a Great Fucking Year<3

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Happy happy 21st Birthday to this sweet crazy boy! Still doesn't feel right with you not here. Still feels like a nightmare... Not a day goes by that he doesn't run through my head. Not a day goes by that I don't miss him. What I would give just to be able to spend one more birthday with him or talk to him one more time! I know he's partying it up in Heaven though! And I know I'll see him again eventually! Party it up big time sweet boy and watch over your mama she's gonna need it today! <3 Love you, forever and always!

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5 Seconds of Summer && One Direction Concert...

So last night I spent the night in Atlanta, Georgia! My best friend and I had tickets to go see 5 Seconds of Summer and One Direction in concert! I was excited, but no where near as my best friend Hannah. I was more excited to see 5 Seconds of Summer than One Direction, mainly because I haven't really been listening to One Direction lately. However I can say last nights concert was one of the best concerts I have EVER been to. Hannah and I tend to go to a lot of concerts year round, and some have been good while others were simply better and this concert was one of the better ones. 

5 Seconds of Summer started off the concert and I honestly just love them so much. They are precious. They're also pretty freaking great and you can't really help to not like them. They sung a few songs and then we waited until One direction decided to come on. The break between the two bands was honestly one of the longest breaks ever. It was a hour and a half break but it was totally worth it. While we were waiting for them to start we did get to see some drunk girl being carried out by police, twice... haha & we had REALLY freaking annoying kids behind us but it was really worth it. 

One direction finally decided to come out around 9:30 & the loudness that erupted when they came on was insane. This concert was honestly one of the loudest I've ever been to. They sung a crap ton of songs, I got to record a million songs, they were really just freaking amazing. We also got to see a guy propose to his girlfriend, in which while we were waiting on them to start we saw on twitter that it was actually trending, so I think that was pretty freaking awesome. I honestly just can't wait to start posting my videos and pictures. 

The concert ended around 11:45 I want to say, and then we had to walk back to our hotel. In which we got lost and had to ask a police officer for directions because we honestly had no clue where the crap we were going, but we did eventually make it back to the room around midnight and I couldn't have fell asleep faster because as soon as my head hit the pillow I was out! 

I honestly had one of the best nights that I've had in a VERY LONG time. I would go see both bands again in concert without hesitation. Well I'm actually going to see 5 Seconds of Summer again next August, but I'd love to see One Direction again. I'm so thankful that I have such a good friend that I get to experience stuff like this so often. I wouldn't change this part of my life for anything. Now I can't wait for another concert to happen. <3 

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Atlanta bound!!!!!

One Direction &&&& 5 Seconds of Summer bound! Yes I’m 21 and going to see 1D & 5SOS in concert!!!! 😁😁😁😍😍😂😂😂👍💁❤️

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Atlanta bound!!!!!

One Direction &&&& 5 Seconds of Summer bound! Yes I’m 21 and going to see 1D & 5SOS in concert!!!! 😁😁😁😍😍😂😂😂👍💁❤️

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Atlanta bound!!!!!

One Direction &&&& 5 Seconds of Summer bound! Yes I’m 21 and going to see 1D & 5SOS in concert!!!! 😁😁😁😍😍😂😂😂👍💁❤️