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Black Butler || Ciel Phantomhive

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Kuroshitsuji moodboard: Ciel Phantomhive - Bedtime Stories (requested by: @future-dregs)

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I just played Till Death Do Us Part for the first time.

I'm now certain I kin the MC from it, my primary timeline being Jack's routes. I refuse to entertain the idea of kinning the MC from Chris' route - especially seeing as someone else in my system is currently kinsidering him. I do kin from Marcus' routes as well, however I won't be posting about it much as it's for coping purposes due to the similarities between he and a past abuser.

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A pastel aesthetic for an MC who was Sano’s doll and was madly in love with him! Hope you don’t mind it’s very,, pink,,

Okay to tag as kin/ID/me

~ Mod Ren

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Aesthetic for a Nate River (Near) from Death Note in white.

For anon!

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I can't help but miss Matt...

He made me feel safe in a way nobody was able to do before, and nobody has been able to do since. During the calm moments we were together I always felt a gentle warmth settle in my chest and spread throughout my whole body. It was comforting. He was comforting. I want that back...

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As someone who kins MC (BTD), figuring out my canon is difficult.

I consider myself to only have two "canons", however multiple timelines within each canon with varying levels of importance. I have a canon for the first game and a canon for the second.

For the first game, I haven't quite figured out which routes I would consider of the highest importance, however I know none of Strade's routes (save for "He'll keep you forever" and "Strade made you a star") are of much importance to me. I know for a fact I identify more with Sano and Rire's routes, however I can't yet specify anything beyond that.

For my canon for the second game, I know for a fact my most important timeline is Cain's routes, specifically "Cain made you into a demon" and "Cain saw your value", however I believe I have a noncanon timeline in which I was already a demon disguised as a human when we met.

I'm currently in the process of replaying both the first and second game, so I hope to have a better idea of which timelines I identify more with as I play all the routes.

As far as I recall, I was similar if not exactly the same as how I am now - name, appearance, and personality wise. However I'm still not 100% certain of this.

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About

I don't usually interact with the kin community, however seeing as I'm slowly gaining memories for a few of my canons I thought I'd start this blog as a way to share my memories and perhaps find canonmates.

I'll try to keep this post short, but introduce myself.

My name is Nevermore Atsune, however I go by N. I am a trauma holder in a DID system, and I kin (mainly fictionkin, however I do have a few otherkin types as well). I myself don't have an age, however the body is 20. I am a fictive of Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler and Near from Death Note.

My main otherkintype is a fallen angel. I don't have any memories. I also kin Cinderella and Humpty Dumpty from Blood Bank, Male!MC from both Mystic Messenger and the Boyfriend to Death games, and Rapunzel from Tangled. I have memories for both Male!MCs. I am not currently looking for canonmates for Near, however I'm open to finding canonmates for any of my other kins.

If anyone is interested in speaking with me, I'll respond to messages whenever I front. I'm also an age regressor, and my age regression blog is @agere-near.