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Gonna eat something and then I'll see if we raid people's open / meme tags today or if I manage to make a notable dent in drafts

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✿‧̥ the way you portray your muse is amazing. don't discredit all the love you pour into your blog. from your threads , headcanons , and other posts. no matter if they're an oc or a canon , the rpc is so lucky to have you as part of it. thank you for being here and making this space a better place ! thank you for sharing your portrayal with us ! never let anyone take away the joy you have in writing your character , because you being in this space does matter.

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They had been at this exact point before, knew how it had ended. The moment Nick had been out the door he had succumbed to the turmoil his head had been. An untameable mess he only had known one way to escape. All because Trevor had been his worst self. Had used Nick's need for connection, his feelings for the male like a weapon and the blow had been fatal.

Every other person in Nick's shoes would've banned Trevor from their life for good. Wouldn't have risked to be torn apart like that ever again. But Nick wasn't like other people, what was a blessing and curse at the same time. He functioned differently. Additionally, there was this invisible pull he felt towards the other, something just kept drawing him in no matter what. It was fucked up.

He really didn't want to allow Trevor to have this power over him. However, something about the current moment was different. Nick was more collected and Trevor unmistakably was making an effort to actually answer his question this time around.

Dark eyes didn't miss the other's struggle, it was readable within his body language, in the tension which took a hold of Trevor. Things Nick had began to pay more attention to ever since his last discharge, ever since he had gotten involved with the man all over again. Yet Nick didn't move, remained silent when the other's emotions poured out of him along every word spoken.

I'm lost without you. Final words which summoned up exactly how Nick was feeling too. It shouldn't be this simple, but it very much was.

Wordlessly Nick finally moved, stepped away from the door as he closed the space between them when his arms wrapped around Trevor. Pressed their bodies together as he just held him.

( @eniqmvtic )

@neverfittedin sent: ❛ why me? ❜

The boy in front of him looked at him with teary dark eyes, accusingly. It wasn’t just a question, two simple words, it was as if asking for that reason was breaking him apart.

Agitated, Trevor’s breathing was irregular, more like panting, his chest heaving rapidly as if he had run up the fucking stairs, when really he just had reached out to grip Nick’s arm and stop him from leaving his apartment. Now, he let go, and even took a step back.

He ran his hand over his head, eyes looked everywhere but at the boy, as if searching for that answer somewhere in the room.

“I don’t know, I don’t fucking know.”

Nick didn’t have to say it, he could read it in his eyes when he looked at him again. Not good enough. That answer wasn’t good enough, not after all that had happened, all that he had done.

Trevor averted his gaze, then reached out again but stopped himself. Balled the hand into a fist, like he was ready to hit something – or hold something. When he finally looked at the boy with the messy hair, his face showed all kinds of expressions, from frustration to impatience, from annoyance to despair to pain.

His body was so tensed up, it felt like he was shaking – from withdrawal. And it was just like that.

“Because it’s you. You’re what’s missing. What’s been missing. The whole time. That piece of me that’s not me, that’s you. That what makes me complete. I fucking know it’s not perfect, more like the opposite of perfect, shit. Fuck! I know. But it’s everything. You’re everything. You’re why I can’t let go of you. You’re the reason why.”

Agitation in his voice, and his tone changed from yelling to a whisper, and almost broke at the end. Like he was afraid, and he was never afraid. Like this wasn’t enough, he was not enough. He was so used to charm others with words, but couldn’t find the right words when it mattered, for the one time it really mattered, he was lost for words.

“I’m lost without you.”

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ARE YOU NICK'S TYPE

"You know the blanks ain't a dealbreaker, babe."

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ARE YOU NICK'S TYPE?

"Your obvious need for attention aside, I'm seeing three bingos there, Rae. Makes me wonder why we haven't make out yet."

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(the small x on mariah's is that I believe he has potential to match her energy and the small x on elend's is that also nick would need to get use to it but then he won't mind)

"Oh, we can have fun i think, and I'll go easy on him at first to see if he can."

"We tend to try to ease people into the whole "sianach are scary predatory deer, that do well, eat humans as is, so, that's not too big of a deal. Baby steps, that's okay."

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jokes  on  him,  with  this  score?  she's  going  to  force  her  way  into  taking  care  of  him.

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#Positivity Protocol! 😄💙☀️ Send this to ten muns who you think portray their muses so damn well and are just generally awesome!

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Thank you so much, Claire !! It's so incredibly sweet and I like your take on your muses which I had been seeing around and which I got to write with a bit so far !! Looking forward to more interaction in the future !!

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#Positivity Protocol! 😄💙☀️ Send this to ten muns who you think portray their muses so damn well and are just generally awesome!

INBOX LOVE

Thank you, Victoria !! This is so sweet of you and even though I've already said it, I'm saying it again, we love seeing Sam on the dash and how much love you put into her !!

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Yesterday had played out differently from how I had planned it and it left me frustrated. But today I'll be around, mostly lurking though, I think.

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since you sent this to me i haven't stopped listening to it

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( leaving this here for anyone who'd like to send it in )

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is your muse naughty or nice this year ?

"I only have OF, what the fuck are you talking about?"

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" — Oh, look. There it is."

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Scarlets taste in men are sweethearts or self destructive idiots.

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#Positivity Protocol! 😄💙☀️ Send this to ten muns who you think portray their muses so damn well and are just generally awesome!

INBOX LOVE

All the love for you, Luna !! You and your muses are always a delight to write with !!